TTC 10+ months part 16

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New thread for the lovely 10+ers.

Oh shit, cross post Cos. my heart dropped like a stone when I read that. I am keeping everything very tightly crossed for you that MrC is right :(

We are here for whenever you need us. Massive sticky vibes for you and little cos xx

cos I am so sorry, its hard when things happen so early on and you have no idea what is really going on. This happened in my last pregnancy, I did have bleeding early on like a period and thought it was all over, the pregnancy did progress, i don't want to give you false hope, its a pity your EPAU are not more helpful. It comes down to a waiting game, I am incredibly impatient my fingers are crossed that all is ok for you

sea I didn't realise you were with the ARGY, the other lady I know only took the humeria, I suppose there isn't much evidence that taking intralipids for along time helps

joy they had you there 4 times in one day they need someone with OCD to go in and organise them better. Glad the pain has eased, hope you don't have to stimm for too much longer

dulcet sorry your experience with the nurse wasn't good, sometimes you just wish they would shut up and just do their job

coco Its frustrating when you are on a time limit and a month is ages to wait, sorry Mr C has changed is mind

Cos - I am so so sorry. I am still hoping that it is just implantation bleed for you. Oh I feel so so sad. Shakes fist at the fertility gods! . Pls keep us updated and know that we are all here for you. Love to you and MrC. [hugs and handhold]

Dulcet - Grrrr at your nurse. You don't need this at all. The TTC journey is crappy enough as it is. A bit of empathy and kindness goes a long way. Hugs to you.

Buzzy - Yes I am at the Argy.... We thought long and hard before deciding to go there. It's a big commitment - time and financial. I keep a spreadsheet of costs and forecast and feel enormous guilt at what we are spending. Not to mention my income has drop as I have turned down projects in anticipation of cycling there. The additional immune treatments really add up. But I am not complaining. I know we are v fortunate to be able to even go there. I just feel guilty that's all. As for intralipids. I know they prefer Humira for cytokine levels as it lasts longer - think it stays in system for 5 months while intralipids only for a few weeks. I hope you are feeling good. Are you still doing regular scans?

Nelly - How are you doing? Are you feeling well?

At work but just saw your update cos and I am so sorry . I'm not counting you out yet but can only imagine how hard it must be at such an early stage. big hugs.

Cos - sent you a pm. Hoping to god this is a horrible bleed scare and nothing else.

Buzz - yes they def need someone with OCD. Partly my own fault as I didn't have enough drugs and they kept ringing me up to inject more.

Sea - I feel the guilt too and resentment actually that most get their babies for free but I know I am so lucky to have had the chance to go there one final time thanks to a family help but still it's a massive gamble to take as it has been financially worrying.

cos Like nelly said my heart sank when I read your post. I am so sorry that this is happening and have no words of wisdom. All I can say is you will be in my thoughts today and I will be willing everything to be alright. Lots of love to you.

dulcet and coco I am sorry that you had such a crappy experience over something that should be so simple. FWIW I have had this type of thing in the early days with GPs and left one GP surgery crying with sheer frustration like some nutter. Unfortunately you have to be strong and when you know you are right not take no for an answer (just what you need when you are just about keeping things together anyway!).

sea Good luck with the new Humira shots.

joy How are you feeling today? Better I hope.

Cos oh no lovely, what a huge worry for you. Sending out the most enormous hugs and hoping beyond hope this is just a random bleed. Ill be thinking of you loads.

Quick one to extend a big handhold to cosmos I really hope this will just be a scare.

Sea - goodluck with the humira.

Joy - sorry about the extra stress.

Coco - sorry you have to wait another month, that is really stressful.

dulcet - The nurse should have minded her own business or been more empathetic. Sometimes people just don't have a clue.

Oh no, Cosmos! How unfair for you to have this worry. I'm so very sorry, thinking very sticky thoughts for you, and hoping for the best.

