TTC First Time... #3!!

[MistyBxx]

Hey girlies, thought I'd make a new thread for us to continue on!!xx

Hey girlies. Hope you're all ok. I am feeling absolutely hideous today. Went out last night and I drunk way too much. I know I shouldn't drink when ttc but end of the day, people get pg and don't even know for months. Not a great idea I know but I'm punishing myself enough today. I don't know what's wrong with me, I've got a good marriage, and a lovely family, amazing friends, a decent job and my own home business, there's nothing outwardly wrong with me and I'm a nice person but last night I turned into a demon. Honest now, I have really upset my friends, pissed my husband off and was in hell of a state, being an absolute cow and acting really inappropriately. I'm 32 years old like I should really know how to behave. I've always been a party girl, but last night was off the scale. Like I'm physically sick and exhausted and mentally mortified by my own actions and words. My friends aren't speaking to me at all, and my hubs is looking at me like shit, I feel like I have nobody in the world right now. What is wrong with me? I don't know whether it's just coz of what I've been through recently with the mc, or am I just making excuses for being a complete nightmare. I should have been 17 weeks by now. I'm not a bad person but what I was like last night is nothing short of disgusting. Had a lot of wine and shots and cocktails, and was just an absolute liability, upset everyone. I'm feeling incredibly down. I don't even know why I'm writing it here, I don't deserve any sympathy or understanding, I'm lying in bed mascara stained face with club stamps all over my arms, feeling like the end of the actual world xxx

Hi everyone so sorry I have been AWOL for the past week or so!! I've had an awful chest infection so have pretty much just been in bed feeling sorry for myself! I'm on CD14 now but have only DTD once due to not feeling up to it so going to have to buck my ideas up this week!

I've just skim read over most of the posts and OMG congratulations Jelly!! Amazing news to come back to! How are you feeling?! Wishing you the healthiest 9 months, and please stay on here or we will be chasing you round the rest of MN for updates .

Twisted just saw about your dog I'm sorry hun

Flat how are you doing after your hospital stay? Hope you're feeling better

Bless you Misty stop being so hard on yourself chick! You are bound to still be all over the place after the MC, your emotions (and probably still hormones!) must be playing havoc with you. Be kind to yourself everyone has drunken nights that they'd rather forget every once in a while xxx

How is everyone else doing what have I missed? Welcome to the newbies too xxx

@Misty I agree with @ttcnovice - don't be so hard on yourself!!! If it's any consolation, I too was back in bed with club stamps on my arms about half an hour ago! Have a shower, you'll feel better. I hate the beer fear and I know exactly how you feel but it will pass!!!

Hi @ttcnovice hope you are feeling better now?

Im watching films on the sofa. Debating whether to go to cinema, gym, both or neither this afternoon/evening!

Hi Pibbee I'm getting there thanks was so gutted to miss all the gorgeous weather last week being in bed though!

I vote for you carrying on your films on the sofa day . Loads of goodies and getting comfy on the settee is what bank holidays are for!

@littleemma1 I've just googled Hexham Abbey - wow what a stunning venue! I bet you're so excited!

@jellybean
I am sooooo happy for you! Please stay on this thread and keep us updated. We started the TTC journey at the same time, I think we are the same age (based on your username) and by the looks of your comment about Ramadan we have that in common too. Ramadan Kareem to you!

@misty
Stop being so hard on yourself. Everyone makes mistakes. The best thing you can do is let everyone cool down and then apologise. You've been through a lot recently and it is very normal to let it get the better of you. Take care of yourself!

@ttc- welcome back! Hope you're feeling better soon.

I'm about to start my FW and me and DH are so tired at the moment that we are not putting any pressure on ourselves at all this month. We will see what happens.

Really after advice please...
Flo says I'm due to ovulate tomorrow but my ov test this afternoon showed up negative (faintest line possible) , but I thought you were supposed show as negative 24 hours before ovulation? I didn't test on Sunday as I was away, could it be that ov has been and gone, or could just take a bit longer to show on a test...?

