TTC after Pregnancy Loss Thread 20 - Fx for 2019 babies

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Another thread for us all - I'm hoping I've got everyone's details in the list below, I copied it from our previous thread.

PassTheAfterEights 33 C6 TTC#1
BadBadBeans 33 C1 TTC#2 (1 cycle ttc pre MC)
hayleyfx 24 C4 TTC#1
Claire138 28 C4 TTC#1
Lovewinemorethanhusband 37 C3 TTC#3
Blondcat 36 C8 TTC#1
Sweetpea0318 38 C1 TTC#2 (7 months TTC pre MC)
Dulwichdays 34 C4 TTC#1 (4 cycles TTC pre MC)
Weasledee C3 TTC#3
BabynameEdie 30 C2 TTC#1
Yellowdaffodils86 31 C2 TTC#1 (1 cycle pre mc)
Boboelephant 35 C4 TTC#2 (9 cycles TTC pre MMC after EP)
Wellthisisunexpected 34 TTC#2 awaiting AF
Sloeberrygin 36 C1 TTC#2
Hidcat 35 C1 TTC#2 (3 Cycles TTC pre MC)
DaisyMay25 27 C8 TTC#1
Rdm10 34 C2 TTC#2
Zarala 36 (to be) TTC#2
SerenaOverjoyed 28 C1 TTC#1 (ttc 1 cycle pre mc)
KnitKitty 30 C1 TTC#1

@hayleyfx I'm the exact same lovely, and also should have been due with our little girl in 6 weeks. We found out she'd died at our 20 week scan, and called her Penelope. She was absolutely beautiful and we were due on June 27th. I'm absolutely dreading that date coming round. Sending you loads of love xxx

Mrslcw what a difficult date for you coming up... we lost ours at 14 weeks,
I never knew the exact due date
And that was hard enough! Just can't imagine how you must be feeling :(
What a lovely name Penelope.....

@MrsLCW didn't want to just read your post and go to bed.
Your story is heartbreaking. Any loss is devastating but gosh 20 weeks! You must be a truly brave and courageous lady coming through this ordeal. Strong and ready for fighting. An inspiration x
Huge hugs to everyone. Nighty nite xx

Thanks for all the birthday messages ladies!! Had a bit of a hormonal crazy lady day yesterday. But hey ho. My OH is home tonight and I think taking me out for a nice dinner and we both have tomorrow off to celebrate.

@Mistymeow don't wanna put thoughts in your head, but when a baby implants... your body's immune system drops so your body doesn't reject with both bfps a cold was my first symptom! 🤞🏻

@MrsLCW sorry your a bit up and down at the mo. And I'm so sorry you lost your little girl. What a gorgeous name. I was very similar to you (although I lost mine a lot earlier) I took a lot out on my amazing OH. I don't think he realised how hard it hit me. I don't think I realised how hard it hit me. Sending massive hugs. Good luck with FW. 😉

@hayleyfx I'm so sorry your due date is approaching. Maybe plan something nice to remember the day? We booked a trip away to France with our best mates quite soon after we lost ours, so I didn't have to be in the country for the due date.

Hope everyone has a lovely Sunday. I'm off to work again!! 😭 a 7 day work week this week. So much for turning part time!!! 😂

@MrsLCW I’m so sorry for the loss of your little girl, how awful. Penelope is a beautiful name. I’m sorry your due date is approaching too, it just seems so unfair. Sending you lots of love too hun xx

@Cakelaur thank you, that’s a great idea. It’ll be nice to have something to look forward to on that day instead of just dreading it!

Thank you all so much! I'm feeling much brighter after a good nights sleep!
I hope today will be a better day! X

@YellowDaffodils86 so sorry for the bfn. It is so crap. If she's coming I hope af comes today so you can look forward and get out of the limbo. I'll be here with you for next month. Hopefully it'll be us soon!
@Anyday88 glad af is finishing and it's almost go time. Fx!
@L1zz13 glad your body is getting back to normal too. Hope your hcg goes down and you can crack on too.
@hayleyfx ooh I hope this is your month! Fx for next weekend!! I feel your pain too. I had a little big brother top for my DS that won't fit anymore and my due date is in 7 weeks. Sending hugs.
Same to you @MrsLCW. Due dates are really hard. And I'm so so sorry you lost your little girl at 20 weeks. I can't even begin to imagine your pain.
@Cakelaur what happened to part time??? 🤣 Hope you have a nice dinner tonight.

@MrsLCW so sorry for what you went through, i cant imagine how hard that was.
It just proves that even after 12 weeks there is so guarantee, which is sad.

Lovely name.
Good luck for this FW

@hayleyfx good luck for end of tww, hope you dont go too crazy 😂 FX its a bfp at the end.

