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If you can keep up with a bus that fills up in one weekend and chat shit then jump aboard the bus you are never allowed to leave! Trying to set a target for most BFPs on one bus!

No LPBs allowed!

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Night, af/bfp due 12th as well, I may test Thursday but only because I'm going to Uncles funeral on Friday and I'll probably have a drink if it's negative. I could test Friday but I think we have a 5am start so I'll be enough of a rush without poas!

Frog, if dp leaves the room after dtd I'll sometimes do upside down naked pedalling but I feel ridiculous even without dp there to laugh at me! If he's there he'll get my bum propped up on pillows

Victoria, sorry about your sciatica, not nice. leave the housework and tell dh's family to meet you out somewhere then you can relax and eat Easter eggs

Purdey, I think thats Karma for your dh! Well done Nancy although I'm sorry she was sick how is she today?

Eskimo, pleased you're feeling brighter, sometimes a good cry does the trick.

Abi, it's cruel that bfp/af symptoms are so similar. I've had many cycles where I've gotten excited because I've felt nauseous or tired or my boobs were bigger, now I know this is the norm for me. Maybe your levels are slow to rise. I hope
You find out one way or the other soon. It's not nice being in limbo.

Pikz, do you usually ov so late?

Sammy, enjoy your hols and you also Oyster, no sun here in Devon I'm afraid can you bring some with you please

Riceicle, I'm sorry it looks like af will soon be with you. It's crap when you get your hopes up, I'm sure your bfp will be here soon

I feel crappy today. Been out with da this morning and came home to exercise as I didn't have time this morning but instead I'm lounging on the sofa watching a place in the sun

sorry can't remember who asked but I'm on day 28 of 28 day cycle. AF due today and normally have spotting from day 25 but nothing. Have left the pregnancy tests at home so no testing til Monday if she still doesn't show!

creme big hugs to you! I feel really low today, but I'll be ok tomorrow. I just feel that 6 months of my life have flown by, and all I have though about is where in my cycle I am, how awful to virtually loose 6 months of precious time when I should have been concentrating on the fabulous life that I have. Every decision is governed by ttc- shall I go out? Shall I buy those exspensive new trousers (no point if I'm wearing fat pants soon!) shall I go on the 5:2, shall I work hard in the gym? Shall I book a summer hol? gRrrrrrrrr! oyster I love the mental image of a mini Cupid! it has really perked me up sorry for the me, me me! I really will be better when I have drunk my self silly eaten all of the children's Easter eggs!

I know how you feel spinning. I used to going jogging every evening but I injured my knee a couple of weeks ago and have turned into a couch potato since!

Spinning I should be on a run but instead I am watching Spooks and eating chocolate Fx for you on Thursday. Am going to do my best to wait till Sunday :)

Melon, keeping fx for you that af stays away.

Night and Abi, good to hear I'm not the only one having a lazy afternoon

Riceicle, I know that feeling. I've been trying for so long that it's easy to let it take over your life. I'm more chilled out about it now and carry on as normal until I get my bfp and also spend time appreciating what I have and I'm very lucky that I already have 2 gorgeous dc's

Purdey sorry Nancy was ill last night, now maybe your OH will realise how hard it is!!

Riceicle1 sorry you think AF is on her way, but its not over until she shows, i have always wanted a Christmas baby too , take care of yourself

Melonmelon fingers crossed the lack of spotting for you means you have a bfp waiting for you

Spinning sorry you are feeling crappy today, hope that you are cheering yourself with lots of chocolate too!!!!

Victoria hope your Sciatica eases off soon, housework is crappy at the best of times!!

Period pains have kicked in today, feeling really crappy, DH and i went into town as it's my birthday soon he suggested i could buy anything i wanted, saw a nice pair of trousers, tried them on and i just felt fat and bloated and they looked horrible on, everywhere i went the was pregnant ladies with there huge bumps and other pushing prams, life is a bitch at times

sorry for the grouchy mood i am in, least its Easter weekend and i can feed my mood with easter eggs!!

Just read back from yesterday. I'm home in bed with a cold. My fertile period is here and DH and I both feel like crap. We had a failure to launch session in bed earlier which just made me feel worse.

glittery you really make me laugh :)

reicicle and eskimo for you. How are you both doing now?

sammy guess you may have gone already but enjoy your holiday

Sorry to anyone with a bfn - rubbish.

purdey oh my! How are things now? So glad you could run to your mums.

sparkly your posts are always so thoughtful and lovely. Can you teach me to be more like you? Can you bottle and sell your goodness?

Oh and to whoever was thinking if progesterone cream do your research. If you dont maintain the levels of cream through To a specific week in pregnancy you risk miscarriage etc. creams are quite hard to get continuous hormone levels from. please please don't play with hormones like this without checking medical advice. It's really risky.

to everyone feeling down. Hope you all perk up soon. Enjoy some choc and just chill out.

