TTC after recurrent miscarriage - thread 3

[Miami81]

Hi all. Sorry I hadn't realised other thread was full.
Have tagged who I can remember.
Please add people in.
@AnneLovesGilbert @Labmum @Hopefulforourrainbow @zarala

@moonpeace ring the RMC and speak to them, let them know you're pregnant again. I too was waiting on my appointment when I fell pregnant this time and they got me in to see them straight away and had me on cyclogest and high dose folic acid. I took aspirin off my own back. They also arranged fortnightly scans. Good luck! Got everything crossed for you.

@moonpeace I'd had no testing for progesterone but our RMC here seem to just give it to everyone with a thought of "it won't do any harm but might help". Also just to note the high dose folic acid is 5mg. So quite a lot higher than the standard 400ug.

I understand the avoidance tactic, its one of my coping techniques too.

Take care and good luck. Don't be afraid to push and advocate for yourself if you're not happy with the support you're being offered.

Evening :-)

So the last few days I've felt really crap, topped with retching when loading the dishwasher tonight. Boobs are hot and I just feel different. I did a test (stupid as period not due for another few days!) and got the faintest of all faint lines, not even sure if it's there 🤦🏻‍♀️ Feeling many emotions tonight, denial being the biggest! Going to try and hold out for a week and if no Aunt Flo then I will test again.

If I am pregnant again I am incredibly nervous as we haven't seen anyone yet as they won't until I have 3 miscarriages after 6 weeks (so far one at 6 and one at 13 plus two chemicals which they don't count).

Done a test this morning...definitely pregnant. Praying this isn't another chemical but also trying not to get over excited in case we have another loss. I haven't told my dh... thought I would wait until next week, don't even really know why. Not sure he can cope with another loss.

Wow lots of bfps. Really hope they all stick!

@goodlordwhathappened keeping everything crossed for you.

@KnitKitty how are you doing lovely?

@Hopefulforourrainbow @whiteonesugar @Labmum @Miami81
hope all is well with you

Sorry to anyone I've missed.

Well this week has been pretty tough. Got my negative on Sunday after losing bow (found out it was another MMC on 19th sept).
Went back to work Monday to have the royal baby news everywhere (work in a radio newsroom so I couldn't escape it-it was on air, on tv, on the incoming feeds, social media...) just a constant reminder of what I've lost as I would've been pretty much bob on the same gestation I think. It really upset me-held it together at work but sobbed when I got home.

Had a gp appt weds -some of my test results are in - apparently thyroid is good (was 1.8 earlier in the year after losing bean, 1.37 this time which is apparently exactly where it needs to be for pregnancy. Apparently that means I won't be tested for thyroid antibodies, which I'm a bit confused about) no sign of diabetes or infection etc, so nothing yet to explain why I'm losing, but got to wait for the clotting/sticky blood results. I said to her I'm not sure how many times I can go through this...she asked if we had the money to and would consider assisted fertility 😢. I know she's just giving me options, especially considering I'm 39, but it scared me-does she think that's the only chance I have? I just don't think it's something I can handle with my medical phobia too.

I'm also torn between desperately wanting it to be a blood issue because then we know and can treat it, and not wanting anything to be found-because if that's the case it's likely to be age/egg quality and they can't do anything to treat that. I'm nuts aren't I.

So all week I've struggled to focus. I've been googling like mad. What can I take now that won't do any harm but might help improve my egg quality, what could I take if I get another BFP that again isn't going to hurt but might help, I've got lists and questions coming out of my ears. Consultant appt isn't for another month.

And I know this sounds stupid because I'm so desperate to have a baby, but I'm scared to try again. We haven't dtd since before we got the BFP with bow in August. I'm scared to fall pregnant again because at the moment nothing has changed so In my head it will just lead to another loss. SOmething needs to be different for it to work-does that make sense?

I'm doing opks again because I have no idea what my body is up to. Bleeding stopped 6/10, BFN 14/10, so trying to figure out when I might ovulate and when AF might be due. With the two AF's After Bean I ov'd day 13/14 with a 25/26 day cycle...but who knows now.