Due dates are rubbish, i still think about how many weeks id be.

@Boboelephant Thanks, i hope she comes today too. Despite pretty much knowing im out, until she comes your mind still taunts you with that 'what if/maybe'
@Cakelaur Funny you say that, iv had a sore throat since 12dpo nothing else, feel a bit ribbish with it and maybe a bit of a runny/congested nose now and again.
I also feel queasy when i wake up but it passes. I cuddled DH this morning and he smelt like sour milk, weird.

Im 14dpo today and bfn on frer yesterday so im betting on af.

Sorry I missed your birthday yesterday @Cakelaur hope you had a great day!

Today is was my edd, I don't even know how I feel about it, it's very strange.

Morning ladies. Been quiet this wkend as af due Monday and thought i was out. Had a little tiny bit of spotting friday and TMI warning brown / yellow spotting yesterday. Not loads wore same pantliner all day but enough to see.

Anyway poas this morning just because i like to i suppose and im sure i can see a squinter. A little shadow of a line. Now dp is adamant there isnt one but he said that with our son so...had anyone had implantation bleeding around af was due and would mind sharing?

Clearest pic i can get.

@DBoo sorry iv never had IB or anything similar, but just wanted to say FX for you. Post a pic of your test maybe?

@DBoo looks like a hint of something, how many dpo are you?

@DBoo do you have a pic? I've a weird obsession with squinting at pee sticks (mine, or anyone else's 🙈)
I was like this to start with with my pregnancy tests for Penny, I just KNEW I was pregnant and this was my first test... no one believed me but I knew it!! These are the tests for reference, in case they help you. Good luck!! X

@DBoo I can see it too! X

Im either 12 or 13 dpo. Due af monday according to flo and tuesday according to ovia.

I used to spot about 3 or 4 days before af but since starting my concoction of vitamins i just go straight into a light period usually the day my app says (but cant remember which one) so i was surprised to see the spotting friday.

@DBoo all looks promising, you know the rules lol, test again in two days if af doesn't show. If you have recently implanted then then it will take a few days for that hcg to build up.

Yes i just said to dp see what happens haha bit giddy now.

@DBoo I can definitely see a faint line. Fingers crossed it gets stronger the next day!

@Cakelaur Belated birthday wishes! I had heard that too about immunity but I think I'm trying not to get my hopes up. Tricky though. For some weird reason today my cold has disappeared, yesterday it was the worst cold I've ever had. Freaky.

I actually had the urge to do a test today. I got all the way to the toilet and chickened out. I have pregnancy symptoms back like I did before but I just think it's my body playing tricks on me. I don't think I can fall pregnant 3 weeks after an ERPC?! I took a pregnancy test 10 days ago to make sure there was no leftover hormone and thankfully it was negative. Don't want to set myself up for more heartache by taking an early test.

A bad cold was my first symptom both times too lovely! Is it ridiculous that I'm praying I have a cold this time next week 😂😂

I think you can fall especially if your period comes back as normal which mine did both times i had an erpc and i was passed 14wks both times and got period like clockwork so it could happen.

@DBoo mine have been the same. Period gone back like clockwork after a 9 week MMC and also after we had Penny following another MMC at 20 weeks. Period came either 28 or 29 days after last day of MC bleeding both times then cycles have stuck to that length. I've had 3 periods since Penny and we're now in our first cycle of TTC. Praying we fall first time like we did with our first two. We've been told next time round we'll be under a consultant and have extra scans and medication to keep my blood flow healthy from placenta to baby etc from 12 weeks, so just need to get to 12 weeks this time and then we'll be really closely monitored!! Fingers crossed we all have lucky months ahead!! X

Thanks @MrsLCW I will be hoping you get a cold next week then haha x

@DBoo I had heard you are very fertile after the procedure which is why we started trying as soon as the bleeding had stopped. I haven't had my period yet though so these feelings could well be building up to that.

@Mistymeow best of luck to you, I have everything crossed!! X

Good luck @mistymeow

Mrslw (cant remember full name tag) after my last mmc (march 2017) dp and i decided to have a break. It hit our relationship hard and tbh its probs only age that has spurred me on to ttc now. This is our 3rd cycle of ttc. First pregnancy was a surprise (mmc) second pregnancy i had one af after mmc and ttc and fell first time (stillborn) went on pill for a year came off ready to ttc the following month but conceived that month so i stupidly thought id fall straight away this time. If this does turn out to be a bfp i guess 3 months isnt bad and this is the only month ive managed to dtd every other day in fertile week.

Dp has severe healthy anxiety at the moment which js affecting him in lots of ways and im petrified thats going to affect our chances so a bfp this month would be lovely for me but no doubt trigger more anxiety in dp