Thread 18 TTC#1 We have cats, courgettes AND cake

[AliceScarlett]

Hugh enjoys ISW and his love affair with Doreen. He watches out for skittle tits and weepyitis. Mrs Arseholey Fucknut (Af) shows up when you least want her but brings wine and soft cheese as a consolation prize.

We don't have rules as such but expect to be talked down from the ledge with kind and well meaning but firm words if you get too hysterical. But most importantly don't convince yourself you're pregnant in the tww That is paramount! It messes with your head and makes you crazy crazier

We don't get a lot of baby dust in these here parts. We want a fanny full of determined Doreen, not unicorn farts and gnome tears with extra sparkle. We've been going a while now so the novelty has somewhat worn off and we're slightly battle scarred and bruised in the cervix area.

Post your stats and add your dates. A more lovely, supportive group of ladies you couldn't wish to meet. We've got a few grads sticking around I won't leave and no question is too daft. We have opk experts, cervical mucus management teams and symptom spotters extraudinaire!

Yup I'm seeing GP next week, DH is booking for a SA soon also.

Sorry Alice. It's really crap isn't it

Sorry to hear that Alice be kind to yourself.

sorry alice

LSFX to moose, Alexia and Binky....

moose 23/09/2016
Alexia 23/09/2016
binky 24/09/2016
Nicky 28/09/2016
Musicgrrl 30/09/2016
sl1ver 01/10/2016
sk1pper 05/10/2016
wingit 07/10/2016
kav 09/10/2016
inspector 09/10/2016
Mummyh2016 09/10/2016
fxskip 10/10/2016
bluebird 11/10/2016
LondonJem 13/10/2016
daisy 14/10/2016
kwick ?
jellyella ?
Alice ?
MrsLoz ?
peaches ?
catinthecorner ?
miw ?
pug ?
Hep ?
Fishy grad 09/09/2016
ArtOfKnit grad 13/09/2016

19th Oct - Cycle 12. Urgh.

Hello Hep - please can you put me down for the 2nd pls? That'll be cycle 18 I think

I listened to the Radio 4 programme. Very sad but also very interesting.

Hello ladies. Managed to injure my wrist doing DIY all weekend so no typing or dtd for me until last night

Anyway..... kwick alice soo sorry the bitch has arrived!

hep glad your still being upbeat and positive. I'll take a ticket from you for 17th Oct.

It's OH bday next month had visions of saying yeh happy bday I'm finally upduffed, so probably won't happen need to chant some of these PMA with you all!

Don't know whether to mention the supplements to OH. he's pretty on board with anything that can help. He has decided to stop drinking until his bday to try help give us a boost too. I'm glad he's like this helps me feel it's not just me trying hard

Lost of doc appointments it's good to share and get the best info/help. Soo much more constructive . I had a scan of my uterus a couple months back after my mc. Apart from a couple of very small fibriods which I already knew about the everything seems fine. Went over the report with my GP and she said to summarise there's nothing wrong with you. So just trying to dtd as often as we can and waiting on something happening.

Just been asked this morning when I'm planning on having a baby, hmmm....

Sorry alice it's shite, take care

Your oh sounds very considerate peaches it definitely helps to feel you're a team and not alone

peaches my OH has agreed to cut down drinking for ~10 days each month around my FW. When we started ttc, we were very much "no stress- lets see what happens, what will be will be blah blah blah....". This mc has made us both real how much we want it.

It is so much easier being on the same page as OH ! I didn't know how mine would cope (or me even!) with bfns, bfps, mmc, erpc etc, but he was just what I needed him to be. he would be a fantastic father.

(he also wants to arrange work so he can look after GrumpyOldCat for my next work trip ! poor GrumpyOldCat, he is slowing down, and sometimes looks unsteady with his arthritis, but apart from odd days, he is enjoying food, ear scratches and cuddles. )

Still no positive opk or ewcm in cd16 now :-(

Is it possible Epo or AC has delayed ovulation? Might stop the epo and just take AC for rest of the month. Last night was first night DH wasn't able to perform on demand so perhaps a good thing. Temps don't suggest I've missed ov as all been quite low in general since hitting FW.

peaches I too had aspirations of surprising DH/mum/sis etc with a surprise birthday bpf but so many of those have come and gone now.

