The Elderberry Pavlovas: still chasing that 'copter in the hope of a festive BFP. Thread 16 (the one where Happy was left in charge!!)

[happylass]

Here we go again.....

The smallprint –
Berries have a strict entrance criteria (TTC #1, over 30, TTC for 6+months, NO instadiffers, must have a special pot) and def no mention of baby dust or baby dancing UGH !!! Ooooh aren’t we strict!

...watches tumbleweed roll past Boodle

so what's going on? Aaaaagh!

Argh!! what have I walked in on??! :)

A little sneak preview you for you...Ba ha haaaaaaaaaaaa!

In reality, I am sat in my PJs, hair wrapped in a towel, and my nerd glasses on. Phwoar. It's a good job DH isn't here, otherwise I don't know how he'd be able to resist...

It's an old tradition, Win - if it gets quiet, get naked!

Boodle we sound like twins, I'm in PJs, glasses, wooly socks and a towel on my head! Would like to say its cos DH is away but I doubt it'd be much different if he was here

Oh yes! I forgot my socks! Not woolly though, more of a felt with funky multi-coloured patterning.

God, we're sexy.

Luckily my slanket thanks MIL hasn't made an appearance I'm wrapped in a knitted throw instead

Phwoar!!! What sexy ladies

Looking good Berries!

DP and I realised tonight that it was a year ago today we got engaged so we cracked open a bottle of bubbly. And on a school night too, hic!

I think I'd have been better off in naked berry HQ tonight than going to staff do, sitting next to bump and maternity leave woman, then returning home to more work that needed to be done by tomorrow.

Oh, and AF has arrived. Early.
for it finally turning up without needing tablets more than 3 months post mc. for it actually being here at all.

for pg colleague stroking well developed baby bump and maternity colleague showing photos of baby.

Sleepy time now.

Erg Barking well done you for being strong (or even for just pretending to be around others)! And hoping your cycle is now properly back on track so the clomid can work its magic once again!

Oh my goodness Boodle and Merk, had a proper lol moment at you two. So are the two 'no comment biscuits' supposed to be boobs? Haha! And Boodle that thread was an interesting read!

Well normally I get a week of spotting before AF arrives and it's due on Sunday, but have had absolutely none this cycle, so can't even get my hopes up even if it always is for no good reason

Hope all the teacher berries are coping with all the work that needs doing before term ends! Actually this is my busiest time of year too, but I'm still usually back home by 2pm - I feel so lazy compared to the rest of you!

Barking I know AF isn't something to celebrate but being as this cycle was clearly a crap one, its great to war your body seems to have got back with the program. FX for a Xmas BFP for you- assume you're going with the clomid again?

*to see

Hi all, wowee, now that was the longest three days at work ever!

barking great news af is starting to get back on track! And can so sympathise with the baby bumps at work getting to you. Keep strong.

boodle, merk and bunny ha! I had no idea about this tradition - the berries history runs deep by the sound of things!

Been tough being around the colleague who's told me she's preg. She's confiding in me a lot as only her mum and best friend know, I can't help but swing between being very happy for her and extreme jealousy. Does anyone have any thoughts on how to handle that?

I did another opk yesterday morning and after the faint lines I'd had it was totally blank. Not sure what's going on with my cycle and feel a bit weird about it. Got a scan booked in for Monday afternoon to check there is nothing left in my tube. . Anxious to get back in the, erm, ttc saddle now but know I have to wait till the new year.

How is everyone else?

Geez, I really know how to kill a thread!

Feather dont worry its been quiet for a few days!

Sorry your cycle isn't back to normal yet, FX it sorts itself out soon

Strip, Feather, strip. It makes people creep out of the woodwork so that they can mock you for your efforts!

Sorry about the difficulty with the pregnant colleague. No advice really - I assume she doesn't know about your difficulties? Has she any reason to worry particularly?

Bluebirdy - yeah. They were biscuit boobies. Nice, huh?

Sorry about the colleague feather, no coping tips from me I'm afraid I've no idea how to handle it either. Just got back from christmas do number two and as I walked through the door I congratulated myself for a good night with no ttc negativity.

Then I picked up my email. A really good friend who lives too far away to see very often is going to be in the same area my parents live in over Christmas and was asking if we were free to meet up. I realised the dates fell perfectly and was really pleased.
Then she went on to say she hoped the fertility stuff was all back on track again for me. And she's pregnant. She's going for her scan next week and will be putting it on fb and didn't want me to find out that way.

Now suddenly I'm in floods of tears for the second night running and I really don't want to see her at Christmas. And DP is away so it's just me in the house and it's too late to call anyone. Feeling utterly miserable.

It's not bloody fair .

Don't see her Barking - make your excuses and put it off to another time. Sometimes you just have to do what gets you through. I spent a fair amount of time, at a function this evening, running away from a new born and her smug-faced mummy.

If I don't see her then boodle the next time I see her will be my wedding. And with the other pg women dropping out that had become a bump free zone until now .
When's it my bloody turn?
I was coping, I'm sure I was, I was feeling more at ease and relaxed but now it all seems to be getting out of control. I appear to have reached my limit. I can't handle any more pg announcements I've just had enough. AF + work stress is not helping matters either.

umm, I'm not v comfortable with public nudity, but here I am!

barking sorry to hear your news. Think you have to do what feels right. I was talking to DP about my jealousy last night and he said: "you need to stop focusing on what other people have and start focussing on our journey. Expending all that energy on everyone else is a false economy. It just means you're then not in the right place in your head and heart for things to go right for us." - and he's right. Take from that what you will. Wish I had better advice but I'm in a similar canoe at the moment and I know I need to change the way I think about it all sharpish. We both got pregnant before, and there is no reason it can't happen again. Just got to keep on truckin'. x

Oooh Feather!

Re pg colleague, maybe just be honest with her and say something along the lines of 'I'm really sorry, but having tough day, and can't get my head around anything pregnancy related at the moment'. I'm sure she'll understand!

Barking for you! I suppose that is the trouble with friends our age - they tend to get pregnant! And you can't help but feel miserable and jealous. Although Feather's DP has some sage advice, and I know that is the right frame of mind to have, but sometimes I just need to wallow in a dark place for a while.

Grrr at smug-faced mummies!!