TTC after MC (#7) - fx for better times ahead

[CarrotVan]

Support, shoulders to cry on, virtual gin and the best cheer leaders MN can offer you. We've been there and it's awful but we'll help each other through to better times.

thank you for sharing all your BFP details. I understand all the anxiety. I would be the same if I ever get there again.

cherry fingers crossed for you...hoping all is well and there is a healthy little heartbeat in there.

paws sorry things are so rubbish at the moment. Your DH should be in the dog house for his comment! I think men cannot understand what we must go through with all the knicker checking(anyone else do that???), constant analyzing of symptoms, peeing on expensive ovulation sticks and trying to figure whether the lines on the pregnancy test is in your imagination or not? Not making an excuse for DH but just saying that no matter how supportive husbands or anyone else in real life is, they can never understand unless they have been there and sampled the desperation for pregnancy.

So nice to talk here without people thinking I am bonkers (well some of you may think I am anyway)

so I am on my wtf cd 13...no CM yet no signs of any ovulation...waiting....waiting...waiting...

paws I recently bought the Neal's yard 'women's balance' aromatherapy blend...cannot recommend it enough. Smells so good and is meant to help with hormonal confusion/imbalance. Just a though...

Hi everyone, hope all is ok. Am away at parents with siblings at the moment and really struggling as hiding pregnancy from them. DD is playing up like mad and keeps throwing tantrums and I'm exhausted. Need some help and everywhere thinks I'm being a grumpy cos with pms. Hid in the bathroom and cried for a while today as feeling like a failure.
Still haven't been to gp. Partly because I'm away and partly because I'm convinced there's no point. My head is really messed up.

Fx cherry. Hope all goes well.

Paws I'm sorry to hear you're going through such a rough time. I totally agree that men do not understand. Glad you are begging a referral. Hopefully they can help you in some way.

Keeping fx for everyone waiting on bfps!

6+3 today fruit

Wow carrot that's brilliant that they saw a heartbeat so early.
cherry I hope everything went well at the docs. Fx for you.
Sorry to tell you this coco but the knicker checking doesn't stop when you get your bfp! My symptoms are very mild atm (increased thirst, needing to pee, boobs bigger but not sore) and it's driving me mad with worry. Trying to hold off until Friday to do a CB digital and see where the weeks are up to.

wow carrot heart beat before 6+3 is so good!

fruit hang on in there. May be keep yourself as busy as possible to make the time go quicker?? I've been cleaning all cupboards, furniture, everything possible in the evenings to keep my mind distracted and also to make me so tired that I can sleep! I know you must be extra tired anyway...may be a less strenuous project? Like putting an album together or something while you've got your feet up with a brew and biscuits

Reebok it must be so hard! I kept my bfp news from my parents. also didn't tell them about the mmc. It was so hard. Can you fake an earache or headache??

cherry what did the doctor say?

Thank you all so much for your posts,
I've invested in the 'womens balance' essential oil...
Sorry to hear others are struggling...
You're not going through it alone though girls, hugs to all x

So I saw the doc yesterday and was referred to the epu for a scan. Had my scan this morning which showed a sac and yolk sac but not fetal pole/heartbeat, it measured 5+4 which was a week behind what I thought. They said it may be too early to see a hb yet and booked me in again in 2 weeks to see if there was any growth.
However... This afternoon I got even more crampy, had a backache, then this evening had a sudden gush of red blood, filling a pad in 5 minutes! (Sorry if tmi) It slowed down to a light flow for a few hours, now just spotting red. So it looks like it is all over for me again.
Wishing you lovely ladies all the best in ttc your rainbow babies. I think I'm going to take a break in ttc for a while, maybe til the new year as I after 2 mc in 3 months, I don't think I can handle another one so soon.

So sorry cherry that's awful news. I hope your OH is looking after you and you've got lots of support. Life is v unfair sometimes. Take a break and look after yourself xxx

Cherry I'm so very sorry. I hope you will be able to rest and treat yourself well today. I know how hard it is but you will recover. Lots of love to you.

Waves at paws. I'm doing ok, thanks, lovely. I'm 40 today - eek!

