Candle smugglers of the world unite! The Berries have loaded up the charabanc and have Barry on repeat. Destination BFP (via the pouch of Douglas)

[happylass]

The small print:

The Berries have strict entrance criteria: TTC #1 for 12 months+, over 30, NO instadiffers, must have a special pimping pot and absolutely no mention of baby dust/dancing. Not that we're fussy

Current passengers

Happylass, 37, TTC since Aug 2012. 2 failed ICSIs. Hopefully FET early May with only frostie. Long awaited NHS appt in June
Beaky 35, ttc coming up 3 yrs, 2x failed iui 1x long protocol ivf cancelled due to poor response. On the pill awaiting short protocol IVF in may
Minx, 34, both tubes blocked, 1 buried ovary, IVF info evening June, IVF "booking in" appointment in July
Nolly, 33, TTC 2.7 years, mc Dec 2014. awaiting ivf August 2015 while dh is off on a jolly.
Wild 40 - TTC for three years. Embies on ice and planning FET with immune treatment in June.
HampshireBlues 36 TTC 3.5 years, unexplained. Cycle 1 chemical pregnancy, cycle 2 abandoned due to cyst, cycle 3 failed. Plan thrombotic profile, scratch and short protocol.
Lumen, 35, ttc since Nov 2011, unexplained, two IVF cycles in 2014, both bfns, waiting for lap&dye and results of numerous bloods, aiming for one last IVF cycle in the summer.
Tigerdog, 34 ttc since Jan 2013. Unexplained and all test results good. Currently in the middle of long protocol IVF, 13 eggs collected and awaiting news for next steps.
Gillster, 41, TTC since Feb 2012. Had IVF in Feb 14 and had 6 one cell embies frozen due to polyp. 2 x 2 day embies finally put back 14 months later on 16th April, BFP 28th April
Smidge, 39 this month, TTC since Jan 2013. Unexplained. IVF#1 Short protocol July '14 BFN, IVF#2 Nov'14 and IVF#3 Feb '15 both Long protocol BFNs. High NK cells immune treatment. 2 frosties due to be put back in natural FET in May or June.
Kuma - 40. TTC 2.5 years. Low AMH high FSH - DH antisperm ABs. Failed IVF June 14 and March 15. Looking to change clinic and try another natural cycle in June 2015.
Lucieloos, 35, TTC 18 months, low AMH & sperm motility. 1st ICSI in Czech Republic in April 2015. Awaiting results.
Barkingtreefrog, 35, ttc since Dec 2011. Clomid bfp summer 2013, mc @ 7 weeks. IUI bfp summer 2014, mc @ 7 weeks. Diagnosed with factor v leiden thrombophilia (but
not thought to be the cause of the mc's as they were too early). Failed IUI January 2015, failed IVF March 2015. No further NHS help. Going private for nk cells testing and a scratch before putting the frosties back, hopefully this summer.
Rain, 33 ttc since March 2012. unexplained. mystery bfp oct 13, MMC Nov 13. NHS IVF starting in June
Spare planning FET with remaining frosties shortly
Pont 1st IVF in Czech Republic in July.

tiger you're under no obligation to be sane. sleep and rest. one day at a time

Oh HB that's rubbish, I hope you feel much better soon. Fx it goes away soon. I'll shake my ohss away pompoms!

Spare happy anniversary! Sounds like you had a lovely weekend. When are you due for the next FET then?

Minx they will give you your dates at the hour long consultation so a little while to wait but hopefully you'll be booked in fairly soon after to start! How are you feeling about it?

Hello Berries, I'm back from my globe trotting - work travel just so isn't glamorous... at least there are AirMiles, slightly softens the blow.

Gill Good luck with the scan tomorrow. Everything crossed for you.

HB sorry you're not doing great, like Spare says, it's better to wait if transfer now would make you more ill. I assume they would freeze the embies and do a FET in a month?

Tiger thinking of you - the 2WW is so agonising, the week will be up soon. In the meantime I'm sending calming vibes and will give Ganesha a rub for you when I pass him tomorrow morning at yoga :) You too Happy.

Nolly your 'friend' sounds a right pain - I don't really understand why people find it so hard to have a little empathy!

Rain your little kitty looks lovely - we love our rescue cats, such a joy one of them is helping me post right now!

Wild good luck with your procedures tomorrow. I was told to take aspirin too - ended up with some low dose gastro resistant ones to prevent haeart attacks and strokes from Boots, didn't take them for long as never got as far as ET, but didn't have any side effects.

Beaky glad AF turned up - I hope the scan is OK and you can go ahead.

I've got my first consultation with another new consultant on Monday, hoping to go ahead with another and probably final natural cycle ASAP. Annoyingly AF is messing me around and still hasn't arrived - CD 36 today - but don't think I ovulated until CD30. I'm surprised that even a natural cycle of IVF can throw things out so much. And yes, I have POAS and it was BFN - no suprise-diffs here.

