TTC Our Rainbow

[MeghanV07]

Hi all 💞 I had a miscarriage on the 5th September, I was 7+2 😔. We already have a 10 month old so I feel very blessed to have him. But now in the 2ww and I’ve done about a million tests already and they’ve all been BFN. Some I’ve thought they may possibly be a very very very positive but I’m doubtful. Is anyone else trying to conceive their rainbow 💞

@Delilah7 it's just a big kick in the teeth isn't it! Luckily I didn't have any other appointments booked, so hoping that the only next milestone I'll have to get over is the due date & I am praying to god if there is one that I'm pregnant by then.

Does anyone have anything lovely planned this weekend? Xx

Ps @Delilah7 we are only a few days apart in our cycle!

How are you @Frazzlerock and @Bentley88 xxxx

@MeghanV07 weird huh!! If I'm not pregnant by Xmas I'll use clearblue ovulation kits I think. Until then I'm just going to do it every other day if possible and just log when I do it and my Cm etc xxx

@MeghanV07 finishing our downstairs bathroom off!! my house is my pride and joy 😍

Morning all, Ugghh how annoying about not being able to post that pic @Naughtykitty

Yep, milestones are shit. Especially when you've no rainbow to look forward to. I'm finding them easier two years on now we are trying again. It was Emily's birthday on 24th September. She'd have been two years old. So we went down to her burial plot which is quite far from us as I was living in London at the time and the hospital bury the babies at the cemetery opposite them. So that in itself is a day trip.

We sat and I had previously placed down 90 pebbles for all the little babies buried there, so DP and I painted one each. DP played a song by Frighten Rabbit that he likes and we both had a good cry.

I have to say that milestone was much easier than the ones previously, knowing we are TTC again and there is some hope now.

The next milestone is Christmas Day. The last two Christmasses have been hard as she should be with us. But this year I have hope, and if I can kid myself enough, then I might even be pregnant (I can only hope)

Anyway, I'm okay today thank you for asking @MeghanV07. I don't understand what my chart is doing but it is only the first week using it. My temp started to rise on Weds so I had hoped that was the start of my fertile week, but it has gone down again this morning.

Today I am WFH as the cats are booked in for their jabs and, well, I really CBA to go into the office today!

I went to see a venue yesterday for our office Christmas party which was really cool - literally as it had an ice bar! I've never been into one of those before. I reckon it could be a high contender, though we've got another to see next week.

This weekend both boys have football, I'm taking my eldest to see Venom because I needed an excuse to get my kicks off over Tom Hardy

Man I really hope we are all pregnant by Christmas...

@Frazzlerock I'm so sorry. I don't think I realised before what ordeal you've been through. Love to you. Must be so hard. :(
Yes I hope we are all pregnant by Christmas too. Would be perfect. Please let me know how venom is I so want to see it! Xx

@MeghanV07

I am sorry for your loss....
Reading your posts - your anxiety and stress is coming through.
Can’t be good for your you, your baby and your family...

Hard as it is - in your place - i’d Try to take a bit of time off thinking about conceiving. Give your body and your mind some rest.

Oh @Frazzlerock ❤️. That's such a lovely thing to do painting those pebbles. Happy belated birthday to your star in the sky ✨. I've started charting too but it's been stressing me out so today I stopped. Just going to do opk's. I always found if I didn't temp as soon as I woke up, my chart was all over the place.

That sounds so fun! I think I'd be swayed by the ice bar 😂.That's the one thing I miss about WFH (I'm a hairdresser) I don't have any Christmas parties! It's the one time you can get trollied and no one at work can judge you 😂.

Thank you @Josuk I am really trying hard to be strong but just finding it so hard. I was supposed to have CBT for anxiety but missed an appointment as it was the day of my mc and they've now discharged me 😔 so think I may need to go back to the Dr's to be referred again.

I also hope we're all pregnant by Christmas 🤞🏼 our Christmas rainbow babies 🌈

@MeghanV07

Please do talk to your doctor, and get help. You are dealing with so much right now, and, possibly with too much..
Ask yourself if you are TTC because you really want another child or because you think it’ll make you feel better right now.

If the latter - please - consider getting to a happier and more balanced place first. It takes a lot to have two babies so close together. And in your condition PND is a serious and real risk.

@meghan7 hey guys, sorry I’ve been quiet, I’ve been miserable and gloomy the past few days and didn’t want to bring the group down sorry. I’m going to have a wee look through a lunch and see what I’ve missed 🤞@naughtykitty any update on the line eyes?? ☺️ , I’ll catch up at lunch 👀 xx

Fingers crossed this goes through! I'm on a course at the moment so can't reply to everyone at the moment x

@Naughtykitty I can defo see something on second pic hun!!! Xx

Ive stocked up on more tests 🙈 there's no coming back from the dark side now. I think I'm testing too early but I'm too impatient to wait!

@MeghanV07 we started ttc again a few months after my MC and then it was making me too anxious and upset so we stopped again. My MC was in December and we've only just started trying again. Have you thought about talking to The Miscarriage Association? We found them to be brilliant xx

Oooooh there could be something there, but I’m not sure if my eyes are messing with me!! How many days post ov are you @naughtykitty

I think I'm about 12/13dpo. I can't be sure as I haven't been tracking. X

I gave in and am testing, used FRER but they couldn’t have been more negative!! I’m too early to be testing anyway!! I’m just dying for a positive! Hope your days better today @meghan7, and I used to LOVE WFH, don’t get to do that anymore ugh! Also I’ve heard good things about the MC association, I haven’t tried them yet, but my friend who miscarried last year said they were really good x

God that feels forever away I’m only 8/9 days post ov! Fingers crossed you get a cracking second line soon!!

Tommy's are amazing to talk to aswell xx

Ummm thoughts? 😬

@Naughtykitty I'd say yes but keep testing like in a few days time should get darker hun!!!

I see it @Naughtykitty!!!! 🤞🏼🌈❤️

Every morning that I have a shit morning I want to call somewhere, but I always talk myself out of it.

I feel like I wouldn't know what to say, I'd be a blubbering mess.

Wish it was easier than this.

DH told me last night he doesn't want me to get pregnant between now and December as he wants our babies 2 school years apart & that's what we always said, but I feel like I won't be happy again until I have that baby?

Am I mad?

@MeghanV07 oh hun. I don't really want to get pregnant this month or next due to having so many birthdays already in July and August - but really I wouldn't give a shit as I just want a baby bad!! Probably just don't want it to be on my sisters or brothers birthday 😂😂xx

@MeghanV07 ring Tommy's. They're amazing honestly xxx

@Delilah7 😂😂😂😂.

I don't mind a July baby just not August, but like you say I want a baby that bad that I just don't care now! Xxx