Roll up, roll up!....Clomid cycle buddy needed please, dont want to do this on my own!

[pussycatmomma]

Hi thats it really. If there is anyone who is about to start a new cycle with clomid, can you please be my friend?
This will be my first try on clomid, I have pcos, and started af today after a horrible 48 day cycle.
But af is here, hurray! which means i can start on the magic beans tomorrow.
So if you would like chat and hand holding too, please sign in here.
Im thinking good sense of humour, sympathy, and patience will be a must
xxx

hellllooooooo people!! Happy Easter to everyone just in case I dont get a chance to log on before Easter Sunday.
Awen, keeping everything crossed for you honey, hope af stays away and that you get to experience your bfp very soon. Cant wait to see if you are lucky this cycle.
Coggy and wannabe lovely to hear from you two my old buddies, not much to report though i am afraid to say! How are you both doing??? Wannabe, did you go back on pill yet? whats happening with you sweetie? coggs, does this seem like a really long month for you cause you are "on a break"????
cd 19 here. For the most part we have managed to keep up with the almost inane shagging .....
had my progesterone blood test today, am not expecting any wildly happy results, as i said, day 19, it is supposed to be day 21 but that falls on easter sat, and what with bank hols on friday and monday etc, hosp advised to have it today. Bearing in mind my recent cycles have been about 45 -50 days, I am not expecting to have ovulated yet (if at all of course).
Feeling a bit fed up to be honest. It is so hard to allow yourself to be hopeful, cause in the end you know that hopes are gonna be dashed every month, no matter how hard you try.....
Thinking of you all.
xxx

have i killed my own thread??
where are you ladies? I can only hope to assume that you all have neither good news nor bad news otherwise you would have been on here telling me all about it!!
Hope everything is ok with you lot, keep us posted everyone!!
cd23 here for me. No-mans-land time of the cycle me thinks.
love to all x x x

CD44 (CD40 on clomid). Did as consultant said and took test this morning. BFN Have to do another test on Thursday and then speak to conultant that day. Looking at starting on clomid 100mg.

Obv still no AF either. If no Af or BFP I will have to take provera for 7 days.. how does it work? Do you start AF after finishing provera or whilst taking it?

No-mans land is hard pcm .. symptom spotting starts.. (took my mind of it by LOTS of bd

Just want to be BFP soo much. I think tho this cycle is out for me.. oh well January baby maybe then. DS was february and if Feb exactly 8 years then between them

hi awen......sorry to hear whats been happening with you. (((hugs))) Were your cycles that long without the clomid? I think iirc you said they were, mine were the same, 40-50 occasionally the odd 70-90 day-er thrown in for good measure. I have heard about the provera but dont know the ins and outs of it. I will try and find out and post for you. At least your consultant is keen to get you moved up to the 100mg,which should make a difference, its not like s/hes hanging around and saying "lets just try another cycle". That is one of my fears, that they will just leave me on it for the full 6mths , with no bfp and not enough monitoring to find out what is actually happening. But it sounds like that is not the case with you, which is v.good. Did you have any obvious abdominal pain this month? I had a distinct cycle of it around the time the clomid-textbook(!) said i may ovulate, im scared of getting my hopes up though. Just wondered if you had any this month, and then the tests went on to say you did not ovulate? Keep posting honey, let us know if you start the provera. Or af for that matter. Wonder how lulu is getting on?
Back to no-mans-land for me...Still bd though, you never know!
xxx

Hi all- sorry, I've been moving and don't have email access. Well, AF arrived on Friday (CD24!). Total shock as thought it wouldn't show for at least another week as my cycles seem to be 35 days and I thought clomid meant a longer cycle. Now rushing about trying to get another prescription of clomid as my GP messed up and only gave me enough for 1 cycle. Did anyone start taking clomid 3 days into cycle or later? I'm hoping I haven't missed the boat this month. Feel totally thrown by it. Another question- do I still need to do a PG test even though pretty sure this is AF? Question, questions!

I started clomid on day 5 for this cycle. Might be good to test just in case. Has AF fully arrived or is it spotting?

I'm pretty sure it is AF although the timing is wierd. I have no other symptoms. It was extremely light for 2 days and then heavier on Saturday. Now seems to be over, though. I am desperately trying to get more clomid- v. frustrating. Would it be OK to start on day 4 do you think even though doc said to start day 2???? I guess I could just leave it this month, but I really don't want to. I so hoped I would be pregnant before April 19th as that was supposed to be my due date for the baby I lost in October. And.. of course, just found out another good friend is pregnant and due in June. Didn't want to tell me since her due date is so close to what mine was supposed to be.

