Good evening, ladies
Welcome, jass, so sorry about all your losses, but lovely that you are joining us (although I bet you wish you wouldn't have to). As CaliBee says, here we go crazy together, hold each other's hands and give lots of support. Where are you based?
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that you cleaned your bathroom ceiling! That has honestly never ever crossed my mind! But then again, our bathroom ceiling is covered with peeling paint, so cleaning it would has detrimental effects 
green You test as much as you like, girl. I kept testing for about 2 weeks after I first had my BFPs, and I had photos of my +ve tests on my phone, too, to look at to remind myself. Every little helps!
Cali Really like your dress, so nice and simple! With the white dresses, it's so easy to become a giant meringue (or worse), but this one is lovely with clean lines.
And what's been happening with your line, any further developments?!?!
I've been lying low for a while, I wasn't in a very good place in the last few weeks - but starting to feel better now, there is light at the end of the tunnel. These hormones have a lot to answer for 
I was actually relatively OK until Friday - keeping myself busy with lots of baking and gardening, which really helped me to get my mind of things and focus on something enjoyable.
But then I had my follow-up scan on Friday - all good and clean, nothing has been left behind, everything is as it should be, given the circumstances. No intervention required whatsoever. Been poas over the last few days, too, and the line is almost gone.
But my mood on Friday and Saturday was awful - I think it must have really hit me then, the finality of the second miscarriage and all that. I felt so angry, sad and disappointed. Poor DH and DS have been very much at the receiving end of my mood swings.
And then we met with a group of friends on Sunday, to greet one couples' 2-week old DD2 - I had been absolutely dreading it, but it was not bad after all! I actually enjoyed the baby cuddles, and if anything, it made me feel more positive again. These friends are lovely, I've been getting so much support from them.
I've been thinking of maybe taking a bit of a break from ttc - but I don't think I will, I don't feel I have the time! But tbh, I'm dreading the whole palaver again - the temping, charting, poas, monitoring and the dtd timing, the 2ww, more poas... It is so exhausting! And so far removed from how it's meant to be, sigh.
But hey-ho, at least I know it works! The stats are, for once, in favour, when it comes to the active ttc - 1st pg happened within 4 months of starting to use OPKs, 2nd BFP within 3 months (2 of which I was temping as well) and the 3rd BFP - 1 month. Fingers crossed the trend continues. And that it'll hang around next time...