I'm so sorry cherry, how awful. Look after yourself

I'm so sorry cherry. Be kind to yourself

Happy birthday mamaL

Am feeling a bit meh.... Cd 21 and no symptoms whatsoever - not even sore boobs! I'm feeling more relaxed as not temping so can't overanalyse on that front but was thinking, those ladies with bfps would you mind sharing your 'story' - lots of sex?? Temping?? Opks?? Smep?? Thanks lovelies!!

oh cherry i am so sorry! It is so awful to go through one, let alone two in a row. Take care of yourself

This time I switched to Pregnacare, used opks, dtd on cd9,11,14 I think and oved on 14.

cherry so very sorry to hear you think you may have lost another bub, I had two mc's in a row over the course of a few months too, so I know your pain hun. The next two weeks will be awful I'm afraid, no nice way to say it, I really hope you have some good news at your next scan in a couple of weeks...my friend had several mc's, and when pg with her son who she carried to term, she had a sudden massive bleed! He's now a very big 15 year old teenager!
I'm not trying to give false hope, as I know the odds are not usually good when you bleed heavily in pregnancy...but you just never know, that why I know the next couple of weeks are going to be hard for you. Its sad, and lonely when going through what's happening to you, but sadly it happens only too often to good, honest, deserving people.
I didn't think I would be able to ttc again when I was going through my 2nd mc,....

But here I am, eagerly awaiting to test again on the weekend!
God knows how I'll be if I 'am' pg?!
A nervous, lip wobbling, anxious, knicker-checking-wreck I can only assume!!!

Tbh, I don't think that anxiety ever goes away once you've experienced mc/mc's and are pg again...we somehow just find the strength to push through, and push on.

And you too will find the strength to push through, and push on, no matter what your outcome of your current situation Xxx

mama happy 40th to you! Xxx

Happy birthday Mama!

Thanks for the info carrot. Hope you're feeling ok. reebok hope you're having an easier time. Are u home yet?

paws how are u and oh now? Do u feel any better after seeing the doc?

Checking in again after a busy couple of weeks temping, testing and obsessing on every ttc app i can get my hands on...

CD 19 and went for it with SMEP so the last deed was done last night and now the 2ww kicks in.

Weird how time really drags day to day when you're counting those weeks down but it flies by otherwise - I fully hoped to be pregnant this spring or summer and now September is round the corner.

Cherry I'm so sorry to hear about your loss. Try to be kind to yourself...easier said than done I know.

Paws good luck. Hopefully you will get a bfp soon.

Thanks Emu. I'm home already and feeling better now LO is back in her routine. She's at nursery today so putting my feet up and trying to rest before work starts again next week. Still having cramps and cannot bring myself to go to the gp. I know I should. I just can't do it.

emu I'm feeling more optimistic now, have calmed down a bit...dh tries to be supportive sometimes, but I just don't think men can ever truly understand what we go through emotionally with hormones etc...x

reebok I hope you pluck up the courage to see GP soon, no hurry though hun, just go when you feel ready. X

wine the endless waiting is horrible, even once pg you're still waiting...waiting for the 12 week mark,...the 20 week mark,...movement etc! X

Think I'm going a tad bonkers, I'm not imagining how I'm feeling, surely?
8dpo: dizzy, faint, tired, headache, cramps, FANNY DAGGERS (A* daggers too!) nausea, vomited twice, chills, spots, oddly calm.......

Neg hpt...super early I know, but with how I've been feeling I thought I should test (have a secret stash of ic's) saving my FRER 's for 10dpo onwards!

Oh...and a constant high pitched tinnitus hissing for last few days...

Crap, one more...pricking in boobs and under-arms

The thing is, yes they could very well be early pg symptoms, but could also be symptoms of my recently diagnosed pmdd (which causes severe pms symptoms)
Bloody annoying, as now I have zero way of determining the difference other than a +hpt

Thanks paws. Re the symptoms you're having, I had the 'fanny daggers', headaches, aches and pains, chills, basically the flu! Didn't get a positive until I was 4 days late though. Fx for you Hun! X

Oooo...reebok thanks! I'm trying not to get carried away symptom spotting, but i notice every-little-thing!
Serious boob cramps going on, cramps on the sides, bottom and nipple area...dont usually get pains this bad, even when I 'was' pg....only time will tell I guess, next few days are really going to drag.
Let us know how doctors go when you do go hun xx