Come one, come all: hop onboard the penis dragon bus and hold on tight for your BFP in April! PART 2!!

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Here we go, all aboard!!

Hopping over but I need about an hour to catch up on today's posts!! Hope everyone's doing ok!

x-post! And I'm January too! Must be a good sign

Last two cycles when I have used CB Digis, Treacle, positive OPK was on the 9th day and I do feel nausea whenever I ovulate (progesterone surge) so that is a good sign. Keep checking the two lines when you take the sticks out and you may watch one of the lines getting darker, which is also a good sign. What CD are you now?

Glad you're doing well Sazzle!! Can't believe 15 weeks have passed! That's gone so quick!! Keep us updated! It's nice seeing familiar faces popping back!

If give my left arm for a twirl right now!! I've become a real chocoholic! Wish it was a sign ...

Thanks Kitty, I'm cd16 :( but last month didn't get peak until cd17 so fingers crossed.
We have been at it like rabbits (compared to normal) so getting tired haha.

Thanks guys for not telling me to feck off. I'm wishing I never pressed enter on that post. I want to make friends not enemies!

I'm also 33 (34 next week, boo). And I'm also on the 10month plus board to chat to others in the same boat. I do like the chatter and positivity of the buses tho so I'd like to hang with you guys.

I'm currently feeling really sorry for myself. Been putting on a normal everything's fine front for just too long and now I feel like I'm falling apart. 17months since I stopped contraception and my body is just getting weirder each month making me feel like its never going to happen. Started off regular but since Sept 2013 been getting varied cycles and more spotting. I was spotting from cd21 last cycle and still spotting now on cd6 of this. So nearly 2 weeks of spotting/bleeding.

Started getting tests and got an appointment with GP on April 15th to discuss results and what we try next. We are still dtd and all the timing stuff in the hope that I am normal after all but having a really bad time just now. This is my story and I hope it goes someway to explaining my current frustration and frame of mind :-(

Wow. Close Friend just texted to say she is pregnant and due end of October. My EDD was 1st November. Torn between feeling so happy for her but feeling crushed. We would have been pregnant buddies together and had no idea each other was TCC. Going to take another hot bath now and overload it with Champneys bath bubbles. Oh these things are sent to try us!!!!!!!!!

How heavy is the spotting, victoria? No wonder you are feeling so bad - you poor poor thing! I have heard that you can bleed and spot but actually be pregnant. My own birth mother didn't know she was pregnant with me until 6 months (hence she had to have me!) Sometimes pregnancy tests don't pick up anything. April 15th does sound like quite a way away so lots of virtual hugs and hopefully, MrsE will be around and tell you another funny story to cheer you up. The woman is a legend

Know how that feels Kitty ... CRAP!! Everytime I speak to my friends it's a reminder of the milestones I should have been reaching.
Enjoy your bath... I long for a bath, we just have a shower in the place we're renting!

No bath!? But but but...what??!!

Victoria, sorry you're feeling down, I really hope the doc can help with the next step for you when you see him on the 15th and fx you get your bfp soon

Sazzle....15weeks!!! Wow, that has flown by! You must be showing now yes? Not long till your 20week scan, will you be finding out the sex?

I think in going to leave the bus for a few days. I love these busses and have found them to be great as I don't have anyone else to talk to about the trials an tribulations of ttc as we are keeping it very private.

I haven't read all of today's posts but I never thought I'd see the day when one of the passengers took their frustrations out on the others on the bus.

Every single person on this bus is on their own journey, with their own problems and ups and downs. All of which are of equal importance. For everyone of us it is equally as heartbreaking when AF arrives. We all have our own worries and insecurities and every month whether you have been trying for one month or twenty your little bundle of joy just seems to get further away.

I come here to be with like minded people who have an idea of what I am going through. I cannot pretend to know exactly what each lady on here is going through and I don't expect anyone to fully understand my unique circumstances either but I do like reading about people's ups and trying to support other ladies and offer sympathy and support where I can. I like being able to share my ups and downs and have a giggle along the way.

I myself have waited 3 years for my health to be good enough to ttc again and I feel as if I am on a deadline before it declines again. My journey to the point of being able to ttc has been painful and tough and now every month feels like a lifetime of waiting and when every AF arrives I feel like I am literally flushing another potential baby down the loo. It breaks my heart.

I am very upset right now, for myself and for all the ladies on this bus who are finding it hard and are having to deal with such insensitivity. By all means take your frustrations out here about ttc, AF, men, the weather, or whatever but do not take it out on the friends you have here who will always have a kind word, a shoulder to cry on and or for you when things are tough. We're the ones who are on your side.

