TTC journey November

[Martina2311]

Hey everyone! Anyone who would like to join me and share feelings thus cycle? I'm 29, second month of TTC our second baby. All new to this tracking but trying to track my temps and doing OPK. I'm on a CD4. Anyone who would like to join me on the journey? Fingers crossed this is our lucky month! 😍

Hey Martina2311 . Hope your well, not sure why my post doesn't sometimes post! Did you retest again? You didn't have any symptoms did you? I'm currently 10dpo n have no symptoms still. Feeling down

Hey @Farhana170 ! Yes, I've tasted again yesterday and today as well and the lines are stronger :) I also told my DH today.
I didnt have any symptoms at all. Can't count my sore breasts because they always just me before AF is due.
Only today - 12DPO I feel a bit nauseous and completely foggy. I just managed to forget my handbag on the bus, containing £110, all cards and ID...£60 voucher to Zara. I got really emotional and upset as I've done so much overtime this week and felt really sad to have lost it such a silly way. We checked everywhere, even stopped 3 buses of the same number to ask on their way back...then took an uber to the garage to find out the driver brought it there with all contents. What a relief, I even started crying a bit. 🙈
When are you planning on testing? After AF is due? X

My tests from Friday, Saturday and today...from the left.

Well that gives me some hope!
I think I would have cried to if I lost my handbag but good you found it! Must have been such a relief! I'm really tempted to test tomorrow morning. AF is not due till the 7th so that's a 5day wait. Your positives make me want to test now lol

I wanted to test today but I know it's too soon for me for a BFP as my LP is kinda long.

I caved, BFN! It hasn't got me down yet tho. Will wait to see if AF shows on Friday

Hey @Farhana170! Aaah exactly! I'm not even gonna say sorry for your BFN because it is more likely that its still really early. Remember the average day of implantation is 9DPO but some women implant even at 12 DPO and then it takes time to build up the hcg. So nothing is really confirmed until AF is due. 🙂What tests do you use? I've done another one today and line is getting progressively stronger and already noticeable on less sensitive tests. Also bought myself some Pregnacare vitamins. Feeling like I'm coming up with something..headache and achey body, but I'm almost happy to feel like that because I know why it is! 🤗

@martina2311, Yh now going to wait... No more tests until I'm late. Let's see if I can hold off. I was using frer last month.. But this month started to use internet cheapies but have a frer saved for when af is late.
Lol happy to hear your happy to gave symptoms
I've actually had af like cramps today, but it would be too soon for her. It's been on n off all morning. I'm planning out ttc next month already lol

I think is starting to show her face here...

Good morning ladies. I feel a bit anxious today and thought I need to share this with someone. I have been testing every day and up until Monday (13DPO), my lines were progressively getting darker every day but yesterday the line got a bit lighter and today is the same, maybe even a little bit lighter than yesterday. For these two days my breasts are hurting less during the day, in the evening they hurt when I took my bra off but up to Monday they were much bigger and painful all day. This morning I also took a CB digital which said I'm 1-2 weeks pregnant. Today it's actually 15DPO so I know the result might be just on the edge but feeling a bit anxious as to why the line is not getting just darker. Has anyone experienced this? I'm starting to Google too much and really don't want to stress myself over nothing but I am a little nervous already and can't really take my mind of it. I don't know if you can see the difference in the photo. I am hoping it's just me being paranoid. 🙁

@martina2311 don't get too hung up on progression lines. If you did a clear blue today that said you were pregnant, then be reassured by this. Stop doing tests (easier said than done I know) and can do again in few days if you are worried. The tests are still positive.
Are they all FMU?
I think because we have these early tests, we test too much and over analyse every line (I know I do )

Hey @Mammy32 thank you for the positive words. I guess just because I am expecting the hormon to be raising all the time (as it has been at the beginning) I get a bit worried it might have stopped or slowed down...thought together with less of the breast soreness, it might mean something. All of them are FMU except the last FRER at 15 dpo - that's SMU. The CB was FMU today. I always go to the loo before I go to sleep between 9.30-11 pm but then wake up either during the night 2/3 am and need to do a wee...or if its a bit later..like today I woke up at 5.15 and had to do a wee really bad...so I did the test already. But I mean even though it's not after the whole night sleep, it should be enough concentrated I think. :/ I know I'm overanalysing. Just worried of disappointment. I wish I could have my blood test soon.

