TTC after Pregnancy Loss Thread 20 - Fx for 2019 babies

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Another thread for us all - I'm hoping I've got everyone's details in the list below, I copied it from our previous thread.

PassTheAfterEights 33 C6 TTC#1
BadBadBeans 33 C1 TTC#2 (1 cycle ttc pre MC)
hayleyfx 24 C4 TTC#1
Claire138 28 C4 TTC#1
Lovewinemorethanhusband 37 C3 TTC#3
Blondcat 36 C8 TTC#1
Sweetpea0318 38 C1 TTC#2 (7 months TTC pre MC)
Dulwichdays 34 C4 TTC#1 (4 cycles TTC pre MC)
Weasledee C3 TTC#3
BabynameEdie 30 C2 TTC#1
Yellowdaffodils86 31 C2 TTC#1 (1 cycle pre mc)
Boboelephant 35 C4 TTC#2 (9 cycles TTC pre MMC after EP)
Wellthisisunexpected 34 TTC#2 awaiting AF
Sloeberrygin 36 C1 TTC#2
Hidcat 35 C1 TTC#2 (3 Cycles TTC pre MC)
DaisyMay25 27 C8 TTC#1
Rdm10 34 C2 TTC#2
Zarala 36 (to be) TTC#2
SerenaOverjoyed 28 C1 TTC#1 (ttc 1 cycle pre mc)
KnitKitty 30 C1 TTC#1

Sorry @weaseldee but sexathon hilarious, adopting that one. Hope you're OK as poss @martydog.
@Patienceofatoddler @Curlypop huuuuugest huge congrats!
Solidarity-in-frazzlement high five @boboelephant @yellowdaffodils86 @babynameedie & all tww'ers.

@cakelaur lovely pic :D thankfully finished the trial meaning can use OPK's and stuff from next cycle (going to!) but don't think they made us not test, just had to do it on their sticks on certain days, and post. £100 for my chromosomes, sure...
@strawberrye so glad you're feeling better and have some support IRL, helps so much! Hope the jetlag's gone, any updates from FF? I think I got the CB OPK's (one pack of 40 sticks, I think, which feels like it should be enough for two cycles?) and voucher code by email about two weeks after returning their stuff, maybe a little longer.
@peachesarenom there you aaare, how are you? x

Ordered x50 cheapies from Amazon last month and I peed on my last one last night what the actual??? What's more that was my first pee this cycle, so I was either short changed or peed on 49 in April. It was a pissy cycle but still. The shame!

BFN obviously, 10 dpo today, don't feel preggo. Do feel unspeakably irritable, negative and sad that'll be AF right on time for the weekend then FRER's arriving tomorrow JIC, had to order something this month.

Definite tww craziness @BabynameEdie! Let's hope it's finally our turn hey!?
@Claire138 thanks hun! So glad to hear you're doing well. Fingers crossed everything is brilliant next Tuesday.
@hayleyfx thankyou!! Hope your JKS marathon is going well. You too @HidCat! Limber up time!! 🤣
@Cakelaur thanks hun. I so hope you're right!!! My LP is usually 13 days so due on your birthday. 🤞 Hopefully it really is birthday bfps! Does that still get me cake? 😉
@weasledee sorry af got you. Definite ninja sex for you!! Maybe encourage grandparents to do some outings with the kids?
@toots123 that's frustrating. Was it first af since MC? Hopefully your body sorts itself soon.
@PassTheAfterEights hope you're ok cycle twin. And that the witch stays where she firmly belongs... nowhere near us!!!

I'm was feeling ok until I started watching this time next year and that set me off.
My stomach feels like I have done about 200 sit ups but no bleeding today and no pain unless I bend down so it looks like I will be able to use the swimming pools on holiday next week. 😁
Hope everyone is ok.

@BabynameEdie frer are about 12mui and clear blue digi is 50mui!! I think Superdrug's ones are also mega sensitive. If you desperately want you, you can pee in a cup with FMU and save it for when the tests arrive. But defo worth using FMU.

@HidCat I feel like it's dragging!! Haha!! But I'm just happy cos bub is doing well. Oooh 🤞🏻 for positive opk soon!! JKS!!

@weasledee so sorry AF got you!! She's so inconvenient. But maybe having secret sex will be fun! A quickie here and a quickie there!! 😉

@toots123 hopefully it'll become clearer soon. I'd suggest that your 1 day bleed could be ovulation bleeding. And therefore you've just got first AF. But who knows bodies are bizarre after loss!

@PassTheAfterEights 😂🤣😂 49 hpts?!! And I thought I was bad!!! That's gotta be a world record! Fingers crossed you get your bfp on the frer!

@Boboelephant of course you still get cake!!! Everyone can have Cake!! Can't wait to see what happens!

@Martydog I'm so pleased you've got a nice holiday booked. Much needed I would imagine!

