Hello, may I join this thread, please? (Waves to hinky
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I've been deliberating whether to ttc dc3 for just over a year now (I have a big long thread on Larger Families, if anyone is interested). I'm 32yo and we already have 2 dds aged almost 6yo and almost 3yo. Dd1 was conceived naturally after 9m: dd2 took 2 years and 6 cycles of Clomid.
I'm worried about having another ELCS (had one with dd2 and dd1 was VB) as it was textbook last time and I recovered really really well - body is in good shape and I don't know if I'll be as lucky again.
Also, we would absolutely need to move house.
But dh has now explicitly said he would like just one more, if we could. He is very sensitive to how difficult ttc was for us (especially me) last time and I know we would be okay if we didn't conceive, but I needed to hear him say he wants another. Does that make sense?
I do feel broody. Dd2 starts nursery 5 afternoons per week in September and whilst a part of me is looking forward to having that time to work, I feel sad that my days of wheeling a bundle in a pram up to school are over.
I think about having another on a daily basis and change my mind a lot, too: worried about rocking our little boat and making the wrong decision.
But then I worry I'll regret it if we don't at least try. I'll happily give it a year because if we conceived straight away there would be 3.7y between dd2 and dc3. One year would give a 4.7y gap. I wouldn't want more than 5y between dd2 and dc3 as there's just over 3y between dds 1&2.
So, I got AF yesterday and am due to OV again around Feb 18th. Just need to get the courage to try but not 'try'! 