Sorry for the rant and epically long post. I'm going to find some chocolate and my duvet and am bedding down for a few days.

Good luck guys x

Hello everyone!

Anyone remember me?

We're at the start of the dreaded tww, so thought it was time to catch up with all of you lovely ladies.

Have I missed any bfps?

I know Kitty... What the actual hell!!

Poly, don't leave. The buses are exactly for what you are saying. Support, help and friendship. I really don't think that anyone is implying that their own journey is any worse than anyone else's. Sometimes at really low points you say things that don't necessarily come out in the way it's intended. Besides... You're the original penis dragon!
Hope you feel better and decide to continue on your journey with us, we'll happily boot you off with a cheer when you get your bubba! Sending you a big hug

Nooooooooooo Poly don't go!!! We need the dragon lady onboard

to everyone feeling rubbish.

Today I have mostly been eating... pineapple core!

Poly, don't go! We need the penis dragons! :)

It is a hard time we are all going through and that has to come out some way.

I've been re-reading the bbt part of "Taking charge of your fertility". Feel ready to start temping now but not really any point til next cycle. I so want a December baby though :(

Which I mean as I want a baby asap... Not that it has to be December :p

Poly.....you're spot on with what you said. We all come here to support each other through this journey and we all have our own stories and difficulties in life....please don't go

Poly I hope you don't go.
What you've said is so true and I agree. Please stay so we can continue to support you and you support us.

Its me that should leave, I've caused this and I'm really sorry. I never meant anyone to get hurt by what I said. I'm an idiot. Worse than an idiot, I can't think of a bad enough thing to be. I really am truly truly sorry. You have no idea how sorry. I hate upsetting people and I'm sat here with tears uncontrollably running down my face. I'm not saying that for sympathy either, its true and I am filled with regret and remorse. So so sorry

Sorry for the dramatics ladies. I'm not going indefinitely but I am going to keep myself to myself for a couple of days. I seem to be very hormonal this month, I've had a tough 24 hour and I'm in for a really hard weekend when I know I'm not feeling too emotionally balanced.

Victoria I didn't mean to upset you! I was just a bit upset myself and wanted to air my feelings and hoped that everyone would see the value in everyone else's own individual trials. I think the 4 or 5 month thing just hit a nerve with me because even though I am on cycle 4 actually it has been a much longer journey and I am finding this to be a very stressful process. I hope you are ok and can find some comfort from the amazing ladies that I love on this bus. We do all need a rant sometimes, I do understand. Sorry for making you cry, I truly didn't want to cause you any more pain.

Thank you for all your kind words ladies. You are all amazing and strong and beautifully loving. I wish I could take you all out for a or two! I am going to disappear for the evening and maybe a day or two to try to get my own head together (it's swimming with negativity today). I hope I come back to a few more BFPs x

Ok as the oldest on the bus I feel I should take the motherly role here and tell you girls that nobody and I mean nobody is leaving here without their BFP's you can however, like Poly is going to do, have a timeout whenever you feel the need, it's an emotional rollercoaster this ttc and we all need our own head space at times and a good old moan about it all but there will be no falling out or it's smacked bottoms and groundings all round And Poly you really don't want to take me for any I'd drag you all into a strip club, lol...

You'd better come back with the biggest penis dragon, Poly!!!

I couldn't cope without all of you-it would just be me and my thoughts and I am sure my head would explode! My DH is not a "talker".

This may sound a little strange, but has anyone ever felt their pulse/heartbeat in their stomach? Currently staring at my tummy and I swear it is "pumping" up and down to my heart beat. Must be to do with my mammoth AF I feel like a walking waterfall.

Hubby is asking me why I have tear streaked face. I said I didn't know.... I can't say coz I've fallen out with people on a forum I've never even met. He'll think I'm even more crazy than he must do already. He really is a saint putting up with me at the moment.

I hope I can start a new here?

Hang on a minute! I pop out for the evening and come back to polythenegirl jumping off the bus! STOP right right where you are!!! Nobody is leaving!

Can I just say I don't think I've ever fitted in with a bunch of lovely ladies before and you know I damn well value everybody here. I've always felt a but judged before and actually feel I fit in. I know we are all different of course but everybody has their own story.

In the words of scarlet o hara "tomorrow is another day" and in the words of mrs extra, "let's remember why we jumped on the bus in the first place" where's the wine?