@Cakelaur I have so much to learn still!! I thought the clear blue ones were so expensive that they would be the most sensitive. 4 frers arrived this afternoon. Going to do my best to wait until fmu tomorrow test. Got a bad feeling though - feel like af is coming 😡 ah well!

So finally had my appointment tonight with a gynaecologist about the pains I get in my pelvis and back. Nothing was found but during internal exam she said there was a little swelling so book in for another scan in a couple of months time. What she explained was interesting. Since these pains only started after my mc she said maybe my mental health is effecting my physical, because I'm stressed and angry and grieving my body isn't healing. And I may just notice pains but now then before because I'm paying more attention.
Then she said what people keep telling me, and it just makes me angry more than reassures me, the old 'you've got pregnant before so you can do it again' it just makes my blood boil.
She did remind me only four months until we get referred for tests though...

I couldn't stop myself..cracked open a frer and...... 😬😬😬 I think there's a line. It's definitely a squinter but..

Any thoughts? Sorry it's so late at night 🐧🐧

@BabynameEdie I see it!! Retest in morning with fmu!!

@BabynameEdie it's not even a squinted, I didn't have to click on it!!

@DaisyMay25 thank you, thank god you see it too! Am now so nervous and may not sleep..will definitely retest in the morning. Xx

@DaisyMay25 I'm so sorry, I hadn't seen your post below. Sounds like a mixed appt, how are you feeling after it? I know what you mean about 'if you've conceived once at least you know you can' - makes me want to hit something! I think a lot of that is that they just don't know what to say and want to give a positive reaction, when really that's just not helpful or appropriate.
I think what you explained about her thoughts on noticing symptoms more once we've been through MC is really interesting. I've certainly become hyper alert and sensitive to ovulation pain (serious aching back, sharp dagger like pains, dizziness and more) and I honestly couldn't have told you anything about my cycle pre MC. Hope you're ok and sorry for my insensitive outburst 💕🐧

@DaisyMay25 I also find that comment very unhelpful. I know medically they are saying it as being able to conceive puts us in a very different field to those who can't at all but it just feels like a useless insensitive comment.
The mental health comment is very interesting. There are definitely numerous studies on how unprocessed grief can manifest with psychosomatic symptoms so could be true. I think it's definitely worth trying to work through your anger around your losses, I've found it helpful. That said your body does also change after loss and become more alert to symptoms. And finally the condition I have which causes pain apparently becomes worse after each pregnancy so could be something like that too as I never had an pain before my EP! Hope you get some answers soon.

@BabynameEdie ahhhhhh!!!!!!!!! Congratulations!!!!!! I'm so happy for you!

@BabynameEdie definitely positive last night!

@DaisyMay25 I hope you're doing ok. Sometimes healing takes longer than we expect, I hope everything gets better soon. 💐🍫

Babyname! Congratulations!!

@daisy those comments piss me off as well sorry it wasn't the most helpful of appointments.
@babynamededie congratulations that's not even a squinter saw it straight away !

Awww big congrats @babynameedie definitely a BFP!!
@daisymay25 I hope you are ok. Not the most useful of comments 🙄 but it interesting like the others have said about how you your emotions are impacting you physically. This is obviously not a solution but maybe you should spend some time pampering yourself like a spa day or weekend getaway. It won’t deal with your emotions directly but it might be nice for your body to have some time out and chill.

@BabynameEdie 😭 I'm so happy for you I can't stop crying!!!! I KNEW it was gonna be your month!!!! Omg just wanna hug you!!! What did your chart do this morning?! Can't wait to see how dark the line is today with FMU! Omg omg omg!!! MAY MIRACLES!!!

@DaisyMay25 sorry the appointment wasn't that helpful. I found Drs to be rather blasé about the whole TTC advice. Sending hugs!

Morning ladies how is everyone doing?

So I caved and tested free twice. Two very squinty lines ( but I am only 8/9 dpo) but I'm a bit worried that this is my cyst talking. Has anyone else ever had this or heard of this happening.

Opps typo frer not free lol

@babynameedie yeah!!! Congratulations

Thanks everyone. I'm more than a bit nervous about it, this morning is just about the same strength of line so pretty faint still. DH pointed out that there was only about 6 hrs between the two tests but am still ok edge about it. Worst case scenario is a chemical pregnancy or full blown MC later on as happened in Feb. I don't know much about chemical pregnancies 🤷🏻‍♀️
@Boboelephant this has to be your month too, our charts are so so similar! 🤞
@Cakelaur don't cry! You're so sweet, I wish I could be excited but I guess you know the feeling..

Congrats @babynameedie. Have you tested again this morning?

@lilimum4 i have never heard of cysts causing bfps. Can you post a pic?

@BabynameEdie I think y oiur DH is right. You took the test very late so not going to be a huge amount of difference. I was too scared to test today after seeing your good news. I thibk I'm just going to blindly hope as I can't stand the disappointment if it's negative. What did your chart do today??