TTC after pregnancy loss - Thread 18: Christmas cake for Christmas babies

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@NoCatsHere Thank you! Yeah definitely easier to see in person but not getting too excited yet. Going to keep testing, hoping it gets darker! 🤞🏼

Jumping on to the shiny new thread!

CD13 for me post-D&C and I'm starting to feel like my body is ready to try again. Only spotting yesterday and (for the first time) a flashing smiley on CB OPK. Pregnancy test still yields a v v faint positive.

Fx for a month full of happy news 💜💜💜

Jumping on this thread too. So my local shop doesn't sell FRERs so I'm waiting for some to be delivered tomorrow. Tested again this morning with an Asda cheapie and BFN. I think I am getting some very light spotting too so I feel AF is on her way. The original faint line must have been an evap or chemical pregnancy I think?

@hayleyfx I see a line on all of those pictures, are you going to test again tomorrow? Fx you'll get a darker line!

@DaisyMay25 thank you! 😀🤞🏼 Testing first thing tomorrow morning, will probably use my frer, hopefully it gets darker!

Thank you all sooooo much for your understanding,support & wisdom💐 I’m sure you’ll all relate with me that mc changes you!! I feel like 2 different people person 1 is like the good old “ME” usual stuff work, so much love for ds, Mum, family & of course soon hubby to be❤️ Even every day shit & stress I can handle I put my soldiers head on & troop on I always work well under pressure!! And then there’s person 2 the mc “ME” which is a very sad, angry,frustrated sometimes jealous (pregnant ladies) very emotional, lost confidence & generally lost person & I struggle as I feel I need answers or something to blame & no sod can do that for me or any of you wonderful ladies! I am a rational person & I know I have to find peace with person 2 & I know I’m not there yet but I am trying soooo hard, I have come to the conclusion that I will feel at peace when I will have a nice sticky rainbow 🌈 bubs! I hope that makes sense??🙈🙈🙈

@hayleyfx I see them. Fx you get a more definate answer tomorrow and some stronger lines

@UnicornsandRainbows thank you! I’ll keep you all updated!

@lovemysparkle that makes absolute sense and you've hit the nail on the head there with exactly how I feel too x

Afternoon all. So I took myself home from work today. Having red bleeding do I think it’s game over again for me. Currently sat on the settee crying. I’m so sad, and angry all at the same time. My little lady is at her grandmas and I really want to go get her but she doesn’t need to see her mummy like this. I feel like I’m letting everyone down, letting my husband down- our family, my little girl. It breaks my heart that I might not be able to give my daughter a sibling. I know that I’m going on a bit- I have just had enough, this could potentially be miscarriage number 4

@Primrose16 So sorry lovely, hope you are ok. Have you been to the doctors? Heartbreak is awful, and the worry and not knowing doesn't help, such a horrible feeling.

Stay strong. Here for you.

Oh @Primrose16 that is so heartbreaking, have you contacted the EPU? Have my fingers and toes crossed for you that this isn't another miscarriage. Thinking of you x

@Primrose I’m so sorry, my heart goes out to you. We’re all here for you. Stay strong x

Thank you. I have contacted the EPU I actually said I don’t know why I’m calling because I know I’m too early to scan. She was so lovely though and told me to see how today pans out and ring back tomorrow and they can scan me on Friday. I don’t think I will get there though. No cramping yet, but I’m not getting my hopes up. It’s all too familiar.

@primrose- thinking of you so much get in touch with doctor/epu/ Hospital asap & get checked out sending love & support to you❤️❤️❤️

@Primrose16 im so so sorry, i really hope it isnt, its breaking my heart at what you are going through, why does it have to be like this 💗💗

Thinking of you @Primrose16. It's so indescribably awful. Hope you have lots of support 💐💐💐

@hayleyfx congratulations! Keeping everything crossed for you that baby is a sticky.

@Primrose16 I'm so sorry. I'm praying that there's a ray of hope and that this could be one of those random bleeds but everything is ok. I would definitely take them up on the scan as at least then you'll know for definite.

My HCG is still at 31 today so been asked to test again in 2 weeks (11 weeks post MC) and go back if still positive. Should have been having my 20 week scan this week and instead the MC is hanging over me like a cloud. @Lovemysparkle what you said about there being 2 versions of you is so true. It changes everything but you still have to put that brave face on and function.

@Primrose16 nooo! I am so so so so sorry to hear this. Rest up and I hope it all subsides. Thinking of you

@Lovemysparkle
I too have had 3 consecutive MCs now- it's just awful. I haven't yet got on the TTC train yet- we're giving my body a few months rest as I've literally been pregnant or miscarrying since August. But I can imagine how frustrating and upsetting it is each month we "fail"
I know it's really hard to "accept " this shit that has happened or isn't happening to us- but I really find yoga helps me to find my inner peace.
Also I definitely recommend Arvigo therapy- I just discovered it last week and honestly I came away from it feeling better than I have done in months. It's recommended for anyone trying to conceive or if anyone has any fertility issues. I had never heard of it before, it's an ancient Mayan abdominal massage which integrates the whole whole body holistically- I really felt great afterwards.
If you're in London I will pass on the name of the lady I saw- she was really wonderful
I promise I'm not a hippy or anything haha

@HidCat - I'm sorry it's still dragging like this. I can really imagine your frustration.
I would also recommend checking out Arvigo- I went because I had an incomplete miscarriage and hoped it would help cleanse my womb- it didn't (!) as I just came out of ERPC now, but in terms of emotions and balancing everything i really did feel amazing.

@zarala thanks for that, looking it up now. I'm in Mid-Wales so will probably have to travel but need to feel pro-active!

@HidCat thank you, FX!

Hi, can I join? I had an ectopic in September, and then a chemical last week. I'm feeling very despondent and lonely in this.

@primrose16 I’m so sorry to hear this, gutted for you.

I’m sorry @hayleyfx I never said congrats. I hope that line gets nice and dark x

Thank you @Primrose no need to say sorry! Thinking of you x