Lulu.....if you don't manage to get your prescription in time don't worry.

I had to have a couple of breaks in between my clomid cycles (because of work or one thing or another) and fell pg on a month's 'break'.
It does stay in your system despite what my nurse said!
So don't feel like it's a wasted month even if you can't take the clomid.....it may have woken your body up a bit.
HTH.
X

lulu - also I was able to start clomid on day 5 of my cycle (mine was late starting as I was poorly) If u search clomid often it is taken days 5-9 so please dont worry too much xx ((hugs))

hi everyone ((waves))
lulu.....if it was so light and now its stopped and you normally go much later into the cycle before af .....could it not be implantation bleeding??? I know few people who have actually thought they had af, then found they were prg and then looking back af was very light or early or weird in some other way. Just a thought. Though I'm sure you will have thought it already...
I have also read many times of clomid being started up to day 5 in cycle, try not to worry....
Like i said earlier i am cd24 today, but have had uncomfortable af type cramping. Wish there was a pill to take to completely numb your mind along with the clomid, there is far to much to think and ponder on!!!
Hiya Coggy....I posted on your thread, glad to see you are back in the driving seat this month!

.......a hard 2WW for you no doubt this month.....exciting too though.
I really, really, REALLY hope it works for you.
X

I finally have the Internet again! Yay! Thanks for all your messages. I ended up not getting the prescription, but a friend prescribed it to me privately. So I was really fretting as I did wonder if it were not really AF as it was so early and light. I had a bleed right before I found out I was pregnant last time, but that was like a gush of blood and only lasted a couple of hours. OK- TMI... but this one was just light and brown day 1, a bit heavier but brown day 2, then heavy and red day 3 then light and brown for another day. I don't think it would last that long- do you? I took a PG test and it was neg. no surprise there. But it has made me a bit anxious. All that positivity I had when I took the first cycle is gone out the window.

I decided to start on the clomid last night. I did consider not taking it and giving it a rest this month- I'm so confused!

lulu are you going to be taking the same 50mg or upping it to 100mg? did you get a positive result re ovulation in the end or not? cd25 here......and i stupidly did a test, one that was just lurking on its singledom in the back of the bathroom drawer....needless to say completely bfn
Now torturing myself with the Why oh Why oh Why oh Why in the Lords name did I pee on the bloody stick
Feel so disappointed but at the same time in back of my silly brain, trying to tell myself it was too early to test.
I too feel all hope fast draining away!!
Gosh we could all do with a cheer up couldnt we!
xxx

Thinking of you PCM! xxxx

PCM- thinking of you. I am so there with you! I felt SO stupid doing a test last night as I know it wouldn't be positive, but still... and now am torturing myself that maybe I shouldn't have started back on the clomid! Stupid as I am sure I would have other symptoms if I were PG. I did last time. Cheer up definitely in order. I'm giong to make those Nigella Lawson chocolate pots! You can have some!

oooh count me in lulu! Have just taken dog for long walk in park and called in shop for bottle of wine on way home, I'll send you a glass to have with your choc pots
Its just so crushing and so bloody frustrating every time though isnt it!!! I told my dh that id found a test and done it and of course bfn, hes just like "why do you do this to yourself!!!" His attitude is when you are preg you will know and that testing early/late/whatever won't make a shred of difference. I tried to explain that it is somehow more torturous to have a test staring at you from the cupboard and having it on your mind all day while you are supposed to be working etc etc. And that it is better to put the inevitable disappointment out of the way and just think, oh well, its not worked, and just wait for af. He says better to have the hope for as long as possible until af does arrive.
I say it just prolongs the agony.....
Its a lovely evening, we are going to have eat out on the deck tonight, so with my wine and the birdsong i may just be able to get it all out of my head for an hour or so!
Hiya coriander by the way!!! ((((waves)))) How are you??? How is baby Jack doing? Seems like a lifetime ago that we used to all chat.
xxx

Hi guys, well CD45 here (cd41 since starting on clomid). Have to do another test in then morning (think complete waste of money as fairly sure will be yet another bfn ) Also have to call consultant tomorrow.. looking at taking provera and then clomid 100mg (never taken provera bvefore so bit worried). Planning on taking ds to the beach as well so hoping will get a good signal on the phone as on orange and usually get a really poor signal.

