The Elderberry Pavlovas: sit on the sofa of hopefulness and make yourself a special omelette while prescribing the vomming cat to those that deserve it and observing the lunching of the tactless.

[barkingtreefrog]

It's time for some more grads!!

The smallprint - Berries have a strict entrance criteria (TTC #1, over 30, TTC for 3+months NO instadiffers, must have a special pot)

Still no news from barking? I'm worried

Nearly wine o'clock yay! Got friend round in a bit so won't be back on till laters, keep the SOP warm for me

congratulations!!!
Definitely deserves many

schloer sounds pretty good too - asda pizza in the oven and nothing to drink except squash or evil .

Happy Friday berries!

Have we still not heard from barking? Hmmm not like her not to be on all day or more than an hour haha hope you're ok babs x

tally did you mean game of thrones earlier? I LOVE it!

thunder re you going cold turkey, each time I've tried to go without opks I always end up stressing and wishing I'd just done them. I'm stressing now because I used cheap ones in Thailand and didn't get a +ve. Also ff hasn't given me the cross hairs yet

Happy Friday berries!

Have we still not heard from barking? Hmmm not like her not to be on all day or more than an hour haha hope you're ok babs x

tally did you mean game of thrones earlier? I LOVE it!

thunder re you going cold turkey, each time I've tried to go without opks I always end up stressing and wishing I'd just done them. I'm stressing now because I used cheap ones in Thailand and didn't get a +ve. Also ff hasn't given me the cross hairs yet

Ladies, I am a long lost Elderberry from a few threads back, logging back in - can I please be allowed to rejoin the lovely gang of longer term ttc'ers?

I hit the ttc-for-12-months mark back in April and I think the fact it was approaching sent me off into a world of denial for a bit - sorry I deserted and hello those of you still around (barking and boodle? twinkle and happy?) I also have had the most horrendous period paid since Jan which has been accompanied by vomiting and diarrhoea every month - so really felt like I was being dealt with a very sh't hand in life which has taken me a while to come to terms with.

Have now entered a world of pelvic exams, fanny cams, gynaecologist apptmts, infinite blood tests and gp apptmts to work out what's going on. Latest advice is I might need a laparoscopy.

I have a male boss at work and I know I'm going to have to have an awkward conversation some time soon when I tell him why I keep going off to doctors' apptmts.... anyone have any advice in that area?

All that aside, I'm SO glad it's the bank hol and am enjoying an ELDERflower and gin cocktail and back-to-back episodes of cougar town (oddly addictive). Hope all you ladies are likewise enjoying a good start to the bank hol.

So that's me. I promise I won't post such long and self-involved posts again (unless absolutely necessary).

ps. not forgetting thunder and bunny of course!

hiya aquarius welcome back (not that I was here before but you know )

yes kitty I meant game if thrones. we've been recording it, as I really haven't felt up to watching it recently. I don't really know why, because I love it too... maybe it's something to do with not really being too into all the sex at the moment. I've gone off it at the mo and just too tired to think much in the evenings.

thanks tally [ smile]

I record game of thrones too and am also not so keen on all the sex after a long day/week at work (but I do like the swashbluckling men and the girl power dragon lady...)

oops I'm so out of practise on MN

Oh tally I'm thanking GOT for my baby making sex drive haha. Tmi coming but i have been known to think of ned stark at certain 'times' .(i know, i think its the authority thing). oh and rob stark and john snow would get it. Where are you up to? We're almost finished season 3!

Waves at aquarius. I think I remember you from before maybe I was just a lurker back then

Having a coronation-st-athon tonight whilst dh is out. Man I totally would not have picked Tina to be my surrogate! I'd be insanely jealous!!!!

Thank you so much for all your well wishes, it's really brightened me up!
I was being a good girl and not using my mobile phone on the ward....
Sooo.. Got to the gyny ward at around 1.30am. Doctor was called away for surgery. Got seen at 3am, by which time I was crying with pain if I had to leave the fetal position. She gave me painkillers then tried examining me again, then had to take swabs. When she put the doodah in I screamed in agony and despite being told to relax I never quite managed it. Think I woke most of the ward up . Was eventually admitted and given morphine and put on a drip. DP finally got to go home at 5.30am .
I was still in a lot of pain and was then feeling very sick as well so couldn't sleep. Finally managed a couple of hours sleep after a 2nd morphine injection and two lots of anti sickness drugs. Had two more bouts of pain followed by vomitting until I realised the pattern - the sickness came on half an hour after each dose of codine. They were threatening to keep me in another night but DP and I persuaded them there was no need, the pain was substantially better and the sickness had been linked to the codine. Now home and in the bath, can't wait for a decent sleep, had maximum of 4 hours in the last 36 hours!!