Sorry Alice AF sucks....

I kept dreaming all last night that AF had arrived. Had the usual restless legs, but she's still not here! Not totally due till Sat on day 27 but last month was a 24 day cycle so it's anytime now really... Think the legs were just from being on my feet all day!

I just had a thoughtful moment for us, we all started off on this thread with such high hopes (I was so sure I'd get pregnant first cycle! - I mean what an idiot!!!) and now we're discussing tests and infertility options. Really feel for you girls who have really been through it too.
But I'm loving that other than a few wobbles, the PMA lives on. I do believe that we will all end up with our little ones, one way or the other and all these struggles will be forgotten....

Moose this thought has occurred to me a few times too. Back in the heady days of January when I first started trying - I was shocked it didn't happen first time! Massive idiot. I'm actually so glad to have more knowledge of it now though and such an appreciation of what a miracle it is to conceive. Also said to DH the other day that it will be all the sweeter when it does finally happen.

Really don't know what I'd do without this place

winging I ovulated on day 18 a few cycles ago - unheard of for me. I think it was stress and being a bit under the weather. Hang in there I'm sure it will come.

Peaches that's sweet of your DH. Mine takes tablets and thing, we aren't really drinkers but he does smoke which really annoys me.

Jem sorry about your DH's SA, hopefully a follow up in 3 months will prove this to be nothing much to worry about (hopefully you're upduffed before then anyway!)

Sorry Alice and everyone else who got AF

I took some time out because I've been feeling really, really down. My chart appeared to show ovulation and either my shitty BBT thermometer has broken since or I haven't actually ovulated. I'm on cd33 (last cycle was 26 days) and I just give up with my fucked messed up body. I just want AF to arrive asap so I at least know I ovulated on cd23. I wish I was one of those perfect people who ovulate like clockwork each cycle and have perfect little 28 day cycles. I know I shouldn't expect much after my mc but this whole year has been a shit show and a roller coaster I just want to get off. I'm fed up of trying, I'm fed up of being forced to have sex, I'm just fed up of this taking over my life. I hate TTC! DH and I are shit at making babies we should probably just accept this now. Sorry for the me, me, me post but I needed somewhere to vent my frustration. TTC is hard enough as it is without having messed up cycles. It's honestly draining and the biggest waste of time ever

Yeh london he's not a bad one at all he's even crushing walnuts in to his cereal each morning lol it definitely does help not feel soo alone.

hep your right. Although it's devastating to go through it does make you realise what your both made off. Since my mc I think he has seen how much I want this and he has realised the same. We are both the kind off people who generally are good at getting what we want. By that I mean if we want something new car, holiday, change job etc.... then we will figure out what needs done and do it. Guess that's why this is soo difficult because you can do loads to help but at the end of the day it's not really something we completely control

I totally get where your coming from alexia this was me last af. I made the mistake of reading up on mc and there was lots stuff saying how fertile you are after mc. Like it was a case of wait till the bleeding stops and your bfp will appear a couple of weeks later. Not the case for me either, like you my cycles are shot to pieces!!

I really feel like I have put a lot of stress on myself since the mc and it's taken its toll on me in ways I'm only now just realising.

wing moose we will get there, ours is just a different journey from what we expected

Oh god Alexia it's so fucking awful isn't it.

I get all the hating HAVING to have sex, the weight of expectations every month, the lack of sex because you actually feel horny or for fun. I'm barely speaking to my husband today because we didn't have sex last night* (despite having it the night before) because we'd agreed to have sex three days in a row as soon as I hit peak fertility and now I know I'm going to blame him when this month's inevitable bfn rolls around when of course it's not his fault.

I hate TTC as well, I hate the hope and the massive AF downers. I hate both my sisters who conceived all their children on the first month of trying. I hate my best friend who has just had twins and got knocked up as soon as she stopped the pill.

