Immune/natural killer cell treatment when TTC or pregnant (aka the 14th pred thread)

[sunnyday01]

Continuing from 13th thread

Oh Xmas good luck for u! Hope not too painy or heavy!
My ovulation is near yrs day next (if
Period comes as expected). Maybe good/tipsy start to 2015?!

Here's hoping trying! Heres to tipsy loving and tipsy little beAn news for the new year x

Thanks Hope, Trying and Determined for messages... I have had a real low patch but trying to turn it around. It could still happen yet... I have hidden a lot if the detail from my parents as don't want then worrying about me and for it all to totally define my life ... But had a mini breakdown on the phone at the weekend when speaking to my poor Dad and he was really lovely but then asked if I'd thought of adopting. It's a fair enough question but to consider it properly means accepting this really isn't meant to be which is so sad and scary. Anyway I'm feeling a bit better now. Really great to read everyone else's news. Hope I know you must be going crazy .. But it really is a blessing you've a wee one already to distract you a bit. And try trashy series too.. Mad Men, Greys Anatomy etc.. Hours, days and weeks can just disappear ;) really thinking of you lots and can't wait to hear more good news from you. I think I will be joining the Christmas activity.. Which could prove awkward as at in laws for some of the time :-S I'm see Mr S soon so will be interesting to see what he says as except levo now off everything except asprin and vits as had numb hands and arms in night. Louise thought could by hydroxy but I'm now thinking could still be linked to Humira which gave me a bad allergic reaction.
Free - I hope you're managing to get some rest and feel all sorted for your next arrival :)
Is 38 and a half, 2MMCs and 1 MC and no luck since trying in Aug time to give up.. Or should I give it to 39? I know I can't stop yet.. But worry I will look back a regret letting my social life all but disappear .. What makes you know Free and anyone else who has been lucky on the programme know that it's worth keeping going? Did you feel deep down you would get there? Or did you really not know but couldn't live wondering 'what if'?

Ps sorry for the looong emotional rambles...

Hi Rosa....don't apologise for long rambles....this is what this thread is for :) am so sorry you have been feeling low and it probably did you some good speaking to your Dad even if you did get upset. Talking is great and I always feel better when I have had a good chat (and I mean cry really). Do you have other people around you you can talk with? I have a couple of friends I have told the full story and it really helps.

There are so many success stories and strong stats from Dr S and other consultants and if you go back to old threads you can see the amount of babies (and some having more babies like free). It can still happen and probably happen when you least expect it...

Dildoos sorry to hear AF arrived but love that you have xmas day tipsy loving

Hope I hope you are a bit less anxious today?

Trying I hope you are feeling a bit better today?
xxx

Rosa sorry your feeling so low at the moment. It was good you spoke to your dad , dads can be great at this time. What you really need is a daddy cuddle ! Anyway of arranging that soon?

I don't know when we will call it a day or if we ever will.
Before this round it took 3 and 1/2 years to fall with dd not even a sniff of a pregnancy before hand. We are now at the 3 and 1/2 year mark again but have had 7 mc.

I think sometimes it's our fear of regretting giving up and what if?

Our of the 2 trying sessions this one is harder due to dd6 wanting sibling and dp hasn't any biological children so feel more pressure.

My sister was 40 and 42 when had her children so I guess that would be my cut of point?

I really am feeling for you as I remember first time round the wondering if it will ever happen?
Thankfully I kept on trying .

I have everything crossed for you rosa for it to happen soon. If you have the strength mentally don't give up xxx

Morning rosa. Sorry u feeling low. I think as long as u have the strength to keep going.....u keep going. Loads of ladies in their early 40s and late 30 having sucess so why shouldn't u?

After my second miscarriage I really worried it would never happen for me. I was completly heartbroken. So I know that awful feeling when you the thoughts of giving up enter. But after obsessing over mumsent threads and lurking for hours and days (bad habit I've now stopped!) I saw most women were successful in the end if they kept going. Also my acupunturist says the same
To me and she's done infertility stuff for over 30 years. She's told me the most amazing stories of women with failed ivf/miscarriages/unable to get preg and then it suddenly falling into place. I truely think these postive messages she (and my dad who is an ob and gynae consultant) are what has got me through this time around. Still my preg but at least I'm not crying everyday like I was a year ago.

I suppose wot I'm saying is-have u find someone in ur life who u can trust who can feed u postive vibes? Do u do acupuncture? I think taking to my lady is better than the acupuncture! She really makes me believe I'll get there in end. Maybe that might be an option? Or ur parents? Or a friend? Or even a book with stats that show most women get there in end?

It's so hard I wish I had a crystal ball for us all! But as long as u have it in u, keep going. And if u decide To stop you will hopefully make peace with that

Sending u a hug. Also to make u feel better! I'm 30 and been trying for longer than u this time round and no luck yet! (Since July on 2ww cycle 5) so don't think u can't get preg, sometimes it just takes longer.

