Oooooo I love Vicks! Olbas oil sends me slightly loopy with a headache! I'm going to add some Vicks to my online shop.
Choccy im thinking of you. It's at times like these I think just sitting still with legs crossed for 9 months might be an option?
Was having a chat with my mum today and it reminded me of her story of having a family. I hoped it might inspire some of you who are are doubting it will happen. My parents married in the late 60s, mum got pg straight away. 6 weeks after they married my dads father died, 3 weeks after on Xmas day dads mum died, a few weeks later mum mced at 12 weeks. They lost everything within weeks and only had each other. Mum proceeded to loose a baby every year until 4 mcs. The 2nd was at 16 weeks, she nearly bled to death. The 3rd very early and the 4th at 12 weeks. In the mean time her friends were all marrying and having dc, none were sympathetic to her situation and her mum wasn't v sympathetic either.
She was lucky enough to get the brilliant care available at the time in London. They stitched her cervix as they found it in their words to be incompetent. This was following the baby lost at 16 weeks lost without medical intervention. Basically the gp was incompetent. Anyway after her cervix was stitched, bed rest for 9 months she finally had my sister in mid 70s. She had been trying for 5 years. She had to wait to 1980 before she had me as the same had to happen, going in to be stitched, bed rest etc, she needed sis at school. Then just as she was 40 she found to be PG again. Quite by surprise. Db was born at 28 weeks, 27 years ago, suffered brain bleeds, pneumonia, a disease in his gut, was in hosp for 3 months but came home perfectly well and never went back. Mum was actually offered a termination the day before he was born as they weren't sure how disabled he would be or whether he would live long. He's a pain in the arse but healthier than me! 
So mum started to have her family in her early 20s and finally got there in her early 40s.
Without medical intervention though she wouldn't have had us and she really did wonder whether she would ever have a family. But she did. It was hard work but she got there.
I've had losses but I wouldn't compare it to mums experience. For all those struggling at the moment, take the help that's available, try not to loose faith, you are not a failure.