I'll catch up properly later, but it's CD1 of the long awaited, much un-hoped for IVF cycle over here. Feeling a tad overwhelmed.

Oh no cos. Thinking of you and sending positive thoughts, poor you, how incredibly stressful and upsetting.

joy I am glad you are feeling better. I can get excrutiating pain from IBS. My stomach will blow up like a balloon and I will be waddling when I walk or barely able to move off the sofa.

4 visits in one day is ridiculous. I cannot see how that can possibly be necessary. I think there must be an element of "we are ARGY, aren't we special in how we do things" about it.

coco how frustrating. Although I agree with the others that day 3 should have been fine.

cos I am so sorry to hear about the bleeding. Mr cos is right - it doesn't have to mean bad news. But I know this will be a difficult time, so I am thinking of you both.

rum I know how scary it is. When do you start the drugs?

pout how are you feeling?

sea you are bearing up incredibly well. I hope the next round of humira does the trick.

critter I'm about to head out of the country for work for a couple of weeks, so everything is on hold (and this is why if we didn't cycle in August we would have had to wait quite a while). I have my appointments with both my existing clinic and potential new one in October, the week after I get back.

Oh cos, I so so hope this is just a random bleed and not indicative of anything else. You must be going through hell. I hope you are off work - try to rest and take care of yourself. Lots of love- I'll be thinking of you.

pout I think you asked about testing after a FET. I was told a blood test at 10 dp 5dt and a piss stick at 12 days. I did a piss stick at 8 dpt and got a faint faint positive. Hope you are doing ok in the 2ww.

Pleased to hear you are feeling better joy! Not long til EC now.

sea I can't remember if I ever said I was so sorry to hear that you had to do humira again. The delays are infuriating and soul sapping, but it will all be worth it to start the ivf knowing immunes are all sorted.

rum boo to CD1, but exciting to be getting going. Are you long or short protocol.

Waves to everyone else.

rum I can understand you feeling overwhelmed, I remember it feeling pretty monumental and very surreal. I broke the process up into stages in my mind and it felt less like a mountain to climb with little milestones instead.

euro Are you glad to be having a bit of a break from all this or would you have preferred to jump straight back in?

Thanks gin for the advice. My period is due at the 8 days past transfer point anyway so I will probably just hang out for that (assuming that with a natural cycle everything just runs as usual period wise).

I'm definitely over the transfer euphoria at this end and the fear of failure has set in. I also have had terrible back ache since yesterday. I did briefly hope it might be implantation pains but it is way to sore to be anything like that. I'm pretty sure that implantation cramps don't make you whimper every time you move .

lemons any news? When are you having your ET, it must be soon?

Cos - Must have cross post with you earlier, sorry. Hoping it isn't as you fear and stops soon.

Rum - don't know much about IVF but I can imagine its feeling a bit momentous. What is the first step after CD1?

Thanks all, nurse was a little insensitive but at least it's done.

Oh cos, I'm so sorry. Sending lots of sticky positive vibes your way. Hoping this is just a nasty scare and nothing else.

dulcet - your nurse sounds like an arse. It seems this journey is full of these types. I've unfortunately had the pleasure of meeting a few. (Like the nurse who left the dildocam in while calmly chatting about the lack of foetus on the screen). It's one of the reasons the lovely ladies on here are such a god send, providing the support and advice the medical professionals seem to fall short of.

I've had the day2 fsh, this was "day2 hormone profile" which I figured was different. tbh I couldn't have gone this morning, 1) because I'd taken the day off ill yesterday and couldn't be late in and 2) because of MrC's new found attitude.

joy hope the pain has gone away it sounds dreadful

lemon fingers crossed for your upcoming lemonette transfer.

Cos - im so sorry for the bleeding and horrible scare. i know you must be beside yourself. Sending hugs and hoping this is a random bleed. Xxxx

Evening all,

Have been thinking of you all day cos and hoping for the best.

nelly glad that MrN saw fit to grovel his way out of the dog house .

joy I hope the pain has continued to subside and you are feeling better. I rally would struggle with the regime at your clinic. I found it hard enough to manage early morning scans and time off for EC and ET.

