The Berries: Projecting the sausage signal and chasing rainbows whilst chanting FUFC in the hunt for that elusive BFP (thread 19)

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Berries have a strict entrance criteria (TTC #1, over 30, TTC for 12+months, NO instadiffers, must have a special pot and def no mention of baby dust or baby dancing UGH !!! Ooooh aren’t we strict!

Ps sorry to anyone/everyone I missed, my ipad is an arsehole and doesn't like me scrolling back up!

Pps when does nolly get back from holibobs?

RainDrops, we will see about the will of iron...you are talking to the bride who ordered a dress half a size too small and didn't lose even one pound before her wedding! But since I will be not working and at home with the puppy, I'm hoping we can just nap the hunger away.

otters hope u r ok.

rosie counselling was mentioned in our pack but it's not the kind of thing my dh would go for. I think the most important thing is to keep talking to each other. I found sometimes this would happen more naturally if we were out for a walk, drink, drive or having a lie in. My dh has always said the thing he's most scared of is if it doesn't work how I would be. He doesn't want it to destroy me and hence drive something between us. Tbh it has been ok and like you I was really worried about the effect it would have on us but it's totally doable,just keep talking and keep doing stuff together that's not baby/ttc centred. It does unite you as a couple as you're both going through it together and, if like us you keep it on the low, it's your little secret. I'm obviously not all the way through it yet and if we get a negative I think that'll be really hard to deal with, especially as men and women deal with things so differently but we'll cross that bridge when we come to it and hopefully keep trying. I think if it's unsuccessful after a few times that's when you have to reevaluate your priorities,relationship etc and hopefully if you've always kept your focus on your relationship as well as ttc then hopefully there's enough left afterward. I know dh and I are v tight as we have known each other a long time and this ttc thing is a new addition to a long standing, solid relationship. we're very used to it being the two of us. I would imagine if you've always been very centred on having children and through your time together if that's been a bigger part of your time then it would be very difficult. The thing is none of us know what to expect or how our feelings will change. Take me back 2 years I would have said there's no way I'm doing Ivf!! Stuff changes a lot. Anyhow, enough navel gazing!

rp the one year anniv is poo! I cried. Ours was NYE and I remember a year before being so keen and excited and then the night before NYE a year later I just silently cried myself to sleep. I then proceeded to get grade a wasted on NYE, I mean absolutely wasted!! I think it was my way of coping with it and saying f it! The 2 year was sad but we'd started our investigations etc so wasn't as bad,still sad, esp when my cousin announced at Christmas. My dear mother saw fit to tell me when we were out at a family dinner at the bloody dinner table and she knew we'd been trying a long time. I remember being so angry about it. I have a book, bit like a diary, that I write in sometimes,well I tell you I flipping vented in that one!!

Flipping eck, what the hell is cervical erosion!!

Back at work today, ok but am bloated and sore! Also got some brown blood going on.

Oh re will of iron- fair play! From ec to now I've pretty much demolished a Lindt bunny, caramel bunny things and maltesers

Hi Berries!

Phone battery dying and I've missed loads - HQ is crazy busy at the moment - I can't keep up!

lady got EVERYTHING crossed for a sticky bean!

bushy great news on EC - hope transfer goes well and also have everything crossed for you.

otters hope all is ok and that line has got stronger.

rosie get those vits down him! My oh swears by Royal Jelly. Lovely new name btw - glad you're back!

barking welcome home and woo hoo for things moving on the IUI front!

rp ttc anniversaries suck. So do should-have-been-due-dates and mine is hurtling towards me like a hurricane.

Nowt to report here. CD10 and got a faint line on an opk last night. Will try again shortly and see what gives. Have kinda given up on ttc till after the wedding, which is way too soon for comfort. I'm dreaming of wedding favours and missing shoes at the moment, which makes a change from baby dreams.

feather I'm CD10 too! When's your EDD? Mine is June 6th - it's so shit. I genuinely hoped I might have been one of the lucky ones who gets re-diffed soon after a MC. What a fool!

rain edd would have been July 6. And me too re diffed post ectopic hopes, but I'm just pleased to be finally ovulating on my own! So pleased to have a cycle buddy!

Oh cervical erosion is not that bad, though I agree it sounds horrid!

I have / had it and had mid month bleeding.

Basically some skin or whatever breaks or is thin around the cervix and bleeds a bit I thought the GP meant at first my cervix was actually eroding, as in Norfolk cliff stylee, but no, just a bit of blood!

Hi all, do you have room for another berry? I am 34, ttc #1 since nov11, unexplained, starting long protocol ivf this month, DR drugs due to start on 19th May with EC/ET in week of 23rd June. Anyone else on similar times? Congrats to those getting married this year, exciting times. Have not managed to read all this thread but will do my best to keep up going forward

Hi Lumen, welcome to Berry HQ although sorry you find yourself here. We have a couple of berries Lady and Bushy who are just about to finish long protocol IVF and we are waiting with everything crossed for the results. I think HB is mid IVF and Barking about to start IUI any day now. I'm sure there are a couple of other berries due to start though so you're in excellent company.

Welcome Lumen! Berrie HQ is up to the gills in ivf-ers at the moment who will know doubt have more info about it than me.

gill how are you??

Hi Lumen!

Hi lumen& welcome. I've just had my ec,waiting for call tomorrow to find out whether it'll be tomorrow et or Sunday.

