That's interesting, thanks both. I will try Wendy at the breast feeding network.
Cerazette messed up my luteal phase last time. Gynecologist had it licked the second cycle she treated me, BFP resulting in lovely DD. It was very frustrating, as I'd had incredibly regular cycles and two months on cerazette caused such a problem.
I also wonder whether I'm spotting pre AF because of feeding, or as a hangover from the cerazette thing.
I wonder if progesterone could help, and I'm relaxed about what it might do to my milk supply, as long as it is ok for DD. Sometimes she tells me ' this one doesn't work' which I assume means there's no milk there at that feed. Lower supply is fine as far as I'm concerned.
Thanks for listening. It feels good to get it all out somewhere that people understand.
When we started our TTC no 2 journey and I felt really hopeful and optimistic. Now I feel differently: worried (about when it will happen, whether we have time) and conflicted (about whether to try and stop). The uncertainty of it gets to me.
DH is supportive but laid back, I wouldn't discuss this with my mum (she would get over involved, and would tell me to stop feeding, it's not that simple!).