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A group of lovely ladies who've seen it all

I dropped off the thread and then couldn't find it! Are we all ok?

It has been quiet on here, hasn't it, fox? How are you doing?

That all sounds positive cos.

critter how is digger Doug?

joy how are you bearing up through all the waiting?

Cos - I am glad you have some other things to concentrate on whilst your body really gets back to normal. Will be interested to hear how you get on with the herbs.

Nelly - have you started downregging?

Fox - are you in?

I'm sort of ok thanks euro. Had cramps on thurs and had a small amount of stuff that came out. Cue getting home and uncontrollable tears. I've decided to get a blood test tomorrow because I'm not sure anything else is actually going on. Already started crying about the results before I've even done the test. Wondering whether progesterone is just prolonging the inevitable. So hard to stay positive with my history.

I'm so sorry critter that you didn't get the result that you deserved. I so, so hope that your relative's premonition of an October baby comes true. Thinking of you. X

Joy Aw, I wish that this was plain sailing for you. So sorry to hear about the worry and the tears today. How are you feeling now? Massive good luck with the blood test tomorrow, I will be thinking about you. Hugs for you too.

cos I'm glad that your Chinese doc has made you feel positive. I am watching this space with interest.

Waves to everyone

Joy oh love it is so scary, you poor thing. I can only repeat the advice that made me feel better, that you are doing everything right. I hope the blood test brings you some solid reassurance and in the meantime I will be sending sticky thoughts your way with every hopeful fibre of my being.

Cos the new Chinese doc sounds fab. I think Chinese medicine and acu actually have a lot in them. And really good to be doing it for the next couple of months to get yourself into good shape, who knows, hopefully everything will click before another ivf round is on the cards, and if you do end up cycling you will be in the best shape. I always wonder whether Chinese herbs would have brought my periods back (acu didn't) but at this stage I can't go to my ivf doc and tell him 'I ate a dragon tongue, hope that's ok'.)

Euro thank you for saying such nice things. we pick up Doug tomorrow, I am excited!

Fox how are you? I went to the purl soho shop yesterday and thought of you and of pout. It was amazing. They are so incredibly nice. Bought lots of wool. Going to try to knit a hedgehog.

Ray any sign of AF yet?

I'm back for a scan tomorrow to gear up for the next cycle. Pleased to be moving forwards. Feel eh about the chance of it working but v grateful to have the frosties.

Pout - how are you doing?
Critter - I am glad you can crack on again with the FET so quickly. I hope you've been ok and had a good wedding this weekend.

Girls, Sorry to panic on here. I am trying not to make such a drama out of this and trying to put faith in nature but when there are no symptoms. Or the ones I did have have disappeared it just seeds the imagination. I tried to go and get a blood test this morning but I needed a referral which I don't have. So I am not getting one after all. Feel better already that I don't have to face the truth.

joy don't be silly, you aren't being dramatic at all, don't ever think that. Of course you are fretful, everyone of us here would be too. We are your friends and you should never feel like you are being dramatic 'cos that's not what we are thinking of you I can't believe that you couldn't get a blood test today though I understand your relief too. What does Roy think?

Critter A knitted hedgehog sounds so cute. I wish I could do more than just the one stitch in a straight line. I feel so guilty in that I have got a load of fancy wool (Sirdir Squiggle in lovely pinks) that I was supposed to knit into a blanket last year for the couch and still haven't started. I was bloody fanatical about bidding on this wool on ebay because I simply just had to have it and was simply itching to get knitting
When do you pick up Doug? You will be using the hoover a lot! My two aren't speaking at the moment, they are having one of their falling outs. They won't even be in the same room as eachother sigh

fox How are you doing, are you feeling more positive about things? I have got your cold! My nose is so blocked that my whole face is solid and it is doing funny things to my sense of smell. I keep smelling truly awful things like vomit and wee????!!!! Quite extraordinary seeing as I have smothered it in Vicks Vapour rub.

Joy, don't feel silly, because you aren't being silly at all. Ten plussers can't have the luxury of thinking all will be fine even when it is. I think so long as you're not bleeding then cramps, lack of symptoms or anything else don't tell you anything. Those are normal things in early pregnancy. I'm sure not everyone gets symptoms and it's still such early days.

Pout. What have they fallen out about?

Critter. So exciting about Doug? Have you bought him any little treats?

joy I am sorry that you are not having an easy ride. My clinic only does one HCG test as standard, but I wanted a second one to make sure levels are rising, so I asked them to give me a form and they did (I had to pay for the test, of course). I remember clearly being where you are. It was over Xmas/New Year and I was terrified. I was sure that the scan would show a blank screen. I was stunned that there was anything there. I'd had more pregnancy symptoms in my mc pregnancy than I did in the one that worked out.

