TTC - First Time! (2)

[mrsjkerry]

Hi all. Reconvene here!

Emma I'll keep my fx for you & your appt!

To try & give myself a reality check I poas. Morrisons early detection & it was bfn!! Supposed to be able to test 4 days early & im barely within that so stupid really but it served its purpose! I'm a little more realistic now!!

Misty glad you're feeling a bit better

emma hope everything's okay when you finally get the appointment, will keep my fx for you 🤞🏼

Twisted I'm excited for you with those symptoms! This could finally be the month for you! Keeping everything crossed!

Pibbee you DTD in your FW so there's definitely a good chance still, don't worry! I'm still getting the dreaded flashing smiley faces, but I had lots of EWCM and a sharp pain in where my ovary should be on CD15, so I think I might have missed the surge the night before (on the one night I didn't test - typical!). If so I'd be 3DPO now, but we're still DTD every other day just incase!

Hi @ttcnovice! How many days of the flashy buggers have you had now?

I had those pains too. Although I am never exactly sure where my ovaries even are! I have had them for several days on and off, from half way through FW and even today slightly. What does THAT mean. (Probably nothing....) so you are in the 2ww now? Meeeeee too.

Possibly in the 2ww really struggling to work out when af is due seeing i stopped the pill in march had a period then nothing! So if I was on the pill still I would have been due a week today! And af still hasn't arrived for me going to test at the weekend!

Well ladies.... CD62 and Auntie Flo has finally bloody arrived!!! I know it's weird to want her to come but I think I deserve this one! Still going to the docs as something still doesn't seem normal, but thought you would all like the update! 😂🙈

Well ladies.... CD62 and Auntie Flo has finally bloody arrived!!! I know it's weird to want her to come but I think I deserve this one! Still going to the docs as something still doesn't seem normal, but thought you would all like the update! 😂🙈

Ps @user I think you need to give your body some time. You will get some crazy sometimes but just let your body settle when coming off the pill. X

@littleemma1 so glad AF arrived after her prolonged absence! Hope your next cycle isn't as long.
I've had a tiny bit of brown discharge today (sorry TMI!) and have a big chin spot (lovely!!!) so I reckon AF will appear very soon. I'm disappointed, as we DTD loads this month, especially during my FW. I can tell TTC is going to be a frustrating process...

Hey girlies, hope you're all well. littleemma wow that's a long cycle, you must be relieved!
flatwhite implantation happens around af time so don't count herself out til its bright red and heavier 😂 plus from the pregnancy boards loads of ladies get spots in early pregnancy coz of the hormones. Don't want to get your hopes up just thought I'd say lol.
pibbee opks are a nightmare lol I've got loads stocked up but haven't started back using them yet coz my hormones are probably still all over the shop.
twisted you're not out til af/bfp so don't pee on another stick til you're late 😂 easier said than done I know.
ttc I'm feeling loads better, thank you.
Hope everyone else is ok!! I'm forgetting everyone's names and who's said what lol.

Today I did something I've been dreading. Bought more pg tests 😳 just Poundland strip ones. I'm gonna do one later to finally see that snowy white proof that my pregnancy is over. Scary but got to be done now coz I need to make sure my hcg is back down after the mc so I know my body is recovering properly you know. Still scary though 😫 then just have to wait for my next period. Dreading that too!! According to dr google, my next period can be any time from 20 days after my mc bleeding stopped completely. That was only 2 weeks ago so can expect it any time in May really I suppose. Never looked forward to a period more in my life, I need some normality!xx

I will try Misty but we all know we are addicts to poas here!!

AF is tomorrow & I don't really have any symptoms. I'm still getting a pain in my right side like stitch but it's also in my lower back. It's been almost a week of this which doesn't tally with typical implantation pain! I'm actually concerned now so agreed with DH that if I still have it Tuesday & no BFP I will try & get a dr appt.

Hope everyone enjoys the bank holiday weekend. Anyone doing anything nice?

Ooof twisted I had such a bad lower back when I was pg! I thought it was coz I'd been to a kings of leon gig and danced my ass off lol but it went on for ages and I realised after that it was a symptom not just over-dancing 😳

I've got a baby shower today. I'm feeling excited about it though, my friend was pg ages before me and I'm so happy for her and looking forward. And I'm going to get pissed lol 🙌🏼
Have a fab weekend all xx

Sounds like a plan Misty. I hope it's not too hard.

I'll keep you all posted xx

Apparently because AF took so long to get here it would appear this is a far worse than normal period 😩 I feel rotten. So sick and tired and just generally run down and I'm so god damn heavy 😩 Really hope the doc has some answers on Tuesday because I really hope I won't have to cope with cycles like this!

@misty I hope you have a nice time at the baby shower!

@twisted that was something I was getting. A constant stitch like pain with no period for a long time which had prompted me to go to the docs. If you don't feel right about it then go. We know our bodies best!