Rainy ugh I remember feeling like that when I was ttc DD. It was so hard being around pregnant people and seeing babies. I have DD now and remind myself that I should be grateful but I still feel like that when I see a bump

Purdey hope Nancy's feeling better but glad your DH experienced that. Hopefully he's come to his senses!

Well I gave DD her Easter egg and had a plan that I would scoff mine when she's in bed tonight but we've been invited to bil's for dinner so I'm scoffing choc now with DD. I wasn't about to miss out on that, I'm such a child

Butter, I see you as a rather brainy type, yet your revelation that you test at 5dpo has made me rather pity your pea brain. Whatsup with that manner of bonkersness?! Yes, I have made a rather unecclesiastical start to Easter weekend what with the fishwife effing and blinding. Sometimes negotiation just doesn't work, you know?

Reading between the lines, Butter, you have had it massively tough with your depression. Has it made you very ill in the past? Are panic attacks/anxiety also a feature? You come across as hugely buoyant and sanguine. How do you feel right now in your life? I'm so glad you de-lurked and joined us proper Oh..and thanks for that link, I've completed the survey!

Pikz! How are you, sweetheart? Does DH work away often? S'a good job ov's late, no? Whe do you usually ovulate?

Riceicle, please don't cry. Some babies look like fat old paedos in them Santa suits. You don't want one o' them. You want an Easter baby you can call Bunny or Wabbit or Egg-Marie or summat

Creme, rant away, sweetheart. The months following a miscarriage are hatefu. Shit. Frustrating and scary (scary because you start to think irrationally: 'I'll never have a baby.') Don't listen to the demons that tell you such things. Tell us more about your TTC journey thus far. How old are you and how long have you been trying? If you're not honest with DH how can you expect him to help? He can't read your mind and you should at least unburden yourself on him. Never mind that he has 'other stresses' - make yourself the most important issue in his life. Remember your wedding vows? So should he - and that includes something along the lines, surely, of 'I wil make a special effort to lift your mood around Easter when I know you wil be feeing the sting of childlessness more than ever'

Merry, haha hope you enjoyed your egg

Boris, sorry your poorly. Maybe you'll feel up to try and dtd again later. It's awful when you try and it doesn't happen.

Rainy, going clothes shopping with af bloat is never a good idea. I'm sure the trousers would look fab if you tried them next week. I recommend Easter eggs instead

Nomio, well done on all the Easter nookie, keep up the good work

Finally on the road. OH tried his usual trick of telling me he's ready to go then brushing his teeth, putting in his contact lenses, searching for his keys, wallet, phone, trying to decide which jacket and shoes to wear etc. When he tells me he's ready to go I don't even look up from my kindle until he's putting his shoes on.

Purdey he's a semi pro sky diver so away a lot. He's currently at the world indoor championships so I get to spend Easter just me and the tot!

My ov has been up and down but usually 17/18 but today is 19 and not positive yet. Think it will be tomorrow I am hoping which is good timing as DH home tomorrow evening. I seem to ov on a full moon these days!

How is little one since you've been home?

Argh have forgotten what I was going to say to people so will start another post!

Oyster my DH is just like that. More because everything is done at the last minute!

Spinning sorry you feel rubbish and also rainy and others. Loads of chocolate coming your way

Is a twunt similar to a cuntard?

Pikz, I like your longer posts

Tessie, how are you? What you doing this weekend in Eastern Europe?

WOTSITS: PLEASE, PLEASE, PLEASE COME BACK!

Nomio, so much luck wished for this cycle for you

Oyster, what were you sowing? I sowed some wallflowers yesterday near, well...a wall, hoping they would eventually cover the ugly thing, but when I came in and Googled it it seems they don't climb nuffink. They're just, like, there

Sammy, I will miss you! Relax and you'll get pregnant enjoy yourself

Spinning, my baby is broken She has been so quiet today and rather listless. No temperature or vomiting or crying, but she begged us (in her own one-year-old way) to go to bed an hour early at 6pm. We will see what the night brings...

Wow, Pikz, that is a pretty impressive job DH has. I would be terrified if DH was a sky diver!

Boris, hope you feel better later. I recommend .

I agree with the comments on progesterone cream. I looked into it, but there were so many people posting online with bad experiences, and websites advising against it that I decided it wasn't worth the risk.

Poor Nancy Hope she's feeling better soon.

So far I have broad beans and onions coming through. Just sown some lettuce, rocket, spinach and chard and sown some tomatoes, squash and courgettes in the greenhouse. I need a good dry spell so I can get some proper work done down there.

No flowers though. Maybe I should get some, brighten the place up a bit

Purdey the 5 dpo poas was because I p'd on the wrong stick. Last cycle I was getting multiple LH surges up until af showed up on day 38, obviously something went a bit wrong in me tubes. I was meaning to use a cheapie ov test and picked up the wrong thing, got two sacks baggies in my bathroom cupboard, one each of ebays finest opks and ICs bought in bulk. Did an LH test too once I realised the stick was the wrong colour not at all because I had just woken up at 2pm, no LH so i think this cycle should be normal. I have a suspicion that something os weird every other month. Does anyone know if you can have PCOS on just one ovary?

