sammy acupuncture’s gotta be worth a try! I see so, so many women on the ‘thin lining’ threads on FF who talk about it as a miracle worker - hopefully it is the same for you! And hoping ov gets a move on for you
mpp congrats on your upcoming wedding - I can totally appreciate the frustration with waiting, can you look upon the coming months of IVF prep? Given the sperm manufacturing (sounds like engineering!) and egg maturation process both take 3 months, could you look upon this time as pre-IVF getting your bodies in good shape proactive time (like with the Fertilaid), as opposed to just spinning your wheels? Big hugs 
Re: the case of my disappearing eggs - yep it is a weird one. At first my consultant (who was the head of reproductive medicine @ Barts in his NHS practice, and did this MD thesis & has published extensively on premature ovarian failure, so knows his stuff!) said ‘I’m stumped, and I’m not usually stumped’. It now appears new research into the fragile X gene (responsible for some cases of POF) suggests that there is a particular sub-genotype, where women who present as PCOS in their 20s, then transition into a state of diminished reserve in their early 30s (sound familiar?!). The clinic who’ve done this research call this ’burning out PCOS’, as the woman has essentially ‘burned through’ their supply of eggs in their PCO days, when they were busy madly recruiting follicles. It may or may not be that this is what’s happened to me - I’ve not got tested, as tbh it’s somewhat academic at this point: my reserves are significantly depleted, so it’s really about how we deal with it, rather than what caused it. Interestingly, this research suggests that women with this particular gene mutation tend to end up with very very low androgen levels (having got used to excess androgen levels in their ovaries in their PCOS days) - and will really benefit from pre-treatment with DHEA supplementation before starting stims. My testosterone levels were almost undetectable, and after several months of DHEA are now in normal range (although with sky high SHBG levels the actual usable testosterone levels are still pretty low - another marker of this gene apparently). My consultant was astonished by my response in my first IVF, and my follicle count has since doubled - so I have no idea of knowing if this is just my sleepy ovaries having been woken up by the stims last time, or if the DHEA has made a difference. But it seems I was a good candidate for taking it, and I’m hopeful it’s had some effect on egg quality, as well as perhaps my response to stimulation.
Bodies, eh?!
The ridiculously frustrating thing is that on paper, I did everything ‘right’. At 28 I had a fertility MOT which showed I had fantastic ovarian reserves, so no immediate cause for concern (apart from the PCOS). At that time, no one could have predicted I’d suddenly go crashing towards POF. The doctors in the US who’ve done the research on this gene, have introduced their own fertility MOT that as well as FSH/AMH/antral follicle count, includes testing for this particular gene - so even if you have fantastic ovarian reserve at that moment in time, if you are shown to have this particular gene, it’s very likely you may suffer from premature ovarian ageing in the future, and can make a more informed decision about your fertility (start TTC sooner, freeze your eggs etc.)
Where the fuck was this 5 years ago when I needed it?!!!!
I just hope it helps other women avoid going through what I went through.
lucie hoping the pains aren’t too uncomfortable and that it’s a sign of lots of juicy follies growing! When is your first tracking scan? What protocol are you on?
I’m now on an antagonist protocol (sledgehammer dose of Gonal-F, plus Cetrotide to be added in, prob on Tues after my first scan), same as last time. Although I wouldn’t call it ‘short’ protocol this time, as we had an abortive attempt at long protocol, with 7 weeks of down-regging (of sorts) before starting stims! Plan was to try long protocol to better manage my lining, as it’d give the Dr more control over everything, so I started on Buserelin in mid-Nov, with a view to starting stims on 1st Dec, and having the cycle done and dusted before Xmas. Best laid plans etc! Down reg scan showed I’d only gone and bloody ovulated whilst injecting buserelin, and couldn’t start stims until my ovaries were quiet. Unfortunately, we couldn’t just down reg me for another week, because that would have meant EC/ET Xmas week when the clinic would be closed, and Dr didn’t want to down reg me for another month. So I went on the pill to quiet the ovaries, and thankfully at my baseline on Monday he said he wasn’t going to put me back on buserelin to restart a long agonist protocol, and switched back to antagonist. First the problem was that I didn’t ovulate with PCOS. Then I ovulate but we worry that my sleepy ovaries wouldn’t respond to stimulation. Then apparently my ovaries won’t stop ovulating, and I don’t properly respond to suppression. You couldn’t make it up.
I am sorely tempted to ask him just to surgically remove my ovaries so I can whack them with great force with a five iron!!!
Sorry for epic post - therein lies the saga of IVF #2. Fucking hope there isn’t another incredible plot twist around the corner…
xx