Commiserations to dulcet and coco with less than effective medical staff. My first decapeptyl (long term downregging) injection was delivered by a nurse who told me she'd never done it before and then looked really confused while mixing it up .

pout the 2ww is awful. Anything you can do to distract yourself and remember, no symptoms doesn't mean failure. I had virtually none until after the positive test. I still don't have very many......

Any update lemon?

Big waves to everyone else. I am trying to stay off the Internet as much as possible because I keep googling about chemical pregnancies, ectopics, miscarriages, nk cells and endometriosis. MrM is trying to keep me busy and away from the ipad. This weekend will be all about planning our bathroom renovation.

cos I hope you're doing ok. I'm thinking of you.

pout I veer between being glad to have the time off that I need physically and mentally to recover and panicking about my impending birthday and wanting to gtf on with the next round before my ovaries shrivel up!

PS - I had lower back ache on my BFP cycle. Just sayin'....

Thanks for the messages it really helped. No bleeding since this am but it really was loads. I had light cramping on and off all weekend. This waiting is not fun but not sure there's much else ti do? My head is all overthe place tbh.

Cos just wanted to say am thinking of you here as go to bed. Really glad bleed has stopped and will have everything crossed all is ok. I can imagine how terrifying this must be.

Pout wishing you lots of love and luck to get through the wait. Distraction is your friend. I went to a slam poetry night with MrC, wouldn't necessarily advocate going that far though but nice treats def in order.

Euro your ovaries aren't shriveling, next round will be here before you know it. I do know that feeling of urgency though, it's horrible. Hang in there lovely girl.

All good here, loved the stories of those growing up in the tropics - intriguing! No more cockroach sightings although a spider bit me on the arse on Sunday. MrC caught it and killed it. It was tiny but thick and had huge jaws, horrible thing packed a punch despite its small stature. The Danny deVito of poisonous spiders if you will.

cos I have been thinking of you since yesterday and am so glad to read this morning that the bleeding has stopped. I am sure that your head is quite rightly all over the shop. This is a horribly stressful thing but I am willing that this is the end of the worries and everything will be okay for you.

It is weird that your impending birthday is a factor for you, it was for me too with this cycle euro If nobody tells your ovaries it's your birthday soon then maybe they won't notice & won't spontaneously combust

critter Oh yikes at the spider bit on the bum. Ouch and yuk in equal measure. I think seeing the little nipping blighter would make me faint, putting a face to the bite so to speak

I am still in fecking agony with my back and now my stomach. I was awake at 2am drinking tea because I just couldn't lay down in bed any more. I have concluded that (poss TMI information for this time of the morning) that is is a combination of trapped wind and constipation & possibly my IBS which can apparently cause the kind of back pain I have. Anyway I have dosed myself up on laxatives (the ones I swore I would never take again because they were so, erm....efficient) and am so hoping, praying for some movement of biblical proportions though preferably not while I'm in the park walking the dogs.

Thinking of you cos, very glad it stopped, hand hold for now.

Big general general wave, work is very busy, but I am home at the moment, because we're picking up lambie II in an hour. Just phoned the clinic and apparently it survived thawing. :)

Good luck drizz!

pout good plan - I will make sure my ovaries don't know about the birthday.

Good luck for today lemons FX for you!

Yey for the thawing news, good luck Lemons.

Pout sorry for the pain. I find drinking lots of hot water helps ahem flush things out. Going to the loo is now a high stress activity though in the 2ww eh.

Euro I second Critter I'm sure you have very plump ovaries! I sympathise with the birthday though.

Thanks again for all the hand holding. I've had a few more spots but nothing like mon. I did a digi test this morning and it said 3 weeks +. I've had so many heart attacks since mon, so much for staying calm, though feel slightly better today. Guess its still just a wait and see thing.

Waves everyone.