@martina2311. I hope that it stays positive for you. Some people don't get a really dark line until day 17/18, so hopefully that will be you too. After that I would just stop testing and enjoy being pregnant.

Hello ladies! Just thought of checking on this thread, if anyone is still TTC at this point? I dont know if you remember but I got pregnant at the end of November but sadly at our 11 week scan we found out that we have suffered a missed miscarriage. :( our consultants adviced us we can start trying once my period is back, so I will be soon joining some of you again. Hope everyone is doing well and that some of you got some good news recently!

Hi @Martina2311, so sorry to hear this. It's really sucks when your so excited to get the BFP. I really hope you have support in RL around you to help.

I too unfortunately had similar news, at the end of November found out I was pregnant and unfortunately we lost it due to a pregnancy of unknown location. I had to have methotrexate in December which spoilt all our Christmas plans and we have to wait until April to try again.

I'm finally starting to get excited about trying again and looking forward to April! Fingers crossed we both get pregnant again quickly

Hi @Undomesticgodde55. So sorr to hear your story. Thats just terrible and I really feel your pain. I can imagine really well how it effected your Christmas time. Are you feeling physically ok now?
I havent finished the process yet as once we found out, I started bleeding the same afternoon...followed with a heavy bleed in the next 4 days. After 10 days I went for a check up where they found out I still have 5 ml remaining, so they gave me more time to wait...on Monday I went again, found out it went down to 2 ml...ans need to come again next Friday, hoping that by then it will be all finished. I just want to close this topic at least physically. Im happy they allow us to try again right away..Ibguess its also because everything is going "naturally".
Its really a strange experience and a roller coaster of emotions I never felt before. Wouldnt wish this to anybody.
I hope we are both lucky and get our BFPs soon. Has your cycle settled by now?

Physically all is well now, had AF this last week but it was very light. We found out early December there was a problem, early bleeding and cramps. Worked out I would have been 6 weeks. Thought it was a normal miscarriage but the HCG kept rising just very slowly. The scan showed it wasn't in my uterus but we will never know if it settled in the tube or cervix (I would guess tubes as that's more common). It was too small to see. I was told early on it wasn't a viable pregnancy because the HCG wasn't going above 300 but waited as long as we could for everything to happen on its own. By the 27th December nothing was happening, HCG was staying the same so the doctors recommended treatment. At the time I was a total mess, the hormones plus Xmas and explaining to family we couldn't make plans etc took its toll, but now everyone knows (we didn't want to lie to family members) it's taken a lot of pressure off. I'm back to my normal self now, looking forward to April and getting myself in shape by joining the gym and watching what I eat.

You will get there too, it just takes time (I'm sure everyone is telling you the same, but time really is a healer in this process). Taking some time out for yourself and doing what you enjoy really helps, as does making the most of doing things you can't do when pregnant like eat sushi lol. In the grand scheme of things 2/3 month wait to try again isn't the end of the world. eventually your rainbow baby will come along, it will just be a little younger.

@Martina2311 just checking in to see if your hospital appointments have all been ok, how have you been in yourself?

Hi @namechanged1239484 I am ok, thank you for asking! Well..at this point I am not sure, if its all finished yet. First 10 days of bleeding went really fast...from first spotting until the first scan in 10 days, I went down to 5 ml of POC left. But since then things slowed down a lot...scan after showed 2 ml...another one 11 days later showed 4 ml. Its been over a month now since I first started bleeding so last weekend after my last scan I just decided I would like to go for D&C as I felt like Ive had enough of waiting and coming for check ups. So I went back on Monday and the doctor told me, it would be a big shame to go through D&C with this amount left and suggested trying a medical managment by misoprostol to speed things up a bit. I took the pills on Tuesday but they did nothing. However on Sunday prior to this, I started bleeding a little more than what it was before...the whole last week I was only having a discharge sometimes with a tiny bit of blood...but since Sunday up to this point its fresh bleeding again, more than spotting, maybe more like a very light period. So I called my doctor and they think it might be actually my first very light period which is hopefully passing what was left inside. Also my pregnancy test is much less positive than last week on Thursday. I mean I have to really focus against the sun to see the second line. So I am hoping this means this current bleed is taking the rest away finally and so my last hormons are going down at the same time. I really hope it will be over and sorted soon... 😔 I finally want to consider this a memory..not still an ongoing process. Its been so long and I feel like all Im doing is waiting in a walk in clinic waiting room. Last time I got really emotional there because it is just so draining all this... 🙁
Sorry if its just too much info. I hope everyone else is doing well. X

