FAO all BESH - SNF for those who frequently CBATM and occasionally SADAW after G&T. LOLs and BD will not be tolerated. IDs will WTP.

[CaptainMoll]

AYBESAAH? DYHIDWAP? DBDMYV? CYLTEPPC? DYLG? TTITFFY!

Anyone who can correctly translate the above messages wins a baybee.

(Or at the very least, the respect of the BESH).

Btw hurrah for starting IVF next cycle, euro, if GRRR about the mild abnormality. Hope it gets cleared up nicely by diffedness.

What Lemon said, Euro. Very nicely put, so I'd like to second that emowshon please.

Wow, you gals all have lovely linings it would seem. I don't know what mine is like, but should I ever find out I will duly report back.

Nice swooshing, merk. I've had mine done in a salon a few times. It's a faff but the results were great.

Apparently, having a natural birth can sometimes correct cervical abnormlaties because the baby obliterates everything as it forces its way out .

Hurrah for stabbing commencement, frank.

I've been told I have a lovely lining too.. Do you think it's what they tell all the old barrens to stop us breaking down in tears on them?

The dr never mentioned my lining

Great news Frank!

Thank the gods it's nearly Friday. This week has gone very quickly indeed but I'm still glad it's nearly time for some days off again. I really need to spend the weekend doing an assignment booo hiss. I've had a funny tummy since my period started last weekend and am only just finally starting to deflate. Poor MATV.

Yayee for stabbing commencement Frank and for starting IVF next cycle Euro.

Drizz do you by chance have some eggs and an onion - frittatttttatatatatatata?

Did anyone see this on day break this morning seeing as there are a few of us with Endo? www.itv.com/daybreak/health/19-miscarriages-before-baby-miracle/

actually today I just feel depressed that I have to have IVF. Why does it have to be so bloody traumatic/invasive and expensive? And why me? me me me me me. :(

Nineteen miscarriages? Fuck. I don't have the stamina or the emotional fortitude for even half that - adoption would come long before getting to that stage I think.

I know what you mean, rasp, it's just shit. But I'm glad IVF is an option.

rasp poor you. Whilst I'm not yet in the same boat as you I think understand a bit of where you're coming from. I hope every day that it turns out I can get pregnant naturally and it just happens. I want to be in the easy instadiffer club (or at least the can get pregnant without difficulty club) and not the needing tests or interventions club iyswim. I'm sure it feels really unfair. But when you win your baybee it won't matter which way you won it Have some of my luffly cucumber gin martinis and a good cry if you need it

First stab done. Not too bad, I seem to have retained my technique!

Argh, pressed post too soon.

Rasp my lovely, I'm sorry you're feeling so shit. We have all been dealt a duff hand in the game of life.

The last one was nokkie I believe, bugs.

Sorry about the feeling of not memememememe rasp. I totally get it. I had a bit of slog of depression-related complaints after the MC, I found it so incredibly infair. All of it. And it is. None of this is fair. It sucks. I learned at counselling to have that cry merkin is suggesting. To grieve the loss of innocense, to grieve it not going to normal way, to let it out. And then pick yourself up again. But not continue bottling it up too long because then you end up like a faulty pressure cooker, at least I was in danger of that

I am happy to have missed th 19 MCs, I don't have time to rack up so many and would not stand for it, either

Well done on the successful stab frank!

Well, euro that was exactly what I was referring too. I want to get diffed but not really think about the natural birth part!!

Thanks BESHes. Tis just it hits me sometimes. I probably like you say just need a massive tantrum/cry and ill feel much better.

Well done you bugs. I made cupcakes once. They tasted of nothing and were hard as rocks. MATV forced all 12 down but moaned at every single one :/ greedy git

Good work on stabbing Frank.

Bugs have seen cupcakes on facecrack - they look lovely. I want one now pliz.

I'm Jethro. Was TTC for 3.5 years & waiting for IVF on the NHS for 18 months before we decided to go to a private clinic. SSG has a weird chromosome disorder & I have low AMH so natural pregnancy was unlikely. Got lucky on round 1 and am now 22 weeks up the duff. I lurk more than I post.

rasp I completely recognise that feeling. I was so resistant to the process. For reasons I couldn't fathom, it was important to me to get there naturally. After my IVF BFP I care a helluva lot less. I was pregnant, for the first time in my life. The way I got there didn't matter for those weeks.

Oh Euro, that just made me cry. It's right though, it shouldn't matter how we get there, just as long as we do. When I cried on the weekend after the big conversation with MATV and he asked 'what if this doesn't work'. I just said I don't know, I just know I want to be a mummy. How sissy is that. Then I cried. Again.

MATV is all over the healthy shit but when he has a blow out he HAS a blow out. He does have a bit of a sweet tooth. I have a wine/Pimms tooth. I'm not sure who's worse off to be honest!

Blimey Jeff, that's gone quick

I get the feeling of wretchedness, but like lemon said it is important not too bottle it up or let it overwhelm you. I think of the angry and sad emotions like waves. If you take each one on and deal with them they are manageable, but if you let them, they will build and drag you under.

Not a sissy rasp even as a besh you're allowed to melt down, this is tough and emotionally draining and it's be impossible to sail through this without faltering at times. And you don't have to figure out all the what ifs yet, take it one thing at a time

My thoughts exactly, Frank, I am boggled by Jeff being that far along already!

Waves is exactly right, too. I'm finding myself floating quite well lately - I think it's the intervention stuff steadily actually going somewhere, so I don't have that aimless hopeless feeling. With all your paperwork cock ups I'm not surprised you feel shit, rasp.

Omg to lighten the mood - confessions of a male stripper on 4/7.

It's definitely a good idea to let it all out once in a while rasp (I'm talking about the emotional stuff, not the stripping, btw).

22 weeks jeff. Blimey. How are you feeling?