So today I have to put my game face on. Reflexology this morning, then hair cut before my fellas mates surprise 40th birthday party. Lots of friends that last time I saw I'd just found out I was carrying bow. They didn't know, but we've since told them about the Mc. I just hope I can hold it together when they give me that sympathy face.

Sorry for the long post-just needed to get it out xxx

Hi @Laney79. Did you read the blog I linked a week or so ago? I bought all the vitamins etc recommended on it to try next cycle but got my bfp instead. The success rates are high from them. I was really gutted when my bloods came back normal. Strange to hope for something wrong but I thought a clotting problem would be an easy solution. Why don't you dtd but use protection? The last thing you want is for this to affect your relationship. Have a great time at the party tonight. Maybe a drunken night is what you need!

@Laney79 - totally get it, the royal baby news hit me hard too. And you do swing from being desperate for a bfp but also terrified of one. Sending you love and strength. Hope you get some answers from your tests: we never did and we have DS who was born after the first 3 miscarriages so there is hope. Tho granted I was younger but clearly there’s an issue with me somewhere, maybe miracles do happen and they take the form of a little ginger boy for us!

All going ok here. I’m only 14dpo today, AF would be due, I’ve tested pretty much every day since Tuesday (10dpo) and the lines are getting much stronger which is a good sign for now. I’m also feeling quite sick and have really sore boobs. Taking each day as it comes. Gonna contact EPU tomorrow to self refer, they told me last time that I can do that as they know me. How sad 😔

Laney that sounds like a tough week, it's really hard being saturated by baby news xx
Thank you to the person who posted the link to the vitamins etc blog, I've bought some q10 and have been taking that along with the pro fertility multi vit and evening primrose. I take a calcium/vit d & magnesium one anyway so I'm hoping that's enough to balance out my hormones.
I'm going to bite the bullet and make an appointment with a gp next week, I got a letter from them yesterday confirming a complete miscarriage and offering support of I needed it which was more than I expected. I've been avoiding thinking about it this time and just went back to work, but now it's half term I'm going to give myself a few days to sleep / watch films and eat well. I don't want to try again until I know that things have been checked out, I can't take the worry / disappointment.
Sending good luck to everyone who has a positive xxx

You're welcome @norbert23. I hope they help

Good morning. I'm bleeding lightly this morning 😭 should be 6+5 today. Terrified it's going to be another mc. Just in from night shift. Have been feeling crap most of the night and thought I was going to be sick on way home. Have scan on Friday morning.

Oh that's so awful, I wish I could think of something to make it better. Try not to panic yet though. Can you get in touch with a gp and see if they'll book you in at the EPAU to have a scan sooner? In the meantime rest and try to stay calm. Sending a big hug and positive energy your way xxx

@hopeful, hugs to you. Can you get into the EPAU sooner for a scan? Are you on progesterone? I had some spotting early on so was advised to use back passage instead.

Thank you. I've called EPU and they've said they can't scan me until Thurs at earliest as they don't have any slots. Probably easier just keeping Friday's appointment as hubby is off work then. I know it sounds silly but i had been feeling quite positive this time.

Yeah I'm on progesterone and aspirin

@hopefulforarainbow - are you able to book a private scan?

I know how scary it is. Sending you lots of love. Remember it might not be anything bad.

I had a bad experience with the private scanning place first time round so not keen on going back there. Just been to pee again, no more bleeding and poas just to see and dark line came up almost instantly. Hopefully it just the pessaries irritating my cervix.

Oh @Hopefulforourrainbow -huge hugs. I hope as you say it's just irritation. Let us know how you get on xxx

@Hopefulforarainbow

totally understand. I will keep everything crossed for Friday - glad theres not been anymore

Thanks everyone. I've called in sick for work tonight and tomorrow. Last thing I need just now is a 12.5hr night shift! It's going to be a long couple of days waiting for Friday. Why does this have to be so hard 😭

Yesterday morning bleeding was a tiny amount of light pink when wiping, nothing after that. Got up through the night, nothing again. This morning, it's much more red and there's more of it. Again was just when I wiped though have been lying in bed til now. Not sure if I should wait it out or change scan appointment to tomorrow instead of Friday. Hubby is off work Friday. Why does this keep happening to me 😭

@hopeful I've no advice I'm afraid just big hugs!