Sorry messed up my post there as hit post in a panic when my niece was sick next to me!

Tiger sending swathes of zen your way and hoping this week flies over. Happy you too, fx for both of you lovely berries.

Kuma nice to see you! I hope your appointment with a new consultant goes well, fx AF doesn't mess around too much is she is on her way I always thought I would love to travel for work but now I think I'd just want my own bed!

I had a complaint today from a client, that they were unhappy that I'd had 3 days holiday.

beaky
Dildocam tomorrow to see how things are coming along and then maybe FET at the weekend or on Monday
gill and HB Good luck today
tiger Hope you got some respite while asleep last night and your brain didn't play any tricks on you with dreams
kuma Glad you survived the trip

Ha spare my dreams were indeed messed up. Dreamt that I was taking part in a really horrible bare knuckle fight against this evil man in some dingy boxing arena, whilst PUPO.

Good luck with your appointment today beaky, hope it goes ok (if I've got my dates right?)

I think I'm going to test tomorrow. I'll be 14dpo or 9dpt5dt so expect my chances of an accurate result are reasonable. I can't wait any longer, I'm going crazy

tiger
I had crazy dreams when I was pregnant. Just sayin'...
Which brand are you going to test with?

Oo Spare fx for this FET then, I have the leotard and poms at the ready.

Tiget tons and tons of luck if you do test tomorrow, I'll be frantically checking in! yes I have my baseline scan this afternoon, I hope everything is fine and then my biggest problem will be putting the drugs in someone else's fridge.

Gill good luck for your scan this afternoon!

Scan all good. One baby in there and there was even a heart beat

Will catch up with everyone properly later.

Woohoo! Well done Gill over the effing moon for you and for me!

Fantastic news Gill. It must have been quite a relief to see that all was well and fab to see a heart beat. Yay for the little Giltini.

Beaky have you had your FC appointment yet? Excited for you getting underway again - and love how keen your DH was to get going. Top marks to him for keeping your nose to the grindstone, no slacking for you!

What plan did you settle on for keeping your meds discrete in your hosts' fridge? I don't envy you doing a cycle while under someone else's roof. You are clearly hardcore.

Spare golly that FET seems to have come around quickly. No slacking for you either, just cracking on with it.

Tiger hope you are getting through the day okay and your thoughts are not driving you too crazy. Will you be ok testing without DH there, no matter the result. We will be here anyway and expect an immediate update.

I had the hysteroscopy and D&C which went fine. It hasn't been painful at all so far, but I do feel a little wobbly from the sedation. I'm off work today and tomorrow so there's time to get back to normal. The consultant said they found a few small polyps which have been sent for analysis, but she said they were not the kind of thing which might affect implantation.

gill Amazing news! So happy for you and a relief to see one?

wild These FETs are like London buses..! But this might well be our last go, if they insist on defrosting all 4, or our last go for 6 months if they only defrost 2, because we've got this family wedding to go to in Africa next March, which means if this doesn't work, we have an enforced break to ensure I'm not more than 5 months pregnant if another round works.

beaky fingers crossed for the scan

HB any news?

yay gil! that is great news, what a comfort and a relief.

well done wild on your results, sounds like a postive experience. Good idea plannign time off, I didn't after my hsg and i felt really out of it for ages.

beaky hard core berry :)

Fantastic news Gill!! Over the moon for you!
Glad all went well with your investigations Wild

btw your client need a kick in the face, beaky

Wild brilliant that it wasn't too bad at all and now you are ready and fully prepared for your FET cycle! Woop

HB hope you are feeling a bit better, fx for your scan tomorrow.

I had my scan and have the go ahead, start shooting up tomorrow, unfortunately my amh result is very, very low. 1.1. Bit of a shocker to be frank. Low amh peeps, any words of advice or wisdom? please don't say impossible

Woah, it's been busy in here!

Lovely scan news gill, must have been amazing to see a heartbeat.

tiger everything crossed for you.

beaky but no advice I'm afraid, I've never had my amh done. It's not impossible though, or they wouldn't try (it would hurt their stats and that's what they all care about...)

kuma hope you feel better with a plan.

wild glad it's better news than you feared and everything can go ahead.

Posting from memory so apologies to everyone I've not replied to! I'm working new hours so I don't have half an hour in bed in the morning after DH's alarm. That's normally my mn catch up time!

Beaky hugs from me too and definitely not impossible. I think Kuma is the one to speak to about low AMH as she knows a lot about it. Mine isn't great (it was 6.2 at the start of last year) but I seem to have an OK- ish response to maximum stimms. What dose of Menopur were you on? Have the FC said anything about your result?
I know it's a bit of a shock but try not to stress . Remember the mantra IT ONLY TAKES ONE!!

Oh Beaky that figure must have come as a real shock. I was devastated when I discovered my AMH was below three. I hope you are ok. It definitely doesn't mean that it's impossible for you.