Hi lumen and welcome! (Although it sounds like you might not be here long!! ). Are you a Dexter fan by any chance??

Hi Lumen and welcome, these berries are ace so you are in the right place

Because your green juice sounds v similar to my brekkie smoothie which is almond milk, spinach, raspberries or strawberries or similar and a bit of organic greens detox powder - it's really nice although it looks rank! I've totally been back on coffee and carby crap as well though

Feather and Rain thinking of you guys, it must be a really tough time I'm cd8 today!

Bushy fx for tomorrow, will be waiting to hear how you get on.

I've applied for a new job. Nearly had a little breakdown this afternoon at work and just can't do it anymore. It was quite a last min application as it closed today and I only found it at half 8 so the form probably wasn't as good as it needs to be but it's a start. Fx anyway!

Shall we do a new list??

Oh my god i hate computers. I forgot my password so although have been catching up with the news (so exciting!) have been stuck outside in manner of poor dying victorian urchin looking into warm family room.

ANyway - hi ladybros! I am back from australia (sidenote: although week 1 rather stressful (family wedding) week 2 was lovely and yet damn AF arrived this am) and has been so nice to read all the good news re IVFers, weddingers and of course otters. fingers crossed for you otters.

interesting being away, i decided not to bother with temping etc which was nice- it's such a reminder isn't it, every day oh hallo a reminder of my "unexplained subfertility" thank you world. Also - as someone said on the page before, i forget who sorry - it's so nice it being just me and dp, really i woudl be fine with it. but he woudl be sad. but it's nice to know that life can be good childfree (something that seems much more plausible the week bfore AF due i have to say)

returned home to 3 baby announcements and nephew's 1st birthday invitation - we started ttc just before SIL announced pregnancy so bit of a whammy there. other people eh? dreadful.

I am starting a new job next week which involves commuting a 2.5 hr train journey so not sure what our chances are for the summer. should i bother with the clomid is the question. basically i couldn't sleep for the days i was taking it, and it seems to have shortened my LP by a few days. very odd.

Hallo to new people too! now am back and as you can see jetlagged i will probably be around a bit more...;)

good idea list beaky

Nolly, 32, ttc 19 months, unexplained infertility, PCO though who knows, clomid cycle 2 as of today.

Ooo, beaky good luck for the job application! . I should get more details today of the job I've been offered. We did the sums last night and we could survive on a ridiculous salary cut and DH is supportive - said if it will make me happy I should do it...

Welcome lumen .

New list!!!!

barkingtreefrog 34 (for one more month), ttc since Jan 2012. Clomid bfp, mc sept 13. Starting IUI possibly this weekend?!

Sorry, nolly, x-post! I didn't temp or opk in NZ, it was actually nice to just have a break - although now when I'm impatiently waiting for AF to show and all the signs were there that I would start this morning (and haven't) I'd like to know how many dpo I am now!!

barkingtreefrog 34 (for one more month), ttc since Jan 2012. 8 day LP. Clomid bfp, mc sept 13, cycles messed up since. Starting IUI possibly this weekend?!
Nolly, 32, ttc 19 months, unexplained infertility, PCO though who knows, clomid cycle 2 as of today.

Hi Nolly and welcome to Lumen!

All the best for today Bushy. HB are you in today for scan?

Rain and feather. My first due date has been and gone (9 march) and now 2nd one getting closer (25 July) I absolutely thought I'd be proper diffed by then, but looking increasingly unlikely. That same weekend I'm meant to be on sil hen weekend, organised by her friend who gave birth a few weeks ago and will have her newborn there. Get this right.... She has been told by the gp that she is dangerously overweight. Sil told me they said she was morbidly obese. Anyway, she found out that she was pregnant and it was a total surprise to her as they weren't trying. She has had no problems during the pregnancy due to her poor health. I find it hard to get my head around that I keep myself so healthy and do all the right things, yet someone can be in incredibly bad health, but easily succeed at something I'm not. How can a morbidly obese woman have a healthier, more normal body than me?! Sorry, rant over.

Happy Friday! Good luck with the new job prospects Beaky and Barking. Nolly that'll be a loooong commute. I would keep at the clomid if you can, seeing as you've only done 2 cycles so far.

Thanks for the link yesterday Lady. I was told not to take aspirin until after a bfp, so on nothing at present. have FC appt 13 may so will ask then. Also smear test is overdue so better get that booked in.

barkingtreefrog 34 (for one more month), ttc since Jan 2012. 8 day LP. Clomid bfp, mc sept 13, cycles messed up since. Starting IUI possibly this weekend?!
Nolly, 32, ttc 19 months, unexplained infertility, PCO though who knows, clomid cycle 2 as of today.
Funkymonk 32, ttc 19 months. Factor v Leiden thrombophilia. Mc July 2013 and dec 2013 (5 weeks and 8 weeks). I suspect low progesterone due to shorter LP, light af and pre af spotting, but FC say not. dh lowish count and lowish morphology.

sorry for the long post earlier. jet lag. So exciting re everyone's news. good luck with job application beaky. am so impressed with everyone's discipline with diets and detoxing. Don't' you just fall asleep in the afternoon?

also interested re all the vitamins. Thing is, royal jelly has always freaked me out feather ever since reading a roald dahl story where a baby turned into a bee. anyone else remember that?

Ps barking POAS!

Oops cross post nolly. What's this royal jelly stuff?!