TTC after Pregnancy Loss Thread 20 - Fx for 2019 babies

[dulwichdays]

Another thread for us all - I'm hoping I've got everyone's details in the list below, I copied it from our previous thread.

PassTheAfterEights 33 C6 TTC#1
BadBadBeans 33 C1 TTC#2 (1 cycle ttc pre MC)
hayleyfx 24 C4 TTC#1
Claire138 28 C4 TTC#1
Lovewinemorethanhusband 37 C3 TTC#3
Blondcat 36 C8 TTC#1
Sweetpea0318 38 C1 TTC#2 (7 months TTC pre MC)
Dulwichdays 34 C4 TTC#1 (4 cycles TTC pre MC)
Weasledee C3 TTC#3
BabynameEdie 30 C2 TTC#1
Yellowdaffodils86 31 C2 TTC#1 (1 cycle pre mc)
Boboelephant 35 C4 TTC#2 (9 cycles TTC pre MMC after EP)
Wellthisisunexpected 34 TTC#2 awaiting AF
Sloeberrygin 36 C1 TTC#2
Hidcat 35 C1 TTC#2 (3 Cycles TTC pre MC)
DaisyMay25 27 C8 TTC#1
Rdm10 34 C2 TTC#2
Zarala 36 (to be) TTC#2
SerenaOverjoyed 28 C1 TTC#1 (ttc 1 cycle pre mc)
KnitKitty 30 C1 TTC#1

@knitknitty I am relating HARD. I really hope that your signs are symptoms! For me it’s cycle after mc 2 and haven’t a clue about ovulation etc because I decided to just leave it and see for this month. But the crazy is also unleashed here. I had a tiny bit of spotting on tues and thurs. Both times assumed AF was following but not yet. It could be implantation bleeding but i think more likely wishful thinking on my part. You never know though! This is what can drive you CRAZY with this ttc business especially after mc when you stop trusting your body as much (in my case mmcs have really made me not trust my instincts as I had no clue the pregnancies had ended). Anyway, fx for you! At least we if we get af we know everything is more or less back to normal and we can crack on...

@Eastend2015 that's very true and you are right, I have no idea what is going on in their lives or what struggles they have had. I'm not usually such a jealous judgy cow! But it does make me think about if I ever am lucky enough to have children of my own, that I should be more mindful of others when announcing pregnancy/complaining about the ups and downs. I guess we never really know what the next person is struggling with, and there is always someone worse off than ourselves.

@sweetpea0318 sorry to hear you are really struggling, I can't remember your particular situation but whatever it is I'm sending hugs

@PassTheAfterEights looks beautiful! Hope you are enjoying being away and making full use of the fertile window!

@KnitKitty your crazy outspilling made me laugh out loud - mainly because I so get where you are coming from! Hoping you find something to distract you soon.

@YellowDaffodils86 confusing! I must admit the only OPKs I have used in the past are the Clearblue flashy smileys so not many useful words of advice other than keep on shagging?!

Hi everyone sorry am only checking in v briefly at the moment, work is super busy but I am reading most messages and taking it all in.
Sending love to those who are struggling and baby dust to all ✨🌟⭐️💫
@strawberrye your last post to @YellowDaffodils86 made me laugh - just keep on shagging everyone! 😂👌 xx

Happy Friday ladies 🥂

@YellowDaffodils86 keep shagging!

I'm feeling chirpy today. Managed to get my hubbo on board 😉
I'm one shag just before O and one hopefully during.
I'm happy with that. Feel my bases are covered now! Any more from no on with be a bonus!

I can't believe I'm saying this out loud to strangers! 😂

@PassTheAfterEights so glad you're having a great time! Looks amazing. And nice to have a mental break! Actually heard the name Oak the other day and laughed and thought of you... Sequoia 🤣🤣
@KnitKitty vent away! I want to get excited for you and will keep fingers crossed. They sound positive but I definitely know about crazy post MC symptoms. I was convinced we'd caught straight away. We hadn't. That said lots of people on here have so it's not impossible! Why has doc said 22nd? Counting the neg test as day 1 seems odd. I ovulated 4 days after my neg test and af 13 days after that. So it seems very late? @ek78 ooh also have everything crossed for you! What cd are you on?
@YellowDaffodils86 I agree with @DaisyMay25. Looks like you probably had your surge overnight and ovulated yesterday. I'd test again today like Daisy said just to confirm. But can't hurt to follow
@strawberrye advice too! 🤣

@BabynameEdie sending a hello and baby dust your way too! Are those opks getting any darker? Hope work settles down!
@L1zz13 glad you got him on board!

