TTC - First Time! (2)

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Hi all. Reconvene here!

That was a lovely post Misty - I love this thread ❤️

Love this thread! You're all such lovely ladies. Sending you lots of love charl and Misty. Xx

I love this thread too!

Aw misty thank you that was lovely, just what I needed to hear!! I love this thread as well everyone is so lovely.. thank you everyone for your kind words 😘 I wish i came on here sooner to say, that's what everybody is here for after all!

misty I've still got my fingers crossed for you and defo don't rule anything out until you know! It's so hard isn't it thinking about everything going on whether ttc or early pregnant, your mind just goes crazy. The thing about it all for me was I felt more at peace just knowing for sure.

Thanks ladies you are all so lovely on here and I can't wait to hear of some new bfps soon ☺️

I've been AWOL on MN for a few days and just come back and seen the news..
Charl I'm so sorry you had to go though that, i can't even begin to imagine how hard it must have been for you and your OH. Hold your chin up high and know that, as heartbreaking as it is, trust that your body knows what it is doing, and that soon you will have a little someone who will make this whole crazy ride worth it!

MistyBxx you must be going stir crazy waiting! Try and take the time you have to look after yourself..And know that you we are all thinking of you and have our fx for a positive outcome. ❤️

I love how supportive everyone is on this thread... No matter where in your cycle you are, or what's happening to your, there are always people here to give advice and lend an ear! X

Morning all! Hello @Marie how's things?

I am peed off this morning. DP decided to embark on a ridiculous sleepathon last night until right before it was time to get ready for work this morning which meant no DTD either last night or this morning, and to make matters worse, out of morbid curiosity I peed on a stupid stick this morning and got the solid smily (wasn't expecting that so soon as have only had 2 days of flashing ones) which means am pretty much out for this month automatically unless there's a small chance of anything tonight. Great.

I used to stress on about whether or not things would all be in functional order and it seems they are, which is good, but no bloody point if DTD isn't happening! He knows it's prime baby-creation days too cos I told him. Humph.

Sorry for ranting and I know people have got worse things going on....

@Charl19 I am so sorry for what you went through! I really hope you get a BFP soon and its the right time xx

@Misty how are you feeling today? it's good you have the week off work at least you can stay at home and hopefully try to get some rest every now and then xx

@Pibee I totally get you! its so frustrating. I swear 90% of the month they want to DTD every day and when we actually need them too they have other things going on grrr

@Flatwhite how are you feeling??

As for me well I am now on CD25, CM went from creamy to dry to watery, actually feels like i peed myself sometimes
Boobs are really sore, not as puffy but heavy and my nipple look bigger to me. Also since yesterday my saliva tastes metallic, i actually checked if my gums were bleeding! This started within half hour of my CM changing. I am once again bloated but now its worst. Like I can't sleep on my belly, I actually woke up the other night as i was sleeping on my belly and it started hurting me. Past 2 nights have been horrible, i only manage a few hours of interrupted sleep, and some of my sleep is filled with horrible dreams, i also wake up really hot (not sweaty) which is weird for me as I am constantly cold . I stopped taking my prenatals last week as I thought maybe they were causing the bloating and it did go down for a day or so before coming back. So bloated to the point I came to work with my trousers undone (Thank Goodness for baggy shirts). Sorry for the essay guys, I just feel so out of sorts and tired and to top it off i feel like i have cold coming on.

Hi pibbee I'm ok.. on CD 23 atm and trying not to test until Monday (CD29) although I'll probably cave and test at the weekend!
Trying to keep my rational head on this cycle as last cycle i was symptom spotting constantly and that definitely made it worse when AF showed up. I'm currently trying to ignore achey boobs as they can also be a sign of AF!

That's so frustrating that you know you're at your most fertile and your DH just wants to sleep... My OH was the same last cycle and i just wanted to scream at him!! Can you try and jump on him when you get home from work??

Jellybean they all sound like promising signs! When are you testing? Fx for a bfp for you!

Anyone else testing soon??