Aww @misty don't be so hard on yourself! You went through a lot and it's understandable that you needed to blow off some steam. The best you can do now is apologise to everyone involved and take care of yourself x

@TTC thank you! I hope you feel better soon chest infections are horrible x

@Forevertimes Ramadan Kareem darling! Don't worry I won't be going anywhere I'm hanging around until I see everyone's bfp ❤️❤️

@Pibbee did you end up deciding where to go? I'm off to my aunt's for dinner as I cannot be bothered to cook + I decided to go on daily walk so I'm getting some exercise in.

@flat have hope and be positive babe, 31 isn't old at all. Have you seen a doctor for the short periods? I never heard of them being 2 days long.

I had a bit of a panic today as I saw someone on one of the other boards mention a pushchair for around £600 I don't know why I never checked the price of baby stuff!!! Forced myself to calm down and decided to stop buying tests just so I can see the result and get excited. The amount of money i spend on them is ridiculous.

Hi all! Been AWOL for a couple of days as been working and I just cba to do anything when I've been at work lol. Been at work today but I've been on double time and as it's been raining I haven't complained!

@jellybean CONGRATULATIONS!!! So excited for you, this is amazing news!! 🎉

Hope everyone else is doing well!
@ttcnovice I had a bad chest infection in January and it floored me. Was so horrendous.

I've been enjoying the sunshine for the past few days too but don't really have any colour to show for it 😩 I used to tan so easy!

Throwing myself into the wedding is helping keep my mind off TTC! We're all booked for next July, photographer, DJ, flowers and cake are all sorts via various family members so I don't know what to do now! I'm going dress shopping on Saturday to get an idea of styles to motivate my fat arse into losing more weight! I'm sticking with slimming world and over 3-4 weeks I'm down around 6-7lb so I'm happy so far! Gonna do the Clean-9 that @misty suggested the week I'm off in June 😁
After my OPK's last week the line as disappeared so just waiting for AF. Still no word from the gynaecologist so not sure if I should follow this up with the docs?

Hey girlies, I'm still feeling horrendous 😞 spoke to my friends and they're actually still not speaking to me. Like surely I'm not the only one who has been drunk and an idiot. Bleughhh. I've got a really bad back today too, deep in the middle of my lower back, right at the end of my spine. Maybe coz I've been lying in bed too long but AF is due either Sunday (Clue) or a week Thursday (Ovia) and it's normal for me to have pain a week before.
jelly glad you're sticking around to sprinkle baby dust on us. Re prams etc, loads of my friends with more than one child have all said they bought everything brand new for the first one but by the second, they bought everything second hand 😂 Facebook buy and sell sites and off friends etc. Babies outgrow things so quick, it does seem crazy to spend so much money on things! When my time comes, I definitely will be buying second hand! Some things brand new for safety/hygiene reasons, but I will defo be buying a second hand pram! Always loads for sale on my fb, people like "cost £800 and only been used for 3 months" lol it's mad!

Sorry girls haven't been on MN in a couple of days!! I've come away with my family to my nans house in Guernsey, is lovely to have a bit of a break.... feeling really broody again now so think af must be due again soon! Or maybe next week I don't know.. the weeks seem to be flying by!! Roll on august can't wait to try properly😣

Aw misty don't worry chick we have all been there at some point, everything seems to feel worse the next day. I'm sure whatever happened can't be that bad? Hopefully your friends will get over it soon, they should cut you a bit of slack really! I agree with what ttcnovice said about hormones and emotions still being all over the place!!

Hope you're feeling better now ttcnovice!! Hi again forevertimes, good luck to you as well!!

I think we need an update on everyone's stats and where people are at!!

