Ttc#1 Lucky no.13. The one where Doreen and Hugh ride the honeymoon gondola down the fallopian canal.

[StarkyTheDirewolf]

Hugh enjoys ISW and his love affair with Doreen. He watches out for skittle tits and weepyitis. Mrs Arseholey Fucknut (Af) shows up when you least want her but brings wine and soft cheese as a consolation prize.

We don't have rules as such but expect to be talked down from the ledge with kind and well meaning but firm words if you get too hysterical. But most importantly don't convince yourself you're pregnant in the tww That is paramount!

We don't get a lot of baby dust in these here parts. We want a fanny full of determined Doreen, not unicorn farts and gnome tears with extra sparkle. We've been going a while now so the novelty has somewhat worn off and we're slightly battle scarred and bruised in the cervix area.

Post your stats and add your dates. We have a register thanks to kats stats I am resident piss stick queen and if you don't test, you get a Starky's Star

When you post stats, add your predicted test/af date. We are currently running at about 49% pregnant with the grads thread over in ante-natal which we all hope to join soon.

Link to thread 12.
www.mumsnet.com/Talk/conception/2580240-Thread-12-TTC-1Trying-is-the-fun-part-said-by-nobody-ever-whos-actually-trying?pg=1&order=

That's exactly it ni :)

Ooh that's exciting hep! Fingers crossed xx

en.support.wordpress.com/following/ I found this, which teaches you how to follow on there I had to find it because I couldn't work it out myself

So on this page ---> starkydirewoolf.wordpress.com there should be a button

Next thing I'm learning is how to do a link just says words in blue!

I'm so excited about your blog, Starky!!! You are brilliant!

Oi vey! I'm definitely oving tonight... My cramping just started. It hurts! And now I have to get it on. Ouchieeee.

Great blog starky

Fingers crossed hep

So, I got my 21 day bloods back and all normal (although some of the readings look a little on the low side). I'm not sure if I'm relieved or not - is that weird.

Part of me was preparing myself for a problem and thinking, at least then we can 'fix' it.

Still nagging DH to book his SA with the hospital.

Best wishes for you kitty. My opk was back to negative this morning.I won't hold my breath, but I'll get a frer for tomorrow morning so I can have a stress-free large glass of wine.

Get on it Lyssie!

Hep that is most confusing, fx for the frer tomorrow.

Just realised I've been lurking for a few days and haven't posted anything. Starky I am LOVING your blog, you've such a brilliant way with words .

So despite telling myself I wouldn't I'm in the middle of a major bout of TWW-itis. Last time I was PG, I had really weird sleep cycles; waking up crackers early, falling asleep in my dinner etc, which in hindsight was probably more due to my hypothyroid than anything else!! Last night, passed out on the couch at 7.30, woke up at 12 and then asleep again from 2 until 7.30. Which of course must mean I'm pregnant with quads according to the symptom-spotter side of my brain. Rational side of brain says it's from driving for 6 hours + a 4 hour meeting the day before but sure who cares about being rational?!!

Have blood test today at 11.35 to check my thyroid levels again so hopefully (a) I won't be like a pin cushion (sh*t veins) and (b) I can slow my rampant imagination down!!

Happy Friday ladies

That is good news about your bloods Lucky. I know what you mean about wanting a reason though. Hope your OH pulls his finger out

Go go go lyssie

Hi celi the TWW gets to us all! Fx for you.

In The Case of The Never-Ending Wee Sticks, I think I actually had a positive yesterday DH had better be up for a lot more DTD. Give me strength.

Wow, these threads move fast!

Starky Your blog is great. If your job doesn't involve writing then it should! I am already looking forward to reading all about your pregnancy journey when it arrives :)

Hep Fingers crossed for your test. I am so confused about what OPKs indicate about pregnancy . And congrats on the job! It sounds like it could be a huge change - but is it a potential reassessment of relationship if OH wouldn't be going? That must be giving you a massive amount to think about right now. How are you feeling?

Skip I am very pleased about your little cat! I would be inconsolable if it were mine so I can only imagine how traumatic it was

Ever It's really good you had a talk with your man. I hope you managed to get down to it after your cross words to make the most of ISW.

I have no interesting news. AF due on Monday and now that my virus is finally clearing I have no symptoms. Am looking forward to enjoying some booze next week after feeling like crap these last couple of weeks

go jem go ! go jem go !

i think i might have had a 2:45 pee.... took the test at 5:45 (when grumpy-cat demanded breakfast by swatting in me the head). So perhaps that messed with the result . I didn't remember at the time.... am usually zombie like in morning.

anyway... i shall be zen like..... till poas-time tomorrow.

plus side of negative poas: WINE! CHEESE! no awkward hiding non-drinking from OH's family when we visit for easter....
might treat myself to getting my greys coloured for the first time too.... (i can no longer pretend they are just blonde

inspector at the moment i am not thinking too much about it. Have told them i am intrigued and possibly interested and will chat next week with the guy I would be replacing (about what its like to live/work there).

If i was single, i think it would be a no-brainer - even if i did it 1-2 years before moving back to the uk with to get a parallel job here...

they are not rushing me. They understand its not a decision you make quickly, plus its from jan next year.

Hep only thing you can do is POAS or keep waiting for AF to show up. I want to say POAS but at the same time I dont, you know?!

Elle IVF, or indeed any fertility assistance, is not something I want to do. I am firmly in the 'adopt, don't shop' camp for all things living. If it were solely up to me I would skip the TTC altogether but OH is not keen to adopt straight away. I know the experience of pregnancy would be amazing, and in the first month I got carried away with it, so I am certainly conflicted! I believe there are about 80,000 children in care in the UK, and maybe around 10% of those get adopted.