Poor you @littleemma1, that sounds horrible. Really hope you get some answers at the doctor on Tuesday.
@MistyBxx, hope you enjoy the baby shower. You've got such a positive attitude . Enjoy a few cheeky wines!
I tested today (I think I'm 12 dpo but I don't actually know what day I ovulated, so that's just a guess) and it was a BFN. Not surprised at all. It wasn't an FRER though. Have also had a craving today for choc and crisps, so I'm 99% sure AF is on her way! Haha! Just want it over with now so we can get on with cycle 3.

@Twistedsister7, fingers crossed for tomorrow!

Oh my god I've just had it!!

A friend who has endometriosis is accidentally pregnant, my cousin who's words were 'well if I get pg he will have to stay with me' has just announced on Facebook & ive spent the afternoon with DHs close female friend who has just had a baby. I've just locked myself upstairs & cried my heart out. It's just all too much. And not to sound petulant but it's not fair!! I just can't even explain the despair but I know some of you are right there with me.

It's hard because I'm so happy for the friend with endo because it's something she though she couldn't have but the cousin one tipped me over the edge!! The way she talks it's like this baby is a means to an end & yet here I am trying so hard & it just won't happen for me. I know I'm not out yet & I was hopeful but now I just don't feel pregnant & im waiting for the inevitable.

DH can see I'm upset but he just keeps saying generic things like it'll happen when it happens like he just doesn't feel it the way I do each cycle. I just want to run away right now but the sad thing is I have nowhere to go so we're just sat here in silence.

I have tears streaming as I type. I feel like I've lost something but I never really had it in the first place so why am I even upset. There are people actually experiencing physical losses. I'm not there but I strangely feel heartbroken today!!

I'm sorry for the emotional rant but like I said, no one to talk to.

@twisted sending hugs your way! It's an emotional roller coaster and when you see people announcing they're PG all over social media and running everyone's faces in their business (whether it be for the right or wrong reasons!) it can be hard to deal with. I get that. Every time I see another couple get engaged or announce they're pg it's makes me angry at my OH which I then get angry at myself for! I love him to bits, we have a mortgage and we're planning our futures but it still makes me bat shit crazy when other people get there before me. I think it's normal? 🤔 Lol.
@flatwhite that's another thing, I take care of myself and eat well for the most part but today all I've eaten is crisps and chocolate and my waist line will never thank me for it 😭
Some days it's genuinely a struggle being a woman. Men have no idea how easy theyve got it at times. I'm so woe is me today 😩

@Twistedsister7 really feeling for you right now, wish I could give you a hug! TTC is so emotionally draining sometimes, something I didn't really expect coming into it. ❤️❤️❤️ Is your AF due tomorrow?

Hope it's sunny where everyone is today!

Thanks Emma & Millie.

Now I've had a good cry I feel a little better, still gutted it's not me but not on the verge of tears anymore.

AF is due tomorrow but no usual symptoms so will probably be a day or two after. I did a CB today & bfn. It wasn't fmu but still. It gave me the jolt I needed to stop convincing myself this was the one. Probably best to be realistic.

And Millie I had no idea I'd ever feel this way & was convinced I'd be so relaxed & what happens will happen in its own time. Wow what an eye opener the last 6 months has been!!

Aw twisted I feel your pain!! You feel like you're being a dickhead to other people but because it's so close to your heart and it's totally normal!! I think it's ok to be how you are, like the other girls said I'm sure we've all been there!! The main thing is that we don't let it ruin things for too long, have to get on with it and hold our heads high. Our time will come when it is right, but at least for now we've got here to have a good old moan! X

Oh big hugs @Twistedsister7. I'm due on Mon and got a BFN today on a cheap test strip I bought on eBay. There will always be pregnancies and babies everywhere, but we notice them 100 x more while TTC. Hope you feel a bit better tomorrow. X

Thanks charl & flatwhite. I'm not feeling so deflated now but I have unfollowed my cousin temporarily on Facebook. Because so many people were commenting it was there every time I logged in! This scan pic staring me in the face!! Ive wished her well & I do mean it as I'm sure deep down she's grateful. She's just needs to think about how she talks about it xx

Does it effect fertility/ttc if you have previously used contraception for a long time? I've used either the contraceptive implant or the pill for around the last 15 years. Now ttc #1. Been ttc for 10 months. Any advice would be really appreciated Thankyou

Twisted, I'm sorry you're having a rough time!

DH and I had a lot of log discussion over the course of the week. We both want a baby.
Having read up on advice about prenatal vitamins and discussing our careers we've decided to put TTC on hold till summer. This way I can take three months of vitamins now. And falling pregnant from August onwards would be a lot more convenient money wise. And opportunity came up at work for him and same for me. We will hopefully also have completed on a home by then.

I'm upset but it's a compromise we've reached. My head says this is the absolute best decision. But my heart and uterus cry out for a baby