What is the next step? Do you have an early scan booked in?

critter your luck really has to change soon. Maybe you will join me in getting 4th time lucky!

I bet Doug will love the knitted hedgehog.

pout the doggy strop sounds hilarious. I've never heard of pets falling out like that.

Pout - thank you so much for being so kind. I am sorry to hear about your cold. The smells you can smell don't sound nice.

Ray - thanks as well. How are you doing?

Critter - good luck with doug today. That is going to be so much fun. There are charities in London where you can adopt blind dog puppies too but you only have Them for weekends and during the week you can pick them up after work and drop them off before work everyday. But they require gardens which scuppered our plan at the time.

Euro - thanks so much for reassurance. It is good to know that success can come when you're not expecting it and no symptoms too. I remember all to well what you went through and it didn't sound positive at the time but now look.

So I did actually get a blood test through my NHS clinic. Roy sorted it out. I don't think I will hear anything today. They said it wouldn't tell me that much just whether pos or neg but I think it does need to be a reasonable level at 5+4.

Hey ladies,

joy that's great you got a test. It is a really, really worrying time but there is nothing more you can do to control the outcome. We all know how stressful this is, so definitely don't worry about venting here for one instant!

Pout that is funny about your two dogs falling out! I pick up Doug tonight so won't be able to update until tomorrow your time. I hate hoovering but I also am quite house proud so I reckon I'll have to up my hoovering game... or pay for a cleaner!

ray how are you? No sign of AF? It must be imminent surely?

Went back to the clinic and I think I should be able to start the process again, with a transfer around the last week of October. I feel ok, not particularly hopeful about this round, but glad to be getting on with it right away. This is just such a bloody marathon, I'll be so happy when I don't have to think about TTC stuff any more, and it's been hard to see MrC suffering this week - we were at a wedding over the weekend which always throws a spotlight on our misfortune, lots of heavily pregnant friends we hadn't seen for a while who were pretty awkward around us. Distractions are the name of the game for sure.

critter Hurrah at another October cycling.
I'm fairly house proud too but have resigned myself to an inevitable & continual fine smattering of dog hair. You might be okay with Doug. Mine have an undercoat that sheds. The hair literally billows off them when they walk. Big Dog is a bit intense and unhinged and gets the arse on with little dog from time to time. It will probably be something stupid like too much sofa time or too much choking (Little Dog does fake chokes when he wants to get rid of Big Dog because he knows that choking freaks Big Dog out).

Is the hedgehog for Doug?

joy I am so glad that you had a blood test in the end. Good on Roy for sorting it out. Do you think you will get the result tomorrow?

pout I am pissing myself about the dogs, the one Barry sees near you is on Elm Grove Rd :)

joy This is such a rollercoaster and you are hardly dramatic about it, its still early days for symptoms, is there an EPAU you can go to??? I believe when your HCG is around 2,500 then they can scan you as they will be able to see things. Fingers crossed for you

critter Doug looks fab, you do get used to be covered in animal hair, a good lint roller is a must. Sorry the wedding was ackward but yay to cycling this month, I was having a tidy up of some of my craft stuff and found some lovely wool I bought from Purl bee, I think it was for my knee blanket :)

Room for a newbie???
I'm 32 and TTC 22months - Only just starting out on the scary road of finding out why!

Hi KL, it's a scary road indeed but you will find support invaluable from these amazing women

Joy I am so hoping you get good HCG numbers. I've got no experience here so will let others reassure you (particularly Euro's experience with Centime) but I also love the reminder that you are doing everything right. There is nothing more you can do. Which is terrifying but somehow liberating at the same time

Cos, herbs sound interesting. I've always stayed clear for some reason. But every so often I think about acu, as my "best" IVF was the only one I did it.

Fox glad you found us. I'm so looking forward to next weekend yet must find a location

Critter bet you are excited about hairy Doug . I looked up his profile and melted a little. I am glad you can cycle again soon. We might even be buddies if my cycle goes to rough plan.

Pout I hope the stand-off resolves soon! And that you feel better.

Buzz, love the pics on t'other place.

So yes am now on steroids. Not having too much insomnia except the first night when I lay awake half the night worrying in case I got insomnia . Have been feeling a bit stressed but that might be unrelated. DR later in the week. Usually my clinic did the Prostap in the bum. For those who've done these, can you manage yourself or will I need Mr N? I'd rather do it myself if possible. Hopefully this won't be too difficult as I didn't really notice any symptoms in previous cycles. Not wild about the clexane, not sure when that starts though. To be honest I'm continuing Ostrich impression. I like this way best.

Hoping for good news for Joy tomorrow. Sorry for everyone I've missed. Oh, Sea has likely popped by now. Any news?

