I can't face it. Last year at the age of 42 and over 7 years TTC we decided enough is enough. We came to terms and moved on.
Today I'm 43 and I am 8 days late. I've had some slight browny coloured discharge 3-4 days ago, but nothing like the awful heavy periods I usually have. I've always been regular, never more than 1-2 days late. I've had cramps on and off for over a week. My boobs feel like I'm due on still.
I'm scared. Of hoping, of the disappointment, bringing this all up again.
I just needed to write this down, as I'm convincing myself of all sorts. Could it be? Is it the menopause? Why is my body doing this to me?