TTC Our Rainbow

[MeghanV07]

Hi all 💞 I had a miscarriage on the 5th September, I was 7+2 😔. We already have a 10 month old so I feel very blessed to have him. But now in the 2ww and I’ve done about a million tests already and they’ve all been BFN. Some I’ve thought they may possibly be a very very very positive but I’m doubtful. Is anyone else trying to conceive their rainbow 💞

Yes pregnant women seem to follow us don't they . There is one smug pregnant one sitting behind me at work, I have to avoid her. If she so much as whispers that she is uncomfortable I will lose my shit.
I have another higher temp today and confirmed ovulation! Fingers crossed they will stay high, we has sexy time at the right time so, in theory, things should be good. But there is no theory behind PCOS so I'll be damned if I know what my body has done in there. also, We both had mumps after our last MC so I've got a horrid feeling that DP sperm levels may have been compromised . I guess only a test will tell us.

This made me laugh BTW...

Oh @Delilah7 😔 families are assholes... We've had an awful few weeks as a family, me with my MC & my sister was diagnosed with melanoma, luckily they've caught it quickly enough but still shit!

My mum took her some flowers but nothing for me. I don't want to be selfish but I lost a baby?! People seem to forget it all don't they?

@Frazzlerock pregnant smug women are the worst! That made me chuckle 😂😂😂😂.
Ah fingers crossed for you!!! I had a dip in my temp with my DS and then it rose again and continued to rise so I have everything crossed for you ❤️. Not my ovaries though, I need them 😂 xxxx

@MeghanV07 same with me babe! My sister brought her friend flowers who was unwell but not her sister who had lost her niece or nephew! X

've got such a headache 😔 finally kicked off between my brother and mum. Mum was sobbing. Brother was upset. I walked in on it and happened to get brought in too as he wanted to talk to me...

Hope you've all had a better night

@Delilah7 oh girl 😔 sounds like you've had an awful night. Hope you're feeling okay ❤️ was anything resolved or was it too heated?

Tomorrow is a new day ❤️

I posted a blog tonight about my miscarriage and I've had some lovely messages from people. I don't want to hide my lost baby anymore.

Xxxx

@MeghanV07 seemed to get abit resolves but my mum was awfully upset bless her. She's dealing with her dad currently dying too so it's all so hard. Aww! Good!! I've never hid mine as it would eat me up inside if I did xxxx

Aw bless your Mum @Delilah7!! Mums deal with so much don't they 💔 I hope she's okay ❤️

I've spoken to family and friends about it just not other people & I'm fed up people asking me when I'm going to have another one. I want to turn around and say 'I've tried thanks but actually lost it' but you'd seem like a knob if you was that blunt!

I'm having an awful morning. Have had so many people message me saying they're sorry etc and I've been reading and replying this morning and cannot stop crying. Why is this so so fucking hard 💔

@MeghanV07 it'll get easier. We will never forget it but it does get easier hun. Especially if you talk more openly about it ❤️

Sorry I've been a little quiet for a few days...I've been trying to rack my head around everything. I'm so worried it's all going to go wrong!

@Delilah7 sorry to hear your family are at loggerheads. Have things calmed down now?

@MeghanV07 I found that talking openly about my loss really helped me and then lots of people knew so they stopped asking.

There must be some (very annoying) truth to what people say though about relaxing and when you stop ttc it happens. Me and my DH tried for 20months before my loss. This time we hadn't had sex in 3 months...dtd a few times just because we wanted to and then it happened! Can't believe it.

Hope you're all doing okay.

Also to whoever asked about ovulating early.. I must have ovulated on day 12 but I didn't track this time. Just going by CM. X

Morning ladies hope you're all well ❤️

Has anyone ever had sore boobs around ovulation? I can't even move without mine absolutely killing me & its bloody annoying 😂. I wasn't very well yesterday, had flu symptoms and a fever, So I put it down to this but there the same today and ive woken up fine. So bizarre, never had it before.

How are you @Naughtykitty?
Any news @Frazzlerock? Xxxx

Morning, sorry been quiet.