Hi girlies, sooo I started bleeding about an hour after my last post on here last night, along with pretty bad cramps. I phoned nhs direct who suggested I went to hospital (coz of the pain, they thought it may have been ectopic but I didn't and don't think that, it was ordinary period pains not agonising) so off I went. By 2:30am I was out of there having had my tummy pressed and an apt in the EPU for this morning at 10. Bleeding stopped overnight, more like brown smudges now. Scan showed exactly what it did 5 days ago, sac but no contents, not even a yolk, just the outer sac. They said again I could be as much as 2 weeks out on dates but I can't be coz I've tracked. All I can think is if I ovulated later than I thought and caught the ONE time we dtd a week after fw ended... but it's highly unlikely. They've taken bloods now though and I'm going back Thursday morning for bloods #2. So basically, if the hcg has increased correctly between now and thurs then I'm still pregnant and I MUST be wrong on dates. But if the levels have dropped, then obv my pregnancy has ended and my body is taking a while to get the message. Sac measured 5mm bigger than 5 days ago but that would happen if it "thinks" there's an embryo in there, which there definitely wasn't. So either way, Thursday is B-day. Baby yes or baby no. Weirdly they were very unconcerned about the bleeding and said it's quite normal at this stage. Especially as with my clockwork cycle, if I hadn't caught last month, I would be due my normal period tomorrow.
So sorry for the long and depressing post. My hopes are hanging on 48hrs but my mind is being cruelly logical.
On the plus side, the suspected endometrioma (cyst) the sonographer saw on my left ovary (which was 4.5cm!) seems to have disappeared in 5 days. Both clear and good looking ovaries she said today. Small mercies hey.

jellybean I would defo want to test soon!! But saying that, given my experience, I wish I had tested when Af was 2 weeks late rather than 2 days late. I've only known I've been pg for 24 days and it feels like 24 months with all this shit going on lol so I'm now a firm believer in the later you test the better! It doesn't change the outcome but I'd have had less days of stress already 🙈

pibbee I totally get that. Hubs was barely in the mood through my fw last month but was like a horny teenager the other weeks. So annoying.

Wishing you're all well chicks. Just sat here chilling wondering WT actual F is going on in my body. It's a rough few days not gonna lie.

Xxx thanks for all your wishes you lovely lot 🌺

@MistyBxx i have everything crossed for you and I'm praying you got your dates wrong. I can't even imagine the stress you must be feeling. Do you feel any better today or do you still have cramps?

I don't want to test...I'm scared. I know it sounds silly with everything else you guy have going on but I just don't want to see that BFN. I know a LOT of people get pregnant same month they come off the iud but I also read too many stories where side effects mimicked pregnancy symptoms. I keep telling myself "your period is on the way, next time you go toilet you'll see it" but nevertheless I can't help but hope that it won't come. Before I got my iud in we were trying for almost 10months, it really knocked my confidence.

MistyBxx i really hope it is just the dates being out!! I'm really sorry to hear you're having such a tough time! It must be exhausting trying to figure out what your body is doing!

And I've got a bit of creamy cm today.. not sure that I've noticed in at this point of my cycle before.. any clues? (And yes i am aware i said i wouldn't symptom spot... Failed already)! 🙈

Aw jellybean let us know what you decide to do. Symptom spotting is a total bummer, it takes over your life! Sometimes I think testing helps so that you can tell things for sure but then I also agree with misty about waiting to test after testing two days after af due date as well. Maybe if I tested later I would have just thought my period was late and not even know I was pregnant. Ttc is so hard eh! All these confusions etc no one tells you about!

Misty I've really got my fingers crossed for you for Thursday, it's such a worrying time. But just know that whatever happens you are strong enough to deal with it and you will get through it. Such a shame that things happen to so many people but I suppose talking about it really does help and shares your worries! Praying it's good news for you xx

Hello lovely ladies! @MistyBxx - oh you poor thing having to go to hospital. Really hope it's good news for you, but if not, I think the strength you're showing is amazing.

@JellyBean89 your symptoms sound promising! I'm also coming down with a cold only 5 days after a UTI which required antibiotics! Crap immune system! That can definitely be explained by my job though - stressed full time primary teacher! I'm
also bloated (but first proper AF might arrive next week if my first pill period isn't spectacularly late) and am having vivid dreams, but I always get crazy dreams when work is busy, so again, that can be explained. No change in boobs apart from slightly sore nipples, and no nausea at all. Body temp higher, but that's probably because I have been ill and am still feeling rough! Going to test next week, but 99.9% sure it'll be BFN! We have just started TTC though, so can't complain if it is! Keeping everything comprised that you'll get your BFP Jellybean!

@Charl19, how are you feeling today? Xx

That should say everything crossed, not everything comprised!