Please bear in mind that your age will help, your eggs will be much better quality than those of an oldie like me. That is a big factor in your favour as it means that more of your eggs will be healthy enough to grow into a baby. So even with fewer eggs it is likely that at least one will do the trick.

What is your FSH level? If that's within the normal range then you have reason to be optimistic. Low AMH and high FSH is much trickier to work with, low AMH on its own is a doddle by comparison.

Did they say how many antral follicles you had growing? That is also useful to know.

Barking is right that they wouldn't treat you if there was no chance of the cycle working. And AMH is not a perfect measure of fertility, it's just the best they have available for now. It does not 100 per cent reflect what will happen for an individual woman.

You are a vitamin D fiend already aren't you? I just mention it because low levels of Vit D can give an AMH result which is falsely low. Probably not the case with you if you are already necking the stuff, but it does show that the test is not perfect.

Just remember that I got eleven eggs in my first round and I have seen other women with low AMH get more than ten eggs on some of their cycles. Don't feel too downhearted dear Beaky. It's good that your clinic can now max out the drugs and get those follies growing!

We will all be pom-poming madly for you.

Beaky my dear a low AMH certainly doesn't mean it is impossible. Tight squeeze from me and I'll be happy to take on any extreme cheerleading duties whilst you're busy shooting up and growing those follies!

Whoooop gill must be so good to see the little bean and the heartbeat. So chuffed for you.

wild my lovely I hope you have your feet up. Glad all went well today...another step closer for you.

happy how are you holding up?

barking what's next for you - do you think the dates will work for your biopsy?

Thanks for the Ganesha rub kuma. I have continued to mental. I thought I was going to cry at my desk today, I'm on a knife edge. Glad you've got a plan in place for your next step.

Cross posted - great words of wisdom there wild. Listen to the wise lady wild, beaky!

What would we do without the berries?! You guys are my lifeline right now!

Wild - hope you're recovering from your hysteroscopy and D&C. I had a hysteroscopy and scratch 3 weeks before ET so hope it's all good prep for your upcoming FET. I'm sure the polyps will be benign too. Like the reference to "Giltini" although it sounds like a cross between a G&T and a martini.

Smidge won't be long until your June FET. I've dipped my toe into the chopper although haven't completely put my feet up in there. Jelli is doing well and not far off 14 weeks! Her 12 week scan was all good. Wish the time would go as quickly for me!

Glad it's all systems go Beaky but can understand why you are worried about your AMH levels. Did they give you an idea what your antral follicle count was this morning as don't think AMH is an indicator alone. Also Happy seems to have done well with a low AMH level. Can't believe how arsey your client was. I was going to suggest sending Nolly round to sort them out but it appears she's taken matters into her own hands already!

Minx glad things are progressing with you. I know treatment is a few months off but you'll be going before you know it.

Kuma I think all your travelling must be playing havoc with AF. Hope your consultation goes well on Monday.

Hope you're feeling a bit better HB and good luck for your scan tomorrow. It will be disappointing not to go ahead tomorrow as planned but your chances of success will be higher if your body is in good condition.

Can totally understand the mental Tiger. I had cramping on and off in the 2WW and also think I had more hiccups so you never know! Big hand hold for Happy too. I'm hoping the cramps are just your embie getting comfy.

Hi to Barking , hope you're getting some good training in for your tri!

We're off to the South of France at the weekend so very much looking forward to that even if I can't do any cycling. On the compulsory cycling days I will be travelling with all the group's luggage to the next stop. DH is going to try and cycle ahead of the group so I'm not on my own too long! Think I will scuttle off to the copter proper when I return from hols but too much happening in Berry HQ at the moment to leave now.

Hi all

Brief and to the point, merk

gill hope you get some lovely warm weather .

tiger no, I don't think the dates will work this month but you never know. If I ov the same day as last cycle I'll be on my way to majorca, so if I manage to call the hospital from the airport and book in I could possibly do the biopsy the first day back. I ov'd on cd21 though, so it's unlikely to be any later, and obviously any earlier will mean we're away 7 days later. If it is later I'll likely miss it with travelling etc messing up temping and pimping!!
But hey, what will be will be, no point getting myself wound up when I'm just going to have to wait and see what my body decides to do! My acupuncturist was a bit confused when I saw her last week and explained that yes I wanted her to fix my cycle, just not this month, as bringing ov forward wouldn't actually help for this month and could she just help sort out my emotional balance (or lack thereof) instead!!!

Just a quickie before bedtime!

Gill super news

Beaky don't fret. Low AMH is horrible news, but don't be too put off. Like Wild says, you are young and your eggs are fresher than us oldies. For me I found that it meant a low antral follicle count. My AMH was 1.6 in December 2013 and antral follicle count was 3, but earlier this year antral follicle count was up to 4! You may not respond so well to stimms, but I was told by my consultant that a lower sustained dose might be better than a short high one. I'm sure your clinic know what they are doing, and like we always say - it only takes one!