Hello everyone,

KL has given me the courage to post here for the first time, I figured being one of two newbies will be less scary! I've been lurking for a while, so I'm starting to worry it's getting a bit creepy...! sorry!

We've been TTC for almost 40 months now. Got our first proper IVF appointment 2 weeks on Friday, and I'm not sure I can contain my excitement about the fact that it's literally days away now! Not entirely sure what's going to happen, they told me on the phone I should be able to start treatment in January, so I don't quite know what happens between now and then!

So yes, hello all, I'm looking forward to getting to know you :)

Nelly - having had insomnia , I doubled my dose and now I don't have it. I think your mind can play all sorts of tricks. I am not sure what prostrap is but i have been doing gestone in the bum without Roy. It's easier if they are around to help mind you. Clexane is fine. Just ice the area before doing it. It's odd how normal it becomes. But you're on the road now which is great. Ostrich is best though.

Buzz - thank you, it's still so nice having support from those on the other side.

Critter - I am so pleased you can crack on at the end of the month. It has every chance of working.

KL - welcome. You've come to the right place. Are you starting out with tests now?

, Found out this evening my level is 12000 so that seems very high for 25dpo. I am hoping that is a good sign and not indicative of a molar pregnancy where levels can rise very quickly. Anyway as critter says there isn't anything I can do. I will be reassured by this instead. This does feel like Mount Everest though.

Could it be twins, joy?

Welcome toes and kl.

I'm in a slump today. Af has arrived, so exactly 14 days after missed ec. I won't be able to do this month, so peed off about that and I think hormone crash has left me feeling a bit weepy.

Waves to everyone, will post again when I'm out of the tent.

Toes - welcome and sorry to hear you have also been at this such a long time. I think most of us on here have been trying for at least 4 years and have done at least several rounds of ivf . That's great you can get going in Jan though

Oh ray I am sorry about the crash. And that you can't do it this month. The tent is awful and I hope it passes soon.

Toes and KL, welcome welcome! This is seriously the loveliest board. It is really nice to have newbies though, I'm so glad you joined us! KL it is bloody scary but we will hand hold throughout and it really helps to have people to talk to about it all and obsess over it with.

toes I lurked for ages before posting too! That's great that you've got your first IVF round coming up. It is a tough road but we'll be here to support you. January isn't far off, I guess you could just focus on getting yourself in as best shape as possible before then?

ray aw honey I am so sorry. It just sucks, this endless waiting. Did the clinic say they definitely couldn't make the timings work this time? Ugh it totally sucks. Sending you chocolate and .

nelly yay for a potential cycle buddy! We've been cycle buddies before and hopefully this will be a better round. Ostrich is the perfect approach.

joy that is awesome HCG. It sounds normal to me if the numbers just double every 48 hours. Although twins would be fun!

pout Like buzzy I too laughed out loud at the fake choking description, that is so weird and also hilarious. I am even chuckling to myself now rereading it. Too funny.

So Doug is ensconced and spent the day quietly sleeping in his crate. I took him for a walk around the park this morning and he was very well-behaved, he only got excited when he met a girl French bulldog and barked excitedly a few times. He is super sweet and gentle, and I think his previous owner may have hit him as the one time I chided him (very mildly) for chewing on MrC's headphones he immediately cowered and rolled on his back to show his belly in super submissive pose. Hoping to build up his confidence a bit.

Also joy now I think of it, when I was miscarrying at 5+4 my HCG was around 3,500. So I reckon it's twins!

Oh critter I hope no one ever hit doug before. It makes my heart bleed when I hear that kind of thing. So pleased he has gone to a loving home. He is just gorgeous. Is it nice having a new focus?
My levels didn't hit 12000 until I was well over 7 weeks last time and that was twins....Just hope whatever is happening is normal and healthy.

Joy I think you definitely need to take comfort from those numbers! I would love Ray's theory to be true.

Hi Toes. Glad you braved joining us, I promise we are lovely. :) We can seem a tight group as we've all been here so long, but please (all newbies) keep posting, ask if you don't understand references or acronyms we use, and join in the chat. We've all been through tough times so we aren't fake enthusiasm and bunny dust (which I guess is obvious!) but it's a priceless support.

The Prostap is the DR drug. Ok will probably give it a go myself.

Ray I am so sorry you are down. Not surprising, post IVF periods are the worst. So much hope. But the hormone crash won't be helping so allow yourself a wallow. Wine, chocolate, whatever feels like 2 fingers up. Get the heating cranked up in the tent x

Cross post Critter. Animal cruelty makes me RAGE. I hope poor Doug hasn't been on the receiving end :(.

Wouldn't it be lovely to be cycle buddies. Maybe even beyond the cycle .