Hi all - it has been a long time for me too! So glad to hear about people feeling newhope after discovering Dr S, about growing newborns/toddlers, progressing pregnancies and planning #2s!
Life has been manic here, even without the pregnancy playing a part. My 4yo DD has had lung and breathing issues resulting in 3 hospital stays for her and me in 7 weeks , and the possibility at one point that she could need major lung surgery - which seems less likely now but we're not out of the water yet. All of that took me from 26 to 33 weeks pg without even giving it a moment's thought. And suddenly, today is my last day of work and I start mat. leave tomorrow. How did that happen? 36 weeks yesterday and still can't really believe it is even happening.
I'm sad that, even at this stage, the doubt has never quite gone away to leave space for the excitement that I wish I could be feeling. Me and DH are reluctant to talk about the pregnancy or birth, it's like we don't quite want to commit to it in case it still all goes wrong. And for a good few weeks, the baby was doing these crazy fast jerky movements and I was utterly convinced every time that it was having some kind of seizure and dying. And I expected that feeling movements would reassure me! It's awful what rmcs do to you emotionally and how they strip you of the joy and hope and just leave constant anxiety and doubt. After all we go through to get to this point, we deserve to be able to feel positive rather that the bittersweet experience we end up having. Or maybe that's just me!!!
Anyway - off to supermarket to buy baby treats for the staff room for my last day - jelly babies, mini babybels, mini gingerbread men etc, I had fun thinking of ideas!
Best wishes to all.