I'm just so anxious about things. My temps are staying high so far but I can't help but feel like someone is trying to tell me something.
After having two MC, and then mumps, then DP refusing to try again for 2 fucking years, now we are trying again and I have no faith in my PCOS ridden reproductive system, or DP's sperm count after having mumps (this will have to get tested).
So many people around me are pregnant or their DP's are pregnant. At work pregnancy is rife, but it never ever hits me.
And I just had a notification from the BBC that Meghan fucking Markle is expecting a baby in the Spring. Well of course she is.

I'm just feeling very fucking low today and angry at the world. Which then makes me think it is PMT which makes me feel even more shit because that just proves my period is on its way.

I'm sitting at my desk at work drenched because this idiot didn't get the memo of the torrential downpour. So I got caught in it on the walk from my car to the station and I always have to park really far away as all the spaces nearby have gone by 7am. I was stupidly wearing a denim jacket

Anyway, sorry for the moan - I am very 'woe is me' today.

I just want to hold my baby and I've waited so long for this. Why is it so easy for everyone else?

Just our luck too.... Prince Harry and Meghan are pregnant, ridiculously easy the royals seem to get pregnant!

Exactly @Delilah7 glad we are on the same page with our 'Meghan gripes'

@Frazzlerock I'm insanely happy for them don't get me wrong but it's just unfair. X

I'm not. I think they are bastards. This is one of the few places I can say this without being branded an evil jealous bitch. but fuck it.
I hate them. 2.5 years later and I am still without my rainbow. I can't apologise or pretend that I'm okay with other people's pregnancies. I'm really not okay with it. I want to scream from the rooftops in primal anger. I'd love to shout "YOU'RE ALL WANKERS!"

I dislike the royals anyway.

and I probably don't deserve to have a rainbow baby because of the attitude I've developed.

Sorry you're having a rough time @Frazzlerock, but please don't apologise for ranting ❤️❤️

I couldn't give a flying fuck about the royals either! I know I'm being bitter and couldn't give a fuck about that either 😂

I honestly think my nipples are going to fall off. They've never hurt this bad in my whole life! Xx

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Sore nips at ovulation? I don't think I have, but mine never get sore.
Sounds hormonal, so possibly a good sign that all is working?

Actually, I'm lying. I have been getting the odd shooting discomfort through my boobs since about 2dpo. But not very often, hence the reason I forgot! I've actually just been reminded by a shooting sensation through my right one - sympathy pains for you maybe!

I’d like to join please. MMC in July at 9 weeks. On Cycle 2. Every day go through the same thing, ‘😇I’m strong - it will happen when it happens stop thinking so much’........ ‘👹 why is taking so long, what’s wrong with me, it will take me years now etc etc’.

Welcome @Babycakes1989 ❤️ sorry you find yourself here 😘 I'm the same!!! You have positive days and think YES this is my months then the next day you're like nope that's it I'm out! It's a total head f*ck!

Honestly @Frazzlerock they're something else! I've never had this pain before! Apparently it is a sign that ovulation has happened and we havnt DTD enough yet so now I'm panicking 😩😭.
Maybe you are 😱👀😂

Thinking of you all tonight 👼🏻🕯

@MeghanV07 love youuuuuuuuu ❤️

@Delilah7 love you ❤️❤️❤️

Having a shit morning already. Pretty sure I've either ovulated, or not at all. Was reading achey boobs are a sign that ovulation has already occurred and we only started DTD properly Saturday and Sunday was when they started 👎🏼

Feeling so diflated xx

@MeghanV07 I'm with you. OH cheered me up by giving me the D yesterday 😂 but I know I haven't ovulated yet ( not using OPKS this cycle so going off Cm and pain! ) haven't had any yet so know this cycle is going to be long x

😂😂😂😂.

I'm glad you're not opk'n either @Delilah7 we've DTD as much as we can now in my 'fertile window' according to fertility friend. Thinking back when I got pregnant and had my mc, I didn't see much CM & I haven't really since before I had my DS. I used to get a shed load before I conceived him so I'm trying to remember we got pregnant without much trying in July so if can happen like that, I can happen again 🤞🏼 just got to make sure there's enough swimmers up there 😂.

I did have ovulation pain yesterday which is a positive? And boobs are still sore but easing off each day.

Wish you could click your fingers and be pregnant 😔 xxx