The March Bus continues.....will the Eclipse bring us more bfp's!

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New bus ladies, who's next to poas

Thanks spinning I'm quite scared really. I have lots of IC tests to use first.

Babs I am meeting my friend Friday and her new baby who is 10 days old. My fb feed is the same lots of little toes and big bellies

Ooh One Born Every Minute is on in half an hour, who's watching?

Not me spinning! Used to be one of my fave program's but makes me ?? now! X

purds I honestly thought I could stick it out, and that it would get better. Felt like I was letting myself, and DH down. Silly really, as when it got to crisis point (dh called an ambulance as he thought I was having a heart attack) it suddenly dawned that he would do anything for me, no matter what.
I also realised I'd been through worse in my life (lost my dad when I was young, had a good friend killed in a fight, and suffered a mc on my first pregnancy) and I'd survived all that.

Financially we're a bit worse off now, but I'm not dealing with a massive load of stress. I get a bit anxious about work load, but now I'm ballsy enough to tell them.

May have put a few noises out of joint, but I don't much care.
Lost a lot of 'friends' too who thought I did it as a snap decision, but it really showed me who I could count on. Fuck the rest of 'em I say! (sorry, but it's true).
Life still gets shit, but I don't have to face having anxiety attacks every morning.

Seeing my IBD consultant Thursday, not sure she will be impressed that I'm working in healthcare whilst on immunosuppressive therapy . But I'm going to make sure I'm taking all the right measures.

Cake looks luscious, bet it tastes great!

Sorry about the life story post, just really want you all to know that things can seem so dark and gloomy at times, but learn to lean on those who offer support, and make sure life doesn't become a chore.

I am spinning, I've already started crying

DizzyMerry, your posts are so lovely to read

Th'usband has just declared that this 'ere parsnip & maple cake is THE BEST CAKE IN THE WORLD. I have to say it is astonishingly moist and dense (dense in a good way). It's a shame that the maple syrup is lost among the mixed spices but that is a teeny grumble. Really very delish. Still carrot though

Boris, thanks for explaining that. I've never had to worry about mat pay or career damage when pregnant or as a new mum, so it's easy for me to say 'Sod it. Get out for your sanity. Happiness awaits.' I've been in jobs that I've hated but only because they were interminably dull; I have never been subjected to bullying or harassment I wish or felt disrespected. It must be bloody awful.

Eskimo, I'm so glad you're talking to your mum; don't put it off any longer. Mums are so important when we are going through this stuff (unless they are judgemental/living in the 1950s ('We never 'ad to wait longer than a month for me to fall pregnant'. Yes, dear, that's because the only stressing you did was over a bakewell tart). Why had you stopped talking to her? Don't answer that if it's too personal.

Frog, I almost didn't zoom in on your mug photo to read the caption but am so glad I did. I've been chuckling for over an hour.

Victoria, did you get my cake through t'post? Big slice for you, lovely.

You're so brave marching in there (on Thursday) and getting all Rambo on their asses about your pay and title! Love it!

Ooh 44 year old on OBEM Purdey!

Just caught up and so sorry to see so many ladies struggling, for you all. The ladies on these buses are my heroes. I always picture you all as beautiful strong Amazons

Frog! Do you reckon you're preggo?? Do you?? DO YOU??

MrsB, I wanted to ask you t'other day for more details regarding the noses you may have put out of joint in recent days but I felt that was a bit nosy of me You do come across as extraordinarily determined and ballsy despite having gone through what you have. I know what you mean regarding having gone through stuff that puts all the other stuff into perspective. Being a (recovering) alkie - and having stooped to some pretty desperate levels - I see my life's curveballs now in a whole new context. I am not saying one has to suffer awful life experiences to be able to see the world with perspective, but there is something about suffering that, I feel, gives you a better personal understanding of what is and what isn't worth your misery.

Spinning, IVF was it? I'm recording OBEM but you can give me a teeny spoiler..

purds you, tactful? Haha.

I'm not rude about it, but I really stick to my guns now. Go prepared to battle and all that stuff.
Agree about seeing the world in a different light, its awful to go through these experiences, but hopefully we've come out better the other side.

Thanks for the cake purds what flavour did you say it was?

also am I pregnant?

www.fertilityfriend.com/home/jefnerf

Gosh darn mumsnet ate my massively long catch up post. (Been knitting - obsessed.) Much like purdey's dh is eating my cake. Sigh. ;)

Anyway, it was mainly me ranting on how I battled with myself to walk away from high powered career at big international firm to go somewhere smaller and more local so I could try to have a family. Tough as some nutter voice in the back of my head was telling me to stick it out, to put up with maniac bosses and aggressive clients, to work all the hours god sent doing something that made me deeply unhappy and put me and my personal life under enormous pressure because if I left i would be weak and pathetic. Turns out I am now a bit bored at work but much happier generally. :) Know what it's like when you feel trapped and miserable. I hope you all get through it however you decide is best for you. Don't let them grind you down and make you forget that you are tough and strong and can do anything you want. Xxxx

Sparkly, sorry you had a hard time yesterday. Hope you are feeling better.

Juney, glad little one on the mend.

Mummy, hope you all got through today okay.

Prudery(typo, but I like it), love that you have new glasses, your momma loves you.

The rest of you lovely lot, I hope
You are okay.

Anyone peeing on a stick soon? Xx

I don't know purdy, We want it so much maybe I'm imagining it I really really hope not I would say we would be damn lucky first cycle after many months of ttc last year ending with a cp. Don't want to get my hopes up too much, but it's looking good so far

Goodnight lovelies . I'm off to get knocked up!

Have fun mrsb !!!

Argh juney, are you?!!!

Juney your chart looks similar to mine fxfxfxfx

Fx for both of you. :) xx

OMG! fxfx for juney and frog

POAS already!!!!!

Dunno, Juney...am I?

Thanks purdey I only wish I came across these threads when I was ttc #1 as that was a very dark time.
mrsb you were treated appallingly and it's shocking. Nothing whatsoever is worth that amount of stress so good on you for moving on and showing your determination. You are a strong lady and it definitely comes across.

Right, who was it that called clear blue opks a bastard? Well I agree with you!!! 3 cycles of using them now and no sodding smiley even though I have a lot of ewcm today. I will be demanding a refund if I don't get a smiley in the next week days. Could be that I'm not actually ovulating but I'm sticking to my rant

Woo....good luck girlies!

OBEM...I'm an emotional wreck now....

Thank you muchly for the cake purdey, it looks delish!!
So sorry for those feeling rubbish today, big hugs and
I can totally sympathise with the work stress thing, I almost quit my job last year as i was in a pretty bad place with the stress, luckily things have got better and I hope they do for you ladies too
Eek juney and frog I'm getting excited for you both!!

Purdey Thank you for the cake- cheered me right up that did, and I know my ovaries are just soaking up the nutty goodness! I'm not really sure why I stopped telling my mum everything. She was going through some issues with my dad and telling me everything and I was her rock for a lot of the latter half of last year, and I think it was a combination of not wanting to worry her, but also of hoping that, soon, there wouldn't be anything to tell! As the months have gone on, I have realised that I can no longer keep it from her because it was actually stopping me picking up the phone and calling her. Anyway, I called her earlier and it was my dad that picked up, so I started to tell him about work and my mum was also on the other line and I ended up blurting out everything to both of them! They were both very supportive, gave some good advice about work and just listened to the other stuff.

Juney and Frog- I'm keeping everything crossed for both of you!