Yes to the depression having a huge impact, and also anxiety/panic attacks and a history of self harm (which is now thankfully a thing of the past but still have thoughts of it). Things at the moment aren't great but stable, I have been to GP this week to get a referral to psych specialist for lithium. I have been on 13 different ADs since I was 18, some worked better than others but nothing that ever truly made a difference. I saw an excellent psychiatrist before Christmas who I discussed TTC with, was given the option of trying a MAOI or lithium for resistant depression and myself and dp decided lithium was the way to go (much more known about effect in pregnancy, slight chance of heart defects but increased number of scans and early monitoring). I have since moved to a different area so have had to go through the rigmarole of changing GPs and getting referrals etc.

Ideally we would like to wait until the first trimester was done to start on the drugs but as its impossible to predict when ifI will get knocked up I am getting the ball rolling in the new area. I have an almost weekly wobble, where I doubt myself and end up having a discussion with Mr Chunks about whether its sensible to be making a baby when I am not working more than one day a week and still not feeling able to complete my thesis, but we always come back to how this is what we want and how we shouldn't let this impact our lives any more than it already does. I have a family history of bad PND so that is also a concern, but I feel that any woman having a baby has a chance of suffering with some sort of mental problem during/after pregnancy and that I shouldn't let that dissuade me.

How are you getting on these days? I remember a few weeks back you were feeling particularly low and had been to your sexy Dr for a chat.

cor blimey Pikz, that's an exciting job! Are you also into flinging yourself out of planes?

frogb loved Kimmy Schmidt, are you a 30 rock fan? Not sure if it's on UK netflix but I'm watching it on USA netflix (for anyone interested get an extension called hola for chrome or firefox and it allows you to watch netflix from different countries). I'm currently working on a granny square blanket. Just realised I lost out on an ebay auction on a Jean Greenhowe knitting pattern typing this megamessage, think I learnt to knit with some of her patterns when I was little. I am planning for future baby butterchunk(s) to have a load of knitted toys (that way they can be easily replaced when puked on or left in asda). What are you working on?

Anyone else working on some crafty projects or diy type stuff? any good cakes for us to drool over this weekend?

Rainy, are you quite well in the head? Never, ever, ever try clothes on when AF is due. I'm surprised your DH isn't hanging from the changing room clothes rail. How lovely of him to offer to treat you!

Boz, do you think this failure to launch is partly what's behind your tardiness to conceive? Or do you always manage to get loads of spermz in situ by the eleventh hour?

Pikz! You're a dark horse, you are! A semi-pro what??! A bloody death-defying skydiver??!! What an exciting couple you are. You and your flipping snow exploits and him and his celestial plummetings! I don't like the sound of indoor skydiving. That must be one fecking high ceiling

I've told asked DH to not go to his weekly AA meeting. I want him home in case baby takes a turn for the worse. He agreed very quickly. I think he wants to be close to me after our row. He can sweat a little, methinks. I don't play games but I do like space to plan my next attack let him see what a fucktard he has been. I really, really want to go and hug him and snog him though. He is looking uncharacteristically sexy today

Last post of the night. We have made friends properly. Hugged and kissed. He said I was sorely missed last night 'and not just because baby was ill'. Bingo. His favourite chicken and lardon casserole with dumplings is now simmering away

Butter, lithium is for mania, right? Wrong, probably. Tell me more about it. You have had it tough, my love. I love how you saw a fantastic psychiatrist. They are thin on the ground somewhat. Do you feel your MH issues were genetically inherited? I most certainly believe mine were (Dad was in and out of mental hospitals from his early twenties until my sister and I were approximately ten and thirteen years old). Various suicide attempts, too. A lifetime on anti-anxieties and antidepressants. Moribund bastard for a huge part of our childhood but equally an amazing dad when needed. Unfortunately his problems manifested themselves sexually: he was a massive sex pest (flasher) and adulterer. He grew out of his predilection for being a twat when he reached sixty and lost his erections through prostate cancer. Karma or what.

Back to you though, lovely. Please don't linger over thoughts you are not worthy or entitled to be a mum. You have as much chance of damaging a child if you are obese; have a warring relationship with your partner; are a bigot (I despise gipsies but I'm working on it); are going to work and commute twelve hours a day, hardly seeing your child. I'll tell you something else too: I doubt I would be here had it not been for the brilliance of my dad's support when I had my breakdowns. Suffering makes us such excellent carers and friends and mums.

P.s...Butter, thank you for being so frank on this forum. I personally find it hugely reassuring to know others have suffered with MH issues and am heartened to read their honest accounts. Thank you again. I also think you are amazing for having defeated, thus far, self-harming behaviour

Purdey you do make me laugh!!, yeah wasn't much fun trying on clothes with AF bloat going on

Dizzy it normally does not really bother me being pregnant ladies but i think iv got a touch of the af grumps going on!!

spinning the trousers looked so nice hanging in the window in the shop, i might go back next week and have another try, easter eggs are high on my list right now!!