Argh thought if never get back on. Needed the laptop not phone! But only just got message saying I had to change password!
Nobeer and bears, still thinking of you lots and smiling 
Res, hugs hun, it's so annoying having those feelings. I struggled to have DS, but didn't have the same bitterness or negativity then. Strangely, I do have it more now
it doesn't make sense to me. I hate it. It's not an easy way for me to feel. I did, however, cuddle a good friends baby (6/7 month old) today for the first time and it was lovely. Still jealous though. And more so that he sleeps through the night and eats well already and my 3.8 year old doesn't do either of those things!!!
Res/Val, hoping all is good with your linings tomo. I'm keeping everything crossed xxx