Hope-one more day to scan. Please come online and let us know I'll be thinking of u!

Happy nearly weekend girls.

Thanks so much Determined, Dildoos and Trying... You all made me feel a tonne better. It's the end of a really long year and haven't really had a holiday as have either been grieving or scared on each as used them to get over loss or distract myself during early pregnancy (so doesn't work!) Anyway all your comments are so appreciated and the virtual hugs etc. I do need to get back into accu .. The last one I had was good but not so much with the chat. I think Hope or someone else up north recommended me one so will scroll back and find the name.
I'm guessing every single one of us on this thread is badly needing this Christmas break!
Thinking of you all and hoping for positive news soon.
Hope - best of luck tomorrow x
Happy weekend all xxx

Hope- good luck for today x

Rosa- I hope you have a blessed Christmas and get loads of good support around you.

I hope everyone reading the thread are blessed in more ways the the vital one this Christmas as to find your self here you all deserve it!

X

Yes good luck today hope! Thinking of you! X

dildoos I echo your comment...we all deserve a fantastic xmas and my...2014 has been one of the toughest I've personally known and couldn't have anticipated it (a year ago yesterday I had just found out I was preg for the first time). Never dreamed I would appear on a thread like this but so grateful that it exists and that I am on it with some wonderful, brave, strong, supportive and inspiring ladies! Sounds a bit cheesy but true...

Xxx

Hope thinking of u today.

Yes I agree girls we deserve a great 2015!

Rosa-hope talks v highly of her acupuncturist worth a try in the new year?

Off to see Santa this afternoon when he asks what I would like for Christmas I shall give him our wishes from the thread!

Oh please do!!

Ha! Brilliant! We have all been so good this year too

I agree we have been awesome his year and very well deserving

Ugh! If I'm not preg this month will be 5 months of trying this time. How the hell did I get preg so quickly the first 2 times?!! Can't even get over hurdle one right now. Infuriating.

Hello all! Just back on the train to Edinburgh and wanted to update you. I could have combusted with happiness but we saw our little baby with strong heartbeat and measuring just right for seven weeks! I was a total mess yesterday as all of my pregnancy symptoms have gone and I was having stomach cramps so I couldn't believe it when Dr S asked if we'd like to see our baby! I am making a note to myself to remind you all when you get your BFPs and this happens to you! I had morning sickness, sore boobs and everything and now nothing but baby is just fine. I had been so sure I had miscarried it was the first thing I said to Dr S when I walked in. Luckily he was very calm and is obviously used to meltdown cases like me! I have another scan in two weeks so just hoping against hope our wee bean will hold on!
I'm also hoping big time for lots more BFPs for you girls! Honestly don't know how I would have got through the last few days without you!
I have been thinking about your post a lot, Rosa, too and if I hadn't been in meltdown mode I would have written before. There have been so many times over the last few years when I have gone through really low points and I really related to what you said. I have often wondered whether to give up trying but in the end I have carried on because, at the end of the day, that still made me feel better than calling it a day. I am sure it is different for everybody and only you can know what is best, but I wanted to say that there is nothing that you have told me that makes me think you will not have a baby. In fact, I absolutely think it will happen if you can possibly carry on trying. I know how completely horrible it is but we are all here to support each other and happy ending seem to come to most people in the end. I think you should concentrate on having fun this Christmas and not worry about being too good with wine and caffeine etc! I got preggers this time when my other half was just out of hospital with a serious chest infection and I was ovulating five days early! I thought I was definitely out so drank loads of wine and full caffeine cappuccinos and it worked out. I was also off the aspirin and pred until I got my BFP.
If you ever feel like a one to one chat I am about for a coffee too. I live in East Lothian but work in Edinburgh. Defo go and see my acupuncturist too! She is so lovely!
I am just heading back to the thread to check when you are all testing this month. My phone won't let me read and post at the same time! Here is to all of our dreams coming true this Christmas! Xxxx

Meant to say, big and huge thank yous to all of you! You really did make the whole run up to the scan so much more bearable! I checked mumsnet before I went to see Dr S this morning and told DH about all of your lovely messages, xxxx

That's wonderful news! So happy for u :) xxx

Thank you Trying!! Hopefully this will be your month. It took me six months the time before this to get pregnant which was majorly frustrating. Have you decided to take pred and aspirin again next month or just from BFP? Xx

Ahhh Hope, that's amazing news I am so happy for you xxx

Hope being. Little hormonal I had a little tear but pure pure happiness and joy for you! That's wonderful news xx

Thank you so much Dildoos and Determined! Honestly, I was a complete wreck! But today was a really good day for us after too much sadness!! Now, I'm sending all my positive and best vibes for your BFPs! Xxxx