All they could think of was that I was sensitive to the ink they used in the HSG and it had irritated the lining of my uterus. I think it's scary that it could be that painful (I really was writhing around the bed in agony as they tried to examine me) but there isn't really other explanation. No other symptoms that suggest infection and too early for hat to kick in anyway.

Apparently when DP called my mum to tell her I was in hospital and what was probably the problem she just said I did tend to react to a lot of things?!? I get hayfever and I can't eat shellfish, it hardly makes me a medical nightmare!! Although I can add codine to the list now....

Thanks again for all your kind thoughts, it was lovely to check in and are that you'd been thinking of me .

Apparently I need to log on less often though if my absence is noticed after an hour... .

And see that....

Hi Aquarius, was wondering how you'd been doing!

Gosh Berries just popped on to catch up on everyone and saw Barkings posts! Any news?
Barking take care really hope you are feeling better.

Phew barking glad you're ok, and don't you dare stop coming on mn so often!!! We'd miss you too much x

Evening all,
barking glad you are feeling as bit better, hopefully you've managed to catch up on some sleep.

I'm knackered, big weekend of work coming up so in the kitchen at 7.30 tomorrow for me so I'm just chilling in bed now.
Hope you all have nice weekend plans

Mmmm cakes....

Yep coffee & walnut cake, chocolate tiffin, Victoria sponge and about 500 Scones lol
Meringues are in the oven now slow cooking

Evening all!

Aquarius welcome back!!! Good to see you but sorry you are having bad AFs! And how very dare you nearly forget me

The term fanny cams really made me chuckle, is that the same as dildocam LOL

barking so glad you are feeling better!!! Hugs!

Yay Barking! Have a nice sleep xxx

Had a fab cuddle with my colleagues 10 day old baby today, such a sweetie. It was all lovely till my colleague (10 years younger than me) pipes up with 'hey bunny does your womb just light up when it senses a baby like a beacon so you know one is near '

WTF!!!!?!?!?!

ummm. step away from the crazy lady.... slowly, or she'll 'sense' something's wrong.

Welcome back Aquarius . Was wondering where you'd got to a few days back. Sorry AFs been giving you such a tough time.
Barking glad you're home. Hope the pain is easing up and you'll be fighting fit again soon.
Was out with work tonight and had a funny turn. Came over all hot and dizzy and was apparently white as a sheet. Really thought I was going to pass out which then resulted in about a million people asking me if was pregnant

bunny wtf??? That's outrageous! You should just report her to hr. that's not acceptable to say at work.

happy I guess it's just a natural reaction. Better get used to it as you'll be passing out all the time when you're preggers!

Well guys its 6.10am. So much for my lie in but I guess scone will have already made about a million cakes by now!!! xxx

6am on Saturday, up since 5, still not sleeping brilliantly

Phew Barking so glad you're ok! That sounds horrendous. Hope you feel much better today and it doesn't spoil your bank holiday. Will it have any effect on ttc this month (apart from not feeling like it?!)

Hi Aquarius, period cramps and sickness lasting for months sounds horrible. Have they no idea what would cause that? Did you have bad AFs before? Re telling boss - I have a woman boss who I know would be sympathetic but I don't want to tell anyone at work that I'm ttc so although there was a month when I had around 6 doctor/hospital appointments I just said I'd bring her a note and not why (actually come to think of it, I never did!) Why do you think you might need to tell him?

Wow Bunny what a really odd thing to say, what on earth was she on about? Does she know you're ttc? Was she just addressing that weird comment to any women around or specially singling you out for the bizarreness? I'd freak out if a colleague came out with anything like that!

Not as weirdly, but quite annoyingly I found, we were talking at work about people who call you on your mobile and won't take any notice when you explain 'now isn't a good time for a call'. Anyway I was trying to enter into this conversation but the two others happen to be mums (one 8 years younger than me to add insult) and whenever I say anything one or other goes - oh but it's worse with a toddler, oh but everyone should just HAVE to look after a toddler to see what a hard time it is.... grrr