Positive opk after miscarriage- 2

[jinglebellmel]

Can't believe we've filled that thread, hope you all find this one!

Ali - so uncomfortable isn't it?! But I like that I can feel it happening, gives me a bit of warning at least. Yeah, I'm expecting I'll ov Thursday/Friday now which would work out much better than Saturday so fingers crossed.

I use my Doppler each morning it keeps me calmer for the day!

I'm not really allowing myself to think ahead past each day. Tomorrow will be 18dpo & the point at which I lost the last pg. I'm too scared to test again as a -ive will totally ruin this holiday for me & my DH.

Are you still using opk's Ali? Or are you thinking to take a more laid back approach & just dtd around the time of when you think ov will be? I'm starting to think that a "less is more" approach is just as effective as SMEP/dtd every day during fw.

No, I think you're best not to test on holiday bear. Logically if that spotting had meant anything then Af would be in full flow by now. It's not there's no reason to think it's not all fine. I am testing every day and the fear before hand and analysing the darkness of the line each time is not fun. If you can help yourself then I wouldn't get into doing it!

Hope it's a good month for you Ali. How are you finding not charting? Has it made you more relaxed?

I brought 2 tests on holiday with me, along with sanitary towels & tampons... I did the first test on Monday and foolishly didn't use FMU so I agonised over whether the line was darker or not. I can't bring myself to use the second one. We're getting a babysitter tomorrow night & going out for a nice meal. I just want to remain in my little bubble of not knowing, until we go home.

I can totally understand that. It won't make any difference to know other than to potentially spoil your holiday (I'm sure all is fine though) so best wait till you are home if you can x

I'm not using opk either. Just dtd every other day and perhaps an extra one tonight.

Doctor's orders. And also me forgetting to temp quite a few times!

Good luck both of you (and everyone else who is nearing scan time)!

Grr, I know the NHS is great and all that but I'd rather pay than have to put up with my gps any longer! GP was supposed to call me about bloods I had on Monday today, she didn't. I chased them up and one lot wasn't done as shouldn't have been ordered so soon after already having been done, the other is abnormal but GP now not in until tomorrow so will call me some time tomorrow. She seems to have no appreciation of the fact that every day this isn't dealt with increases my risk of a miscarriage. I realise me having another miscarriage is no skin off her nose but I feel so angry!

Sorry for the rant! That sounds nice and relaxed Ali, hopefully it does the trick!

GP Receptionists are another species Mel. How stressful. Fingers crossed it's nothing to worry about.

I don't blame you for being angry Mel, I know we need to respect their profession but she needs to get her finger out!!

If it were me I'd be on the phone first thing tomorrow making a nuisance of myself, unfortunately it's the squeaky wheel that gets the grease...

If I don't get anywhere tomorrow I think I'm going to make a complaint and try to book an appointment with a private consultant. Constantly hounding them and getting nowhere is just causing so much additional stress that I don't need.

Well, the bubble's burst.

I'm 18dpo, the day I lost the last pg. I just did my final hpt & it's a (nearly) bfn. I'd rather know & be prepared than start bleeding, but I'm still in shock. There has to be something wrong with me & I can't continue ttc until I know. To be honest I'm reaching the point where I may accept my lot & stop ttc.

Bear, try not to worry just yet. Wait and see what happens in the next few days.

Has the GP run any tests yet? Did you say you take something for your thyroid?

Sorry you're feeling so bad this morning.

It's definitely over Ali. The hpt has the faintest of lines with FMU; at this many dpo the only explanation is dropping hcg & a CP. I expect I will get AF either tomorrow or at the weekend.

My thyroid function test results came back ok; tsh probably marginally higher than I would like at 2.34, but that's still fine I think.

I'm going to make an appointment with my GP when I get back & ask to be tested for everything under the sun; it's possible that since having my DS I have developed a blood clotting problem or something like that.

I'll be drowning my sorrows tonight!

Bear I'm so sorry :( I know how you are feeling and there are no words. If this is a cp its so incredibly unfair. Is it the same brand of test, same time of day (not sure if there's a time difference where you are?)
I agree, if this is a cp then demand every test going. They should also refer you to a reccurant miscarriage clinic. I'm not sure where in the country you are but if there are no good ones near you then look up tommys miscarriage. There a 3 of the best clinics you can be referee to no matter where you live and they offer some testing not available normally on nhs. You probaby don't want to think about that now though. Take care and let us know how you are xx

Thanks Mel. It's the same brand of test -Superdrug Early - so there's no way it should be this faint at 18dpo if this pg were going anywhere. I am resigned to it already, I think it's better than holding out hope. I mostly feel foolish for thinking that everything might be ok this time. I am pretty convinced now that it's unlikely to just be bad luck & there probably is an issue that needs sorting out.

Did you get hold of your GP?

Yes she's made the referal and I need another blood test in 2 weeks, she won't up the dose of medication though and it's ridiculously low. Also read it takes up to 6 weeks to start working so I'm worried it's going to be too little too late for this pg. Looking into getting a private consultation but think it maybe too late for that too really.

I'm so sorry you're going through this again. It's possible to be bad luck still, but if it were me I'd be feeling the same and looking for a cause. Your gp can run all the basic tests and there's a good chance they may give you some answers. How is your dh?

And you arent fooilsh, no matter how cautious we try to be of course we are hoping somewhere that things will work out x

Bear I'm so sorry.. can't believe you're having to relive it all again after last month, life is really f'in cruel sometimes! I hope you have a big fat glass of wine tonight to drown those sorrows, I know I would! I hope the GP gets to the bottom of it quickly for you.. you are definitely entitled for referral for recurrent mc at this point. Hopefully there's an explanation at the end of it and it's as simple as taking perhaps extra progesterone / baby aspirin. I'm sorry that you're going through this and I hope it hasn't fully ruined your holiday.

Mel I hope you're holding up alright? I can imagine anxiety level is high with the gps not fully taking on board your situation. Keeping my fingers crossed for your rainbow, miracles do happen!

Ali, how are you feeling? Do you feel less stressed by the laid back approach? I bet not analysing FF for a change is a nice break? Hope you're ok.

Thanks for the support ladies. I've started bleeding so it's definitely mc#3.

I'm not sure that I should risk ttc until I've tried to find out what the hell is going on (at this point I refuse to believe it's just 'bad luck'). I think I'm going to join the recurrent mc thread but will keep checking in on you all here.

Mel I hope you're doing ok & get somewhere with your GP asap. Ali, FC for this month.

Sorry Bear

So sorry bear :( I hope you get some answers very soon. This is the tommys mc thing I was talking about incase you're interested, it tells you how to get a referal and the tests they offer. Will be thinking of you x

www.tommys.org/our-organisation/what-we-do/our-research/miscarriage-research/early-miscarriage-research-centre

So sorry bear xx

Think my bubble may be bursting too :( Friday's test was no darker than Wednesday's, and today's is a fraction lighter. Feeling pretty numb and empty right now.