Halfway through my TWW and looking for company. Anyone in the same boat?

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I've still got about a week to go before I can POAS. DH and I have been trying for about 5 months, but I have very irregular cycles so it's all really hard to judge. I usually go about 2 weeks between periods so following that, AF should be due to arrive before the end of this week. But I'm thinking that would be too early to test and am very impatient! I've also been taking agnus castus this month on the advice of a medical friend so I'm feeling tentatively hopeful. Anyone around who wants to wait it out with me and not read too much into every symptom and definitely not take a test every day this week?

Morning all. Hope the new week brings good days with the sunny weather!!

Brown and Birchy, sorry that AF has put in an appearance. I hope she's not too long or painful xx

Hewy, I buy my opks from a compamy called SME Fertility and pay £6:99 for 50 test strips.

I've decided I'm giving up red wine as it's giving me headaches - definitely not hangover as didn't drink that much! ! Is the second time recently that I've woken up with a headache on one side after drinking red. Am also a bit twitchy with cramp in my calf muscles so got other things to focus on than ttc this morning.

Hey everyone. Sorry I have been absent but life has for in the way recently!

Month 11 is a big fat failure :(

I've been noticing that I've been steadily putting on weight over the last few months. I've been snacking a lot and not really doing much exercise.

Is it the wrong time (while ttc and taking clomid) to start doing more exercise with a view to slimming down a little? I'm cutting out the snacks too and thinking of avoiding carbs altogether after 6pm.

Hi finding I have had this problem recently. I have seen my GP who advised me to take up exercise. My BMI is slightly above 30 and she said if I need to go down IVF route it needs to be below 30. I was worried if now is right time to start exercising but she said anything that makes you healthier will make baby healthier.

So I have taken up yoga, zumba and some body combat classes but am not pushing myself to extremes. I am also going to start slimming world. I have about 7lb to lose to get my BMI down below where it needs to be but obviously I need to keep going after that to get it in healthy range.

However I am not taking clomid ..

Hi sleeping - so sorry to hear that, it really is awful, look after yourself though, I know exactly how you feel, you need some time to get over the disappointment - we're here if you need to talk

Hi ladies,

Well I got curious and did a test on Tgursday... BFN

I've still been feeling queasy with the sharp pinching pains as opposed to aches but AF is due today and I usually come on at bedtime bizarrely so I guess I'll probably get confirmation tonight....

Bugger! Lol!

Hi all!

Thanks so much for the hugs and thoughts, I really appreciate it. Feeling much better today. I drove out to the lake and just sat on the beach for an hour this morning (an attempt to help with this deadline) and it was great just to have some me time without internet to distract! So I'm feeling much better :)

brown, that sucks! But at least that's the end of the waiting. How're you holding up? birchy, sorry to hear about AF as well. Onwards and upwards for next cycle (and lots of icecream and hugs until then).

sleeping, lovely to hear from you again. Did AF turn upthen? Hope you're ok.

finding, my reflexologist mentioned something about not doing high adrenaline exercise, but tbh I might continue running as soon as my shins get better - it helps with my mood (and I'm so much of a beginner that I'm not overly doing it). Something about keeping the body in balance. But she recommended yoga, walks, swimming, etc.

sleepy, I've got my fingers crossed for you!

Just getting DH to buy she-oak for me (I reckon we should share the cost of our madness) - looking at the ingredients its 33.3% Purified water, 66.6% Brandy (25.1% alcohol). He was like,
'What?! It doesn't even say she-oak in it!'
'It's distilled!'
'It's booze! We've got booze in the cupboard!'
He still bought it. Whatever works, even if its a placebo, placebo's are good.

How are you doing diamond? Any sign of the AF yet?

Hello lovely ladies,

I'm still very much around but don't have anything positive to add cd50something and still no AF and possible PCOS diagnosis so feeling really down in the dumps. In a way I kind of feel like my body is pregnant because it's been so long without AF? I've been EXHAUSTED so much so I had to nap in my lunch break today and such a moody grumpy bitch and the most painful nipples I've ever had which makes me want to POAS but I know it's pointless and I can't face more disappointment, and OH doesn't understand why I'm grumpy and apparently I "can't be hormonal because you aren't pregnant" - yeah thanks for that darling!

When is everyone due to test?

