Thank you everyone. I'm back from the hospital and it all went really smoothly. I'm taking things easy for a bit, expecting a hormone crash in the next two days. I haven't let myself grieve much yet but in planning on having a good cry over the next few days.
It's funny but I thought of this one as my angel baby weeks ago so maybe deep down somewhere I knew it wasn't too be. I have a Pandora necklace and I'm planning to by a charm for the baby then I can keep her with me (in my head she was a girl). Maybe something with wings on it.
I'm going to go for it this month (as soon as the bleeding has stopped) and not wait for a natural period. Dh had been told! Previously all talk of fertile weeks was banned for me, well we did it his way for 6 months, now it's my way, targeted dtd, legs in the air and vitamins coming out of his ears! (Well OK, just some vitamin c and zinc but you know what I mean.)
So CD 1 here I go. Good luck everyone else.