Thanks girlies. I really appreciate your support and charl although it's awful what you've been through, your kind words mean so much to me chick. I know I will get through it all either way and I'm trying to detach myself a bit so that if/when the worst happens, I'm more prepared. So hard though!
jelly don't worry about what others are going through, we know exactly how stressy ttc is and you feel like you're going mad so don't compare, there's no less or more important in our own lives and minds chick, it's totally normal and I absolutely get that a bfn is worse than af showing up lol.
flatwhite hope you feel better soon, so awful feeling down and ill, and worse when you're ttc. Are you taking any vitamins? Pre-Natals or anything? Might be the boost you need for your immune system etc xx

Flatwhite I hope you feel better soon!

Marie and Jelly (in fact all of us ha!) I totally agree symptom spotting is a real pain! Gonna try and avoid it. Maybe i need an exciting new hobby to distract me

Misty you are being so strong! We are all thinking of you

Was going to post something else but can't remember what now

Ladies I've been off for a while for various reasons including a friend going through a bad patch. I've just sobbed reading the posts I missed. Charl & Misty you are both so incredibly strong & I'm so sorry to hear what you're both going through.

I have been so pre-occupied I've not been aware of my cycle but AF due 1st April, Ovia says 5 days til I can test. We didn't dtd a lot for similar reasons to others & DH wants a medal for managing twice. Well done stud!!

I've not had OPK these last two cycles but I think I need some of nothing this months as I'm convinced my cycle has lengthened. Is that possible?

I had ewcm a lot during Ovia fw dates & early on I used to only get it 1 day, and not much at that. They said fertility would go straight back after implant removal but I'm not convinced.

A little symptom spotting here as had thicker cm this week & sooo tired. But it is tax year end and I am crazy busy at work so likely just all that affecting me.

How is everyone else going?

Hi @Twisted sorry but your "well done stud" comment cracked me up! I am very much in the same boat in that I know how you feel! Sorry to hear your friend is having a bad time. Hope he/she is OK...

Thanks Pibbee - my friend has severe depression including suicidal thoughts. She doesn't live near me but I've been talking to her daily. I'm just so worried but it's draining. I don't mean that callously as I want to help her through this but I also have previous MH issues (although not as bad). I think she's getting somewhere so fingers crossed she's crawling out of it & getting the help she needs & new meds.

Awww @Twistedsister it sounds like you are being a great friend. Sounds like she is getting better, will no doubt take a while though

Well me and DP have still failed to DTD at all this week, I ended up having a bit of a go at him this morning cos I'm just so wound up by the whole thing. I know I'm being totally irrational and it's just one month, but still! Feel like I'm acting like a bit of a nob as me humphing around isn't exactly helping. Oh well. Have decided (with him) to not tell him when the main baby making days are as doing so seems to be causing issues for the last 2 months. Am only on cycle 3 and 2 of them have gone a bit wrong due to this, and the first one we buggered the dates up, so actually I pretty much feel like the last 3 months have been wasted now

Flatwhite im ok now thanks.. takes a while to adjust to but aside from that it almost feels like going back to normal as weird as that sounds.

Hope you're ok phibee.. I know it's only a month but when you are counting day by day it feels like the months go on forever!! I do feel for you xx

How you doing today misty?

How is everyone else xx

Not long for you twisted the 2ww is the longest time ever, fx for good news for you this time xx

Not great charl if I'm honest. In quite a lot of pain today, very low down dull, long period cramps which come and go but have been all day since about 1pm. Even taken paracetamol so must be bad. Don't want to go to hospital or docs again coz I'm going there for bloods 8:30 tomoz anyway and will mention it then. Spotting again but light and brown not red or clots (sorry tmi) just feel very uncomfortable and miserable really. Sorry I'm not a ray of sunshine girlies, just feeling very down and can actually relate to what you said about being back to normal charl. I know it sounds weird but either way this turns out tomoz (and I think we're past the point of hope now) I honestly just want the pain to just stop and forget about it. I've got a 5 hour car journey on Friday to a relatives funeral and I can't imagine feeling like this in the car. I've offered to drive coz I'd rather have the road to focus on than sat in the back feeling like this xx

Thanks charl I do actually feel better about the whole thing now after feeling totally DOOM about it today (burst into tears not only at work but also at the gym ffs - must have looked like a right nutcase on the exercise bike ha ) and I looked back at my dates for Feb and actually we did make a not bad go of it that month so it's not all doom. Plus Jan was the first cycle and let's face it who doesn't make a hash of it in cycle 1! So yeah, onwards and upwards!

How's everyone else doing today ? Xx

Awww our posts crossed misty . So sorry to hear about what you are going through. Please do not apologise for venting on here! It's so understandable you feeling like this, anyone would! And venting is what we are here for