Another group I was in started a whatsapp group, just putting the feelers out if anyone would want to do that or just keep it confidential/ anonymous as a mn thing! Xx

Aww @MistyBxx I feel awful for you, I'm sure you can't have done anything so bad for your friends to still be so angry! Do they know what you've been going through lately? I'm sure it will all blow over soon and you know what, if it doesn't then it says a hell of a lot more about them than it does about you 😘 xxx

Thanks for all the well wishes @Forevertimes @littleemma1 @JellyBean89 and @charl19 😘😘😘

@Forevertimes fingers crossed your no pressure approach will work wonders this month 🤞🏼

I clearly haven't gotten to grips with the new name tagging thing on here have I 🙈

Yeah @Misty, if you have been a drunken arse then all you can do is apologise, they are your friends and they know you are not a dick really!! I have been a drunken twat to my friends on a very rare occasion in the past - dunno about you but white wine is my devil drink!!! I dont go near it now. You are not the first person to do this and you won't be the last!! Get yourself an early night and I promise you will feel better in the morning.

@Charl I quite like the idea of a whatsapp group, sounds nice!

@Jelly I don't think anyone checks the price of baby stuff! I know I haven't, thats for sure!

Urgh WHY is the weekend over already?!?!?

Oh - totally failed to go to the gym OR the cinema earlier stayed in watching films and getting a takeaway! Yum

@charl19 I'm with @Pibbee I also like the idea of a Whatsapp group! But at the same time it scares me incase I know anyone in real life 😬 (I know the odds of that happening are very small!). That's why I didn't add any pictures of my wedding actually when a few of you added your lovely photos! If anyone wants to see any of mine though then I can send them via PM .

You're all so lovely and supportive we should definitely make sure we all keep in touch either way xxx

Cool well if a few more people want to, then I will get you to pm me your numbers! Obviously it will stay private within our little group anyway I hope that goes without saying! But I know what you mean ttcnovice I feel like I would be really embarrassed if I found anyone I knew on here!! It just feels like a totally different world!

Yes definitely @charl19 especially because we have had a tendency to over share some very personal things on this thread . It's more the thought of who could be reading this and not posting than the worry of knowing any of you regular posters in real life that I think about!

Yep!! I can guarantee none of my friends know about the colour of my cm and my knicker tendencies 😂

Haha yes the things we say on here!!! I do sometimes wonder if anything I have said makes me identifiable but I don't think so. I think it would be good to be able to chat without fear of being identified on a public forum!

I am sooo tired and need to go to bed but am refusing, just to be stubborn. I'm actually acting like a toddler

Bored of this stupid 2WW now too. I have no signs or symptoms of anything so kinda just wanna get on with the next one now!

@charl19 I so wish I could like that last post 😂😂😂

I've wondered the same @Pibbee! In fact I've changed a few little insignificant details now and again just because I suspect a few people I know use MN! The thought of DH's Auntie 'Jean' or Betty from down the road knowing how often DH and I DTD fills me with dread . I haven't changed anything major though - I feel like an imposter now!

Hey girlies, I'm like you pibbee I neeeed to go to bed, but I just can't. Dreading waking up for work tomoz 😭
I'm up for a whatsapp group, you can change the profile pic so it's not your face if you want to. I'm also terrified in case I know someone lol. I know there's only charl from Wales and we've established that we live in different areas and I don't know anyone from her area so I don't think I will know her. But literally, we know soooo much about each other 😂 from sex life to the contents of our knickers, mood swings, boobs and poop 💩 hahaha 🙈

Also just working out... I've dtd 7 times in the last 14 days. 3 times in Clue FW and twice in Ovia FW and a couple of times before and after the windows. Did it 2 days in a row on what Clue says was my actual ovulation. I'm really keeping my fingers crossed, I feel like I have covered all bases this cycle and I'm just praying. I neeeeed to be pg now, I just want to stay home on weekends with my hubby eating nice food, cwtching up watching tv and not boozing😳 just growing a tiny human😍