Am sat on my comfy sofa right now feeling quite chuffed with new laptop (dp treated me } Now I can watch TV and chat on here

now if you test again early you'll be on detention young lady... . honestly don't put yourself through it. apart from anything else that money could have been far better spent on a bottle of wine! .

in answer to your question further down the thread, I'm going back on the pill this month, well that's if my af shows up properly. I had some light bleeding on Monday night and a bit on Tuesday, and it's now stopped, so I'm essentially on cd30 now and waiting for the full force of af, so once that happens I'll be going back on the pill and it'll all be over for me.

CD46 here. Tested this morning. BFN Called consultant as planned and she had a study day.. her secretary said that she would call me this evening and that she had left details with secretary along lines of if bfn induce AF and then start increased clomid 100mg.. as long as liver function improved. Looks like liver function has, although still above 'normal' limits and I need to have another test. Anyway, consiltant didnt actually call me and am debating wether just to get on with taking the provera or wait and see if she calls tomorrow.

[confused emocion]

hope everyone else ok x

to hear that wannaBe....Iknow it's not been an easy decision for you.

Are you going to take it for a few months and then come off.....I am sure that someone (medical/ doctor-ish-type-person-in my-dim-and-distant-ttc-past) told me that you can be more fertile when you first come off the pill?????

I hope I am not getting your hopes up again by saying that...but it maybe worth investigating???
I think it was my GP who suggested (originally) that I may like to try that.

Massive ((((hugs)))) to you my friend.
X

Sorry to hear about your bfn too PCM....but I am with wannaBe in the wrist-slapping queue.......you know you didn't want to do that test really!!
Those wretched things calling to us eh?
I have three in my bathroom.....thank goodness I am only CD5!!!!
Big (((((hugs))))) to you too tonight.
X

hey everyone....
wannabe i can only second everything that coggs has said in her post. Seems as if you have come to a decision and I know it has not been at all easy for you. Maybe this could be the step you need to be able to move forward? Also if you do change your mind there is always the chance of the increased fertility surge when coming off the pill to bring a little hope. Would you not go down the assisted conception route? I wish you and your family all the best in whatever life may have in store for you all.
Awen - again sorry to hear about bfn... Best now to take the provera and put the last cycle behind you.
Lulu, glad you have managed to so speedily begin your second cycle!
Am cd27 today, just waiting for af but no signs yet so could be in for a long wait unless the clomid is going to (hopefully) shorten my cycle. I rang the hosp today for my blood results and am v. p*ssed off that the secretary would not disclose them to me, or arrange for cons to call me, or arrange for them to be sent to me in writing. She suggested I ask at my next appt - Bloody October !! No further testing has been arranged for me and I am worried that if I am not ovulating on the 50mg dose then it wont be picked up and I wont have the chance to try increased dose and my fate will fall at the iui/ivf door.........
Does anyone elses thoughts run away with them like this??
Why isnt anything ever straightforward!!

Pussycat - I would ring secretary again and state that it is important for you to have results and that consultant can contact you. Sec was out of order imo. You need to know results to know if u need it increased. She shouldnt be advising u. Still waiting to hear from my consultant. Good news is my liver function has improved to should be ok to go for increase too Not starting provera today as just want to give consultant chance to call as she is apparantly calling me this weekend from home! bless her. if she doesnt, it doesnt matter, will catch up next week. I am super chilled today about it, no idea why.

What???!!!

Phone them again PCM......if I've learnt anything from all the trials and problems over the past two years...it's too be assertive...and dare I say it.....be arsey if you need to be.

I was polite and patient for FAR TOO long and just got put to the bottom of the pile because other people (who had been waiting FAR less time and had far fewer problems) were speaking up for themselves and I wasn't.

Don't let the same thing happen to you......GO FOR IT!!!!!
X

PCM

Your next appointment is October!!.

Utterly unacceptable. You need to be seen far sooner than that not just to say regularly (you ought to be closely monitored whilst on clomid because it cannot be determined whether its doing its job or not otherwise) I feel that you have been well and truly mucked about with to date.

TBH I would return to my GP and ask for a referral to another gynae subfertility unit in a major city if you are located near such a place. It is fair to say that some units are far better than others when it comes to subfertility.

Hi ladies HOw u all doing. Are you ok PCM?

My consultant called me this morning bless her and I cant believe she called me on the weekend from home. I am very lucky to have her. Going to start provera.. going to leave it till Tuesday to start it as want AF to arrive on a weekday so my day 21 bloods fall on a week day too iyswim. She has also put up clomid to 100mg - this will only second cycle on clomid so it seems like she really has her finger on the pulse. PCM u really need to push for better care.

Consultant also told me not to use preseed, do temping or ov predictor or cm tests. She said to lay off internet and that just relaxing will be far far more beneficial than the above. bless her

I think she is spot on tbh. x