I'm fed up of people assuming I'm careerist and making the "not motherly person" type comments. I'm fed up of this taking over my life. Not wanting to make plans incase I'm pregnant at that point and then having nothing to look forward to because NO PLANS.

*we did have sex he couldn't finish

Hey ladies

I've been awol for a while so just been catching up.

Hugs silver , I'm the same when it comes to plans, been invited on 2 abroad hen weekends next year and turned one down already as i would hope to be pregnant then. The second one I would only be able to go if I fell pregnant within the next 2 cycles. What is worse is I don't want to tell people we are TTC so have to make up excuses not to go and then feel guilty for lying!

Hep can you put me down to test on 11th please x

I've been Lurking for months as my fella and I have been waiting to have a blow out holiday before TTC. Today is the last day of said holiday (I'm sat in a Hipster cafe in NYC surrounded by skinny bohemians writing their latest edgy screenplay on their macs) and looks like the last day of my period so we're good to go when we get home.
I think I've picked up most of the abbreviations from creeping on you all for the past few months (thank you for sharing your funny, gross and sometimes heartbreaking stories) but bare with me if not.
So heres my stats / some of them

Me: 30 in November
Him: 36
TTC: #1
Cycle #1

I have all kinds of fears and and am pretty neurotic when it comes to matters of pregnancy but theres plenty of time to let the crazy seep out over the coming months.

Pleased to meet y'all x

Jem I have before as well but usually accompanied by lots of ewcm from about cd13/14 and positive opks on cd15 but generally no later. Even when I've ov'd that late I still have the same length cycle hence luteal of about 9 days.

Si1ver hugs to you too, it's quite cathartic getting it written down, hence why I've come back onto MN more regularly. I had a break for a couple of cycles but found it more upsetting. Being here and seeing others in the same boat is making me able to accept it more -misery loves company after all!

I'm a big believer in things happen for a reason, and whilst right now my plans have completely gone out the window (really didn't want to be in the later stages of pregnancy over the summer months) what will be will be and going to try and spend the next few months planning things I wouldn't have been able to do had I been upduffed back in May as planned!
That's the plan anyway - watch me be a tearful mess in approx. 2 weeks time!

I somehow missed your post earlier Moose. I was another one who thought it would happen first time. That was way back in February 2015 now. LSFX it's not AF on the way for you. My apologies for totally bringing the PMA mood down.

Peaches I completely get how you feel too, especially the bit about it taking a toll on you and just realising it now. I have been ignoring a new rash I have on my left palm and I know it's to do with stress/mc. DH is making me book a GP appointment to get it checked out, and also to discuss depression and anxiety. I've been avoiding leaving the house lately which is very unhealthy but I just don't want to see the world and I don't want the world to see me.

Si1ver I'm glad you get it too, but also hate that you have to go through this too. I hate my mum for the exact same reasons you mentioned and my 'best' friend who keeps saying "it'll happen". Yeah because you came off the pill and were pregnant 2 WEEKS later! Even the Dr couldn't believe it happened that quickly. Totally get the plans thing too. Hope you and H get back on track tonight, one night won't hurt but I understand how it feels when your dtd plans fail. LSFX.

Welcome flapper :)

MrsLoz i'm a big believer in not putting your life on hold whilst ttc. We don't know when things could happen. i'm just looking forward to being allowed to dtd again !

welcome flapper ! rants and TMI are all welcome here!

my brief experience into pregnancy - there is absolutely no dignity in it !! we may as well get used to it

all dates are updated on my spreadsheet. flapper do you have a estimated-date-of-next-AF?

Alice - sorry AF got you :(

Alexia - and sorry you're feeling down. Every woman on this thread is an inspiration though, and I don't want anyone to be defeated by it.

I recon we'll have a BFP this month, I can feel it in my waters. Is that a thing?

Alexiab if its any consolation i have clockwork cycles and positive opk every month on the same day for 9 cycles now still no bfp !
Welcome flapper !!
Hope your journey is short :)