@Martina2311 ah bless you, it really does suck having things dragged out like this I felt the same over Xmas . I also got very emotional at the hospital on a few occasions and at home. One of the worst times was a colleague sent me a message as I was waiting to see the nurse asking if I had been successful getting pregnant (she knew we were trying) and I just bust into tears as soon as the nurse asked how I was doing. The nurse was amazing though and listened to me through snotty sobs. DP was trying to find a parking space while it happened and I just broke down completely. I also broke down right before having the methotrexate thinking I was giving up on my baby.

it really does get better when you are discharged and you can draw a line under it. Hormones don't help either so be kind to yourself - it's quite rightly an emotional time for you and you should never feel bad about that. Does the medication they gave you mean you have a waiting time to TTC again or will you be able to start again soon?

Oops realised I namechanged for another thread and didn't change it back for this one @mumsnet any chance of changing the previous namechange to me so other unrelated threads can't find this one? I'm rubbish with MN sometimes!!

Hi @undomesticgodde55 I was wondering if it was you with the different nick name! 🙂 Hope you've had a nice weekend.
I stopped bleeding again but keep getting a discharge that has a little colour to it so I don't know if thats normal after...and how long it takes until it completely disappears. I will wait a few more days and if it doesn't stop, I will go to walk in again for another scan to see if it's all gone or what's happening. The doctor said it doesn't mean the wait before we start again should be longer after the tablets...I want to confirm this again at my next or last visit but she said it should be fine. And I've read somewhere that misoprostol stays in the body for a month and that's how long I will wait anyways. I am really hoping that maybe next month, we could maybe try already...basically 3 months after the miscarriage started. You are starting next month as well right?
The emotional side of it is very strange experience. It's not only the fact that we lost our baby...its all around it. My three friends are pregnant at the same time. One is my best friend that got pregnant a few weeks after my MC. She went through one MC last year..her first pregnancy...I was there for her. Then in January she was emotionally going through it with me..and a few weeks later she got pregnant and I am trying to be there for her now. It's strange these fast changes.. My other two friends are due in June and July..we were due in August. They both just recently found out their gender. And I have such mixed feelings. Honestly...its difficult. I am so happy for them, it's not a jealousy or selfishness from my side. But it's difficult to share their happiness as I normally would. It's hard to describe. Until our scan we were talking a lot about our feelings and symptoms..and then I got "out of the game" and we somehow stopped being in touch. Not completely. But they respected I need a space..and I, although I wanted to show them I am still excited for them, I couldn't express it that well anymore. Every photo I saw on social media hurt me a bit. Although I truly am happy for them and wish them the best. But seeing their happiness would also fill me with some sadness.
I am usually quite strong and have a good mind set in public. But I remember I had this situation when I would take an uber and the driver was really nice and chatty...we talked a lot. And then he would start talking about his wife being pregnant. And that he went for their first scan yesterday and saw the baby first time, how beautiful experience it was and that this is his first child and he is amazed by all of it...he was very detailed about what the sonographer said and happy speaking about it....and there I was sitting right behind him still bleeding from my own pregnancy..😔And as this topic just came out of a blue and in such an innocent situation, it got me quite bad. Not straight away...I tried to keep replying as before, chatty and excited for him. He really was a nice guy. But later it just hit me and I couldn't help it and cried it out. His wife probably conceived around the same time as me.
And there was a few situations like that since then. It's not easy..I think I am doing pretty well...while at the same time I am feeling things that I never felt. And it really is a life experience again. I know there are women out there that have much worse experiences that I don't even want to imagine could once happen to me too. But even mine is sad...even though it happens a lot. It's sad every time.
At the same time I am grateful. Thankful that my body has taken the responsibility of my shoulders and decided for me. Did this earlier rather than later...it could be much worse and I understand it. But the emotions just mix a lot...
How do you feel? Are you now more focused and excited about the trying process time again? I know I will feel much better when the physical side of it is finally over, until then I can't really focus on future.

