ttc after mc- the best shit place to be! #2

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Roll up roll up... onto a new thread. Keep those lucky bfp' s coming and unmumsnetty hugs all round.

Oh daisy! Huge congratulations xx

That's great news NewEra. Congratulations. Also to Daisy, it really is wonderful to feel there might be a future baby for us all.

Welcome to Stick and hello again to everyone else, it's been busy and I haven't posted much lately.

I was handed a baby at a party on Sat and just froze, I couldn't really look at him. I had met him before when he was only a few days old and I was pregnant so the contrast of emotions was too much.

I think I might have ovulated in the last couple of days but I haven't been able to bring myself to dtd since it all happened. So we will wait until next cycle I guess. I haven't even checked to make sure I get a negative pg test despite buying some. I stopped taking folic acid too which was stupid but I avoid anything that reminds me of the situation. I am ok as long as I can pretend nothing has happened.

Oh daisy I'm so happy for you. Makes me feel a bit more hopeful for the rest of us.

I'm going to POAS first thing tomorrow, I'm expecting to be drowning my sorrows in a few glasses of bubbles at Christmas. Not feeling very positive about it, I've bought loads of soft and blues cheeses for a cheeseboard to go with the yummy port . Trying to find a silver lining

That's awesome news Daisy - you must be so relieved.

Lovely news daisy Congrats!

So day 15 now of 2nd cycle after MC and I'm spotting again same as last week. FFS. I don't remember this happening with the first. Has anyone else experienced this?

Thanks to fifi and guy who replied last week! Just worried it might be another infection.

BFN for me this morning, should gave been 32 weeks at Christmas and instead not even pregnant at all.

I'm comfort baking and waiting for the chaos when my family all arrive on this afternoons ferry.

Trying to focus on what I have rather than what I've lost cause I'm so lucky in lots of ways, but you ladies know how tonight that is to do.

I'm not even tempted to do a test because I have zero symptoms of pregnancy and I just can't handle a BFN, even though we weren't officially trying this month. AF due on NYE so I'm just going to wait for that to arrive which I'm 99% sure it will. Although I think FF have naffed up the AF due date as so far I've had 26 day cycles

Thanks for the welcome. I guess I'll just need to see what the GP is prepared to do. First challenge is to remember to turn up to the appointment - my head is mince today for some reason. I'll investigate private options too - we're a very long way from London, so options will be limited if that route seems wise.

Congratulations to those with BFPs, and hope the next 8 months are utterly uneventful.

I'm trying to convince myself that it's a good thing not being pregnant at Christmas, because then I can drink, eat pâté and blue cheese and so on. It's not really working though. Last year I was pregnant at Christmas and didn't know it - theoretically could be this year too, but I'm working on not getting my hopes up.

Gr33dyeggs I have no idea about spotting, but know that post-mc cycles can be up the spout for a while so it might just be one of those things. I'd get to the GP though if you're worried - better to be checked out and reassured than leave something that might then become more of a problem.

Morning all
well today signals the end of my tww and wtf cycle :-(
The positive is that is back on track for my original cycle.
Gutted, feels like I really have to accept that I am not pregnant anymore for some reason, even though ERPC was 11/11..
DH not going to be impressed that he has to perform again...happy christmas :-(
Good luck to everyone else x

Enormous hugs Hadepop - I found the first AF after both my losses to be the most difficult (they felt so final) so can totally relate with how you feel.

I hope you manage to make the most of not being pregnant over Christmas (I for one am looking forward to sipping champagne and eating soft cheese), and that your 2015 ttc journey is short and sweet.

Daisy That's lovely news I am so so happy for you!

Sorry I haven't been on much so hope you lovely ladies are well.

I'm just really struggling atm I don't feel like I can get through Christmas without a BFP :( I am only around 9dpo but was hoping for a miracle BFP but nope... couldn't have been a whiter test not even the faintest of faint line to obsess over :( I had so many symptoms (and still having twinges/mini cramps and lower back ache) but I think everything else was just in my head. My OH is trying to keep me positive that its too early and even if we are out this month its not the end of the world... but you know how hard it is im sure :(

I can't get my little angel baby out my head either :( should have been a happy Christmas with a little bump not all these sad horrible feelings.

Gah, sorry for the self-indulgent post! How is everyone else doing??

Thank you everyone

amyy I know how you feel, but if it helps, I got a BFN at 9dpo (FMU) with this one and then got a BFN at 10dpo in the morning (FMU) then decided to test in the afternoon (to torture myself) and got a faint but there BFP.. Don't give up xxxxxx

Thanks Daisy I really hope so. I was supposed to test tomorrow at 10dpo but I'm too damn impatient! I'm going to attempt to wait for af to not arrive before testing again! xx

Well swab came back normal so really wondering what this spotting, stringy type pink stuff is now.

And a colleague has just told me her daughter is expecting a baby in June :-( She hasn't told me because she didn't want me to be upset. But I am.

Hugs to us all!

daisy

((hugs for everyone))

I can't believe how fantastic and supportive this thread is. I just want to say a huge thankyou to all of you for being so bloody wonderful. I wouldn't have made it through the last few weeks without this thread.

Nearly lost it earlier when aforementioned cousin started spouting about appreciating and loving her DD more cos she struggled to get pregnant and I just wanted to scream yes it took you 9 months to get pregnant but thats a relatively normal amount of time, try being in the shoes of women who try for years and are on their umpteenth round of IVF and also you didn't conceive and then lose one so stfu... I didn't though. I disengaged and walked away. Sigh.

My best friend is arriving shortly to spend Christmas week with us and I can't bloody wait for her to get here. Baking galore and Elf for DDs us and thats our evening.

Can I join you all!! Got a BFP around 6 weeks ago and just felt in my gut something wasn't right and when I started dark drown spotting I got more anxious! Went to EPAU and after 3 weeks of scans had a blighted ovum confirmed yesterday! Had a medical miscarriage and struggling today! It all happened pretty quickly and feel really low tonight .... What's wierd is I feel like a good cry but no tears are coming!!! :-( rubbish time of year and my best friend who was the only person to know is also 9weeks so feel like I can't explode it all onto her!!!

Terrified about the thought of TTC again and all your posts seem so supportive so thought I'd write down how I feel and get it out!!

mrsfaz (hugs) I felt like that for a while - I had a cry when I woke in the middle of the night covered in blood and then didn't cry again until I saw my big sister, and then I cried a lot. In between I wanted to cry but just couldn't?!

Here for hand holding until someone wiser comes along.

Thanks cariad it is good to know im not a freak :-)
I will certainly be indulging in a few glasses as consolation xx

So sorry to hear that Mrsfaz. I do hope you're ok. I had a blighted ovum too and also felt weirdly like I needed to cry but just couldn't for a few days. Then I felt much better for about a month or so then felt myself getting teary again. I think it's completely normal to feel like this though. Sometimes it's like you almost don't let yourself cry as a defence mechanism but then something triggers it. Please post whenever you need to and feel free to pm me anytime (I had some lovely lovely mumsnetters to support me and it really helped)

Congrats Daisy!

What a super Xmas pressie for you daisy! Congratulations!!

Well AF has got me. That's at 10dpo making it a short cycle for me at 24 days. Pleased to not be worrying about whether to drink or not but absolutely gutted. Bah bloody humbug! Been busy baking although my chocolate log is definitely not bake off worthy!

Sorry you've ended up here mrsfaz but you're in good company here. There is no right or wrong way to be feeling. The tears will come when they're meant to. Probably at the most inconvenient time!