Anyone got a BFP? Anyone out this month?

Hi sleepy - fingers crossed af doesn't turn up then!
haquoi - that sounds just like what you needed this morning, you're lucky to live near a lake and beach - I would love it! Love your DH's reaction to the she-oak and very pleased he got it for you, I really hope it will help. No sign of af yet, every trip to the bathroom is nerve wracking- I'm a nervous wreck! Been to reflexologist tonight so feel lovely and relaxed - she didn't say anything about ovulation but the session was good and what I needed. How about you? Any more sickness feelings?
Hi ickle - what a nightmare for you - men just don't understand do they. When did you last POAS? Those symptoms sound very strong. I'm due to test Friday/Saturday but will try and hold out til Saturday.

Hi Ickle, I must admit that I would have tested by now given your symptoms.

Various people have advised eating pineapple and raspberries during the tww. Dh has just been shopping and stocked up on both. I feel so positive this month that I'm dreading the disappointment later.

Right that's it I'm off to poas, thanks ladies it was the kick up the bum I needed! I did poas a week ago and it was bfn - surely it should have showed by then?

Reflexology sounds like a good idea, some chill time must surely help?

Hi everyone,

Sorry for my absence, DP and I are buying our first house and getting the keys this week so lots of paperwork, he thinks I have selective memory as I don't remember doing this for the place we are in now.

AF is well and truly let her appearance known, been so sore all day with cramps and feeling quite rubbish. Sorry to hear you also got your AF birchy too.

Sorry to hear you have been feeling so down haquoi I hope your ok, I think you are a very strong woman, I don't know how I would cope if I had lost a child.

diamond How was reflexology?

Any sign of AF sleepy? Sorry to hear sleeping you have been trying so long, it really is rubbish.

I don't think men do understand ickle sometimes I've noticed when they try to be helpful it just makes it worse, the last time I poas DP and I had a frank discussion because I said I wanted to wait till I got up in the morning and he said "you can test now, show me where it says you have to do it first thing!" (And I know you don't have too but I wanted too!)

I told him when I needed his help poas I would ask, funnily enough he didn't mention it again.

I'm going to have to start using ov sticks as I really don't want another cycle like last months, and while it won't prevent a late ovulation I will have an idea where I'm at? Need to look into it as I have no idea about any of this!

The biggest BFN

Not even a standy on your tiptoes one eye squint in direct sunlight line

I'm in bits, there is zilch possibility of me moving on and looking forward to next cycle when it might never come, I'm 20 and all my friends are having accidents and abortions left right and centre and me and dp who are actually desperately trying for a baby are having such a shit time of it

finding - enjoy your raspberries and pineapple - bless your DH. I'm really hoping for you this month - keep feeling positive
brown - exciting about your house! That is rubbish about af but hopefully your new house will keep your mind occupied and before you know it it will be dtd time
Oh ickle - I'm so sorry, I was really really keeping fingers crossed for you. No wonder you're in bits. The good news is though you are 20 which means you've got time on your side. How long have you been ttc?

Oh ickle, that SUCKS!!! I'm so sorry, our bodies really have it in for us. What did they say about the PCOS and when will you know more? Also, have you googled late periods? Usually I wouldn't advocate googling, but there are loads of people who have had delayed periods (some even by three, four weeks) and then have gone back to normal. I'm not trying to say that this isn't horrible, but please try to have a glimmer of hope, as well as allowing yourself to wallow (get a boxset/book series and work your way through. I've worked out how to wallow over the last few months). I really feel for you ickle and hope AF comes soon. Also, don't let anyone tell you that you're young and not to worry. I'm 26 and everyone uses it on me, it's so useless. I might be young, but time flies. Don't let anyone dismiss the way you feel because of that.

Congrats on the house brown! And thank you :) Charting your temperature is the only way of knowing that you've actually ovulated and opks are the best at predicting when. I've found www.fertilityfriend.com/ really useful as if you sign up they send you daily info on your body and how it works.

finding, what are the pineapples and raspberries for? Really please you're feeling positive :)

diamond, no more morning sickness feelings really. There's the faintest feeling of a weird taste in my mouth and feeling hungrier than I'd expect and slight pinching, but compared to last month it's absolutely nothing. I'm not really putting much store by them, tbh I'm probably imagining whatever there might be! I'm in this weird position of feeling like I'm out this month, and being ok with that, but secretly hoping... How about you, any symptoms?