I totally get that, every other Facebook post is another friend announcing a pregnancy at the moment and it does get to you. I had another announcement yesterday and one last week, one I deleted one off Facebook (was a random I hardly knew anyway) the other of course I said congratulations etc. But deep down feeling rubbish that I couldn’t do the same. We will have our time though with our rainbow babies and going through this will make us stronger. And it’s ok to be a bit jealous, I know I have been - not in a nasty way because of course I am happy for them but in a “why couldn’t that have happened to me” way. my other half always reminds me that we don’t know others journeys and they may have had a similar time to us, or worse to get their Facebook post. Nobody talks about misscarrage enough in my opinion, it’s like a big secret. Yes we start again on the 28th March and counting down the weeks now

Hey @undomesticgodde55 how are you doing? Thought I'd just add a little update from me. The Misoprostol tablets didn't help as they didn't work at all. I went for a check up scan this Monday and seems like it got a little worse as the amount left increased to 10 ml now. So I've arranged myself a D&C for this Friday. I've been really up and down with my emotions for the last week or two, feeling almost depressed and like Ive really had enough. I'm not looking forward to it but I just know I need to finally resolve it and move on. :(

@Martina2311 how are you feeling after the D and C? Hope your being looked after this evening - chocolate cake and Netflix should be on the cards for you all is well this end thank you.

Can't imagine how your feeling it being dragged out this long, ours was shit over Xmas but at least it was over by the new year.

Hi @undomesticgodde55 thank you for checking on me! Everything went well yesterday, the doctors were all really nice.

I couldnt sleep from 4 am so was quite tired when we got in. And also realised I forgot to insert my tablets in ...the ones to dilate my cervix. :( I was supposed to take them 1 hr before arrival. I felt really silly because I absolutely forgot and only remembered at the waiting room. I went to one of the nurses to tell her and felt quite emotional apologising that I forgot..I was afraid they wouldnt do it because of it or would get really delayed. She was really nice and told me not to worry that it happens and I shouldnt be mad at myself, that im going through a tough enough time already. They gave me more tablets. Then I was a bit worried again, they may not be able to work as quick lol but I was second to go in so had some time.
I spoke to the doctor prior to the procedure, she was young and very plesant. Same the 2 male anesthesiologists, very calm, reassuring and jokey too. They took me and talked me through every step...I remember I fell asleep at 9.50 and woke up at 11 am but the nurse said I got transferred at 10.20. I didn't speak to the doctor after.. should get main report via post but from what the nurses knew and the time I spent at the theatre, it seems like everything was fine and also on my discharge document it says it was a routine procedure with no known complications.

I felt quite tired all day but otherwise fine...I guess I kind of expected some soreness down there, but nothing at all. The only thing that hurts me is my hand from the cannula lol. I am glad I planned it for Friday as I have the weekend to rest...had a long afternoon nap again this afternoon. My DH is taking a good care of me..got me some of my favourite biscuits, juice and ordered our favourite Chinese and he is just letting me do whatever I feel.
They told me I should stop bleeding within a few days, that it should keep reducing day by day (it's not much even now), then should test negative soon. If it doesn't stop within 2 weeks or I suspect an infection, I should come earlier otherwise no follow up needed and I should get my period in 4-6 weeks and we can start trying whenever we feel emotionally ready after the first period.

Glad to hear it has all gone well and that the staff were nice to you, it really makes all the difference having decent care. Fingers crossed for no more complications and that your soon fit and well to start trying again .

We have started trying again this last week, it's 12 weeks next week but ovulating this week so brought it forward, had 2 AF and been taking folic acid religiously so I'm sure one week won't make much difference. We may still be in with a chance for a 2019 baby 🤞 back on the 2 week wait again!