I don't want to come across as though I am judging anyone here going through or considering IVF. This is my opinion only, it is no more or less valid than anyone else's. Also, if you are on here seeking support and you are going through treatment I am not here secretly sneering or condemning, I am cheering on every single BFP and commiserating with each and every AF, BFN and Dickead Husband. I hope that comes across as it is intended, I'd be happy to field any other questions but like I said I am conflicted and there are mushy grey areas I haven't worked out yet

soz for essay answer!

I've def seen some bfps with negative opks on YouTube oh the shame hep so you're not out til you're out. Good luck for the frer!

Yes I am ridiculous poas so early. I just see other ladies getting their bfps at 9 or 10dpo and then I cave and want it to be me too! I don't even think I'm preggers this month anyway- no symptoms and feel like AF is just about to start.

Fx. I admire your position. I wish I could feel that way about adoption but the need to be pregnant is so strong. I'm sure if it comes to it you'll be a fab adoptive parent and any child will be lucky to have you.

inspector awww thank you! I'd love to turn writing into a job but I'm just a housewife at the moment! My old job was working in nightclubs and where we live now Dh wouldn't cope with it, it's too dangerous and unpredictable. And other than being a TA, I'm not really qualified for anything else. I did the club's for so long, I'm sort of at a loss! But I do a lot of craft and give it away and people give "donations" rather than paying for stuff I make.

skip definetly see where you're coming from. We've got three foster/adoptees in our family. They came to us as babies and they're nearly 18 now! As far as I'm concerned they're blood and we're lucky to have them! We'd adopt if we could one day, I've always had a dream of adopting a baby girl from China.

canters yep, it's the nightmare of seeing other women poas-ing at 9/10/11 dpo and getting the two lines, makes you think "we'll if they have, why wouldn't I!?" And then when you don't it sucks, but there's always hope!

this reminds me..... kwick how are you doing ?

Ha ha starky your chinese baby dream doesn't surprise me at all! Thanks for your kind responses, I was nervous about posting as I didn't want to spark off one of these huge MN rows you see (ahem, AIBU - I'm looking at you)

It was a feeling that I developed after 2 things happened - the first month we didn't conceive where I went a bit mental, and meeting a family where the 2 brothers had been adopted at a critical point - the eldest was just about to reach the unadobtable age and they would have been split up. I slowly started to make peace with the fact that we may not conceive, and that might just be a blessing for a child facing a potentially bleak future. Then, I suddenly felt a whole lot less pressure. Having said that, we are on cycle 3 and I am aware that my feelings may change!

It's nothing to feel bad about skip it's a fantastic way of looking at things. AIBU is a world of self richeous, judgemental, pursed lipped twaddle half the time. I find it to be quite "I've got an opinion and I hope it hurts your feelings" a lot of the time, especially with the responses if not the OP.

You're right, there are so many children who need the right, good home and it would change their lives forever. I know our 3 (siblings) had very different prospects if they hadn't been removed (basically at birth) and their lives would have been so opposite to what they have now and I fear, very bleak if they'd remained.

I nearly went I to social work, it was what I was training in for initially. But I know I'd have burned out within a few years. The workload and expectations are horrific, there's very little backup, especially for young/new social workers and they're often scapegoated. And the pay is shocking. The bad didn't outweigh the potential good, which is really sad.

That's interesting fx.

I always think I would like to adopt too but DH works in residential care and is strongly against it (for us) I think he has seen the consequences of it going wrong all too often.

My df was a residential care worker (but in a secure unit) feef I always thought I'd go down the same path but he strongly discouraged it. I always remember him saying "you're just too small, you're strong, but it's not worth taking the risk, I'd never stop worrying!"

That's part of the problem I think, I HATE using the word damaged to describe children because it's so unfair to them. They were failed by their primary carers at home, and then are often so traumatised by the time they get removed, they struggle forever with the knock on effect. Reducing their chances of finding a stable family home the older they get. And the stupid government initiatives which get put on social workers etc, it's ridiculous!

I what you mean starky as much as I would have loved to have gone into social work, veterinary care or anything that involves caring for vulnerable people or animals, but for me the psychological impact outweighs everything.

Another one hoping our kwick is getting on ok

I totally agree. I think adoption is a beautiful beautiful thing to do...but I've worked in schools and children's services and the poor kids can be so damaged that it can be more than foster carers/adoptive parents can handle. I don't think there's anything worse in the world than a child having to be returned to care because the new parents just couldn't deal with the behaviour the poor traumatised kid comes out with. It's so damaging to be "rejected"...but so many new parents don't have the support and training to deal with the difficulties. We would both be open to adopting, but I don't know if we'd be able for it.

CD7... About 11 days to ovulation. Why does this cycle feel like it's dragging on and on on!!!?!

starky I've thought about adopting from China too. DH has two beautiful Chinese cousins - the little one is also his goddaughter. They are such lovely girls, it's quite incredible to think how different their lives could have been.

So after telling my poor DH "today is the most important day!" Every sodding day this week we had possibly the worst shag of our lives this morning. He went into work mode - very serious and concerned by the time - I got emotional and said if we don't do it today it won't happen /drama and cried so we had a very unhappy shag. If this results in a child I'm going to feel bad for it.

Anyway at the airport now, glass of fizz in hand and will be in Cape Town tomorrow morning. Let's hope my little eggo is fertilising somewhere over Africa tonight.