Hello ladies,
It's been such a long time since I posted so apologies for the silence. I've been busy with work and weekends away. Hen in Gothenburg was great thanks - a bit cold and wet but boozy and fun, which is a positive of infertility I guess 
Stealth - congratulations!! This is super exciting and I'm delighted there's yet more positive news on our lovely thread. All seems to be going well.
Brenna - sorry I never congratulated you on your bfp and now have to give congrats qualified with a big cross of the fingers that the bleeding I s nothing to worry about. I truly hope there is a happy healthy baby in 9 months for you. I know it's no comfort but it does sound like you're in a good place for tests etc and great you have a proactive GP.
Banana, so glad you have a plan and I must say that sounds cast iron. Do you want to go ahead with the hycosy/scratch or would your u rather wait til nearer the transfer even if that does mean the levels haven't dropped to zero? (Hmm, have I got that the right way round?) I'm so sorry you're still bloody preggers, it is beyond cruel.
Mpp, you must be super excited! The very excellent thing about not being pregnant yet is that you can drink on your hen and at your wedding. Enjoy your hen and the final bits of wedding panning.
Trixie, oh my you are sooooo close! Hope you're feeling super excited. And happy birthday! I started trying shortly after I turned 34. I will turn 36 in 4 months - surely I'm supposed to have a baby now?
Boris, hi! Hope all is still going well. How far along are you now?
Sammy, hi! How are your u down no? Did you decide on immune testing?
Lucie - thinking of you. Hoping you get a negative test soon in time for a fet before your hols.
Maple, Rebecca - hi and welcome to the thread! I think you've been here a while but I haven't given your u a welcome. Good luck with the hycosy maple - I really want one but haven't been offered one as we have male factor, but I still want to know whether there's any point having hope whilst we try naturally. Rebecca, not long till you start now. I will be doing my first ivf cycle in July I think. Losing the will to live in the meantime if I'm honest.
Waves to everyone else.
As for me, this whole thing is really getting me down, after a few months of calm this year. My best friend texted me last night to tell me she's pregnant with number two. I'd asked her (when our other friend announced on our way to the tube) to tell me by text/email and I'm really grateful she listened to that. Both of those are big drinking, super skinny 36 year olds and are instantly up the duff. I feel so so unlucky, but somehow didn't cry this time - I think it's easier if you can just process your emotions and not have to pretend to be delighted and suppress all the sadness you're feeling.
My next consultant appointment is next Friday. Period due on Wednesday and I'm going to be distraught by the time the appointment comes. I've turned back into a ttc obsessive these last few weeks and read everything online and all the forums about male factor infertility. People have it so much worse (e.g. Can you imagine a SA coming back as NO SPERM?) that I think we aren't so bad, surely we must be preggers by now. And the I think there must be something wrong with me.
I read on another thread that having asthma could indicate immune issues although I don't know whether that's nonsense (I've been asthmatic since childhood). So now I'm wondering about immunes testing and driving myself insane.
3 women at work are due to go on mat leave in September. My boss was like: there must be something in the water. Yeah, not mine! I can't look at them as their bumps grow as it makes me want to cry.
Oh wow, sorry for the brain dump ladies. Do you think perhaps I have finally lost it? I do feel a bit unhinged if I'm honest.