You know, statistically at least one of us will become pg this month... We had two last cycle (not including me), ero and ifyou, so fingers crossed for someone else's BFP!

I'm sorry ickle been there, done that and 4 bfn in my outside bin in the last week to prove it. It's awful when it's not happening and you want it badly. Time is on your side but I know it's hard when others are getting pregnant unexpectedly. It's easier said than done of course to not let it bother you.

To be honest diamond I'm kind of thinking of taking a break from ttc, keeping my fx for you.

haquoi - I know exactly what you mean - I feel like I'm out too but am desperately secretly hoping. No, no symptoms here, I'm trying not to symptom spot this time as it has always got me excited only to be gutted when they obviously didn't mean anything. I know I'm going to take af arriving really hard this month, I think with the reflexology and trying to be positive - I'm not sure how I will pick myself back up from a failure again - thankfully I have you lovely ladies
Thanks brown. I can understand you must feel so fed up with ttc, it's completely draining. My advice would be to just take some time out for yourself and don't put any pressure on yourself - I think we're all guilty of doing that when ttc and want it so badly and sometimes we need to not be too harsh on ourselves

I think you are right diamond thanks.

I guess I'm just almost surprised as when my AF was late I was trying to convince myself I wasn't expecting a bfp, when I must have been as when AF arrived it hit me harder than I thought it would if that makes sense.

Whilst my AF is here I'm going to get back to the yard and back to horse riding, haven't done it in ages and now there's no reason for me not too. Will see how I feel after AF has gone, right now the idea of starting all over again doesn't appeal but that will pass. I hope!

Ickle, this sucks. Hope is literally the worst-thinking maybe, just maybe and then getting bfn. I wish there was a way to get us all our BFPs. Sadly, dtd is the only way and it's the last thing we probs want to do when AF turns up and the world falls apart. A virtual hug for you all and wish it could be more.

So sorry ickle it's devastating when that happens. We've been ttc for over seven years and I have waves of positivity and at other times I almost forget about it. Now I'm feeling pressure due to my age.

My sister told me that she is also ttc and I would love for both of us to have children around the same time.

After a walk, kebab, a sob and all your lovely comments I'm ready to give it another shot of positivity.

I've had blood tests and an internal scan but the so I graphed was worried about the state of my ovaries given my age and didn't sound optimistic - but that's just another sceptic to prove wrong!!

You ladies have been my absolutely rock tonight and I wish every single one of you get your BFP and have healthy, happy and beautiful LO's you all deserve it you really do

I obviously don't have as much to update as you all so I'm going to keep my head down for a couple of days on the posting side of things but I will be watching this thread for when you all get your BFPs xxx

*sonographer

Morning all, not posted for a couple of days as work gets in the way at times. We're bobbing along in our tww. Bloods booked in for Thursday for repeat progesterone levels and have to speak to gp same day for dp and what tests gp wants him to have before referring us to the gynae at the hospital. My ff app is saying my ideal date to poas is next friday (22nd) which would be 3 days over for AF but I don't know if I'll be able to hold out that long!!

brown I agree with diamond, just take some time for yourself and go with whatever you feel you need to do. And I think the key is to enjoy yourself and not put your life on hold, which of course I'm not managing to do :s

ickle I have my fingers crossed that you get some more answers from the doctors and that AF comes for you again soon. Take care of yourself (and don't be a stranger) xx

finding, how is your dtd coming along? When are you due to poas?

diamond, I'm starting to get twitchy. Today is the 1 year anniversary of finding out I was pg with DS. I'd been having cramps for a week or so and when I poas got such a faint bfn that I went out to the shop to buy different tests, and even then DH spent an hour online trying to work out if it was positive (he wouldn't believe me). I then spent the next week testing until there was a line he agreed with. So of course, this morning I felt slightly odd and with a weird taste, but I just can't imagine its down to anything other than the time of year, the anniversary and flashbacks really. I've just got to cross my legs and not pee on anything other than a toilet for the next few days, (reading that back it sounds like I routinely wet myself... you get what I mean!) There's also that thing of whether I should hope I'm pg: do I really want to have the same due date as with my DS?...

remember, fingers crossed for your tests and everything! Any symptoms?