Ooh that reminded me it's POAS Friday!!! Who's in?? I'm currently building up my wee for an opk. 😂 Keep your fingers crossed for a dark line. 🤞

POAS FRIDAY!!!! Who's in??? I have nothing in Mauritius to pee on. I could possibly find a stick outside to pee on, not sure it will tell me much?!

Ha ha cake!
Hope there are some pee-ers today!

I've POAS. Will look at it when I get back from school run!

Oooh @L1zz13

Yes we're finally getting somewhere!! Not positive yet but considering what I've had for the past 6 days this is amazing!!! And looks like I'm on track to ovulate this weekend, unlike last month!! 😀😀😀

@strawberrye I didn’t mean to imply that how you are feeling isn’t perfectly natural- I feel like that a lot of the time at the moment and then feel awful and think I must be an awful person to be so jealous so a double whammy!! But yes I do try and be mindful of others when I am having a moan!

Fx @L1zz13!

@Boboelephant 🎉 still not sure where the hell i am🤷🏻‍♀️

Roll up roll up suggestions please!

Noticed 2/3 days of scant EWCM The rest was practically nothing with bits of translucent white jelly.

Oooh @Boboelephant looking good. Defo close!!
@L1zz13 I'm gonna say not yet. But it is possible you missed the surge. But I still go by the next couple days. If af is due 20/5... I'm guessing maybe 6th or 7th for ov.

Just Keep Shagging - JKS
Is my new favourite phrase!
Once I get on this TTC bus I'll just stick to that philosophy and hopefully be as lucky as @Cakelaur
JKS marathons all the way!

😂😂😂

Anyway happy Friday all!
Any more POAS results?!

@Cakelaur the Af date should have read 20/4. April's Af. May Af due (according to Flo) 17th May.
I'm taking that with a pinch of salt as who know for sure, certainly after mc's.
My body is speaking O. Maybe it's anovulatory.

I dunno if you ladies can see this. But I'm sat outside our room reading my book and it starts to rain. There is the biggest full rainbow I've ever seen and I'm not sure if it captured that well... but there's a second one above it too!!! That's gotta be a good sign!! 🌈

@Cakelaur love a double rainbow 🌈 🌈

Thanks ladies, your posts have made me smile today! JKS is a great motto! Love the rainbows too :) I’m still feeling a little stressed today but a bit brighter than before.

@knitkitty - def with you on the crazy! Did a pg test today just to be sure that my bloated stomach didn’t mean anything exciting and it was BFN. Guess it must be all the chocolate I’ve been eating instead.

Aaaarh! Just want af to show already!! I’m not a patient person at the best of times & this wait is killing me!! Currently cd 36 since mc & no sign...

@L1zz13 I agree with @Cakelaur. Didn't you say you had 30 day cycles? So that should make AF due 20th if April's started in the 20th too. You know you body though. I'd keep testing too for a few more days.
@YellowDaffodils86 thanks hun! Did you test again today?
@Cakelaur gorgeous!!!
@zarala haha JKS 🤣🤣
@sweetpea0318 ahh frustrating! You'll get there but I'm sure it's a pain. I'm impatient too! Hope you're out of limbo soon.

Off to stay with mates for the weekend and have to continue the shagathon (JKS) as I'm expecting ov tonight or tomorrow. Getting ready for some ninja moves! 🤺🛌

Thanks @bobotheelephant I think I’m cd27 if mc day is day 1- I even have some confusion over that as not 100% sure when I passed the sac. I might not have even ovulated yet! Will test in a few days if no af and if I’m still driving myself bonkers with ‘maybe’.
Hope you all have lovely weekends - and I’m taking on the suggested motto- JKS!!

Just got my repeat hCG back - now less than 1. So that's a second miscarriage/biochemical pregnancy. Feeling part sad, part relief it's not an ectopic. Also relieved to finally know what has happened so I can draw a line under it and move on.

Yes @Boboelephant I'm defo not 28 that would be far too normal. I was 30 on the occasion before mc so I'll go with that. I've never had a normal cycle in my life!
30 days would make my next Af on the 20/5 and O day tomorrow!
🤞🏻so all rosy in terms of bringing the right bun ingredients together

Back ache is proper killer. Took paracetamol earlier only took the edge off.

Sending hugs @strawberrye

@cakelaur thanks for the rainbow!

So I had a call from a bereavement midwife and I have 12 weeks free counselling sessions starting in 2 weeks. All I had to do was ask and kinda kicking myself for not asking before. I just need somewhere I can go and cry for a bit. I’m so tired of trying to keep it together. Better things are coming!