TTC 10+ months, Part 11

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A very friendly and supportive thread for those taking way longer than they had ever expected to make a baby.

rabbit I am around, at home with my migraine :( I don't think people should have to work 12 hour days

nelly I hope the swelling goes down, I find with my job that big undercrackers are more comfortable (spent a bit of time squatting) I'm liking your positive attitude too

art I'm here to hand hold

critter I hope all goes well with your boss, I'm sure you can make him see sense that you are priceless and that you need to stay

charlotte sorry no advice on the op but hope it goes well for you

Haha Art at getting other opinions . You sound as calm as can be expected. I'm sure it's not easy though. Boo to waking up at stupid o clock and confusing symptoms. I agree that it is not nature's finest work.

Critter I hope your ideas are accepted. If not, try crying . You really don't need the stress re the IVF payment, and I know it's not cheap in the US.

Oh Buzzy yuck to the migraine . Hope it goes soon.

Thanks for all the follie cheers. Highland 3 will do Euro as the area I live isn't so romantic . I hope my good E2 levels mean a couple of decent quality eggs. It would be a shame to have put all that money effort into growing follies only to have no embies. But positive thinking .

To make you all laugh. I am wearing the said saggy knickers and fleecy PJs. And my ludicrously, eye-wateringly expensive quite nice 5" quite high wedding shoes. And a pearly tiara/ headband. . I look beeeuuuuuttifulll.

Afternoon ladies.

Critter I hope the meeting well.

Nelly you are a vision of loveliness.

Sar sorry about the announcement.

I'm have a bit of a down day. I woke up in the middle of the night last night gripped with fear that we would never have our own baby. I wanted to cry but didn't want to wake Mr Euro. And I have felt sad all day. That sort of thing is most unlike me.

Euro . You will. You will, I know it. It's taking way too fucking long, yes, but it will happen. I know the feeling too well though. It's shit. Some days are just like that. But they go away and life looks better again. You will have your baby. But allow yourself to have a wallowing day. Run a bath and take a glass bottle of wine in there with you. Or go and see a film with hot men in it. Always cheers me up. .

But keep believing.

*nelly at your attire, I used to put my dress on after the wedding a vaccum my house in it :)

euro big hugs sorry you are having a low day, it will happen for you x

Art ? I am wishing you the very very best of luck for tomorrow. I?m desperately hoping all these pains are a good sign.

Nelly ? i?m so impressed, you sound so positive at the moment which is fab. Those highland 3 are doing marvellously.

Euro ? i am sorry you feel down today. these moments do come and take hold sometimes but they do go as well. Next year will be the year.

Buzzy ? sorry about the migraine. That?s really shit.

Sar ? oh ffs, this crap is so difficult to deal with but when someone heaps their ?happy news? on you , it just makes it so much worse. Big hug. I find it can take quite a few days to deal with the news. You described exactly how I feel when I get a nasty announcement like that. I am holding my breath for loads of announcements within the next 6 months.

Rabbit ? at your diatribe on the back entrance.

Doll ? when is your test day?

Gin ? how are you doing? I can?t believe the cost of FET & considering you?ve had to pay to freeze the little one already.

Critter ? interesting about your friend/landlady. I haven?t heard about that acid test and not sure it?s done in this country.

Big waves to madness, pout, cosmos, mrsd etc.

Thanks all for your words on the weird bleeding. I wasn?t having rough sex or anything that?s why it was all so bizarre. I guess i just need to see if happens again. will test the waters tonight. sigh. I haven?t bled since the first lot of blood so I think it must have dried out up there.

So if you are on SP , is it 2 weeks shorter than being on LP??

joy pretty much - it is done within your usual cycle length more or less. Whereas LP starts in the cycle before by shutting your ovaries down.

Nelly - I like the 'keep believing' mantra . The AC thread are big on promoting 'don't stop believing' and it turns out to be true when so many of them are getting there after so long.

joy you are trying SP aren't you??? are you on the drugs now???

Buzz - no I will be on lp I think and it starts in Jan

I am home. I hate these days. Loads of driving, visiting and talking and driving and meetings. I want it to be my leave. Tomorrow. Maybe it might snow?

euro I'm sorry for the tumblewomb moment that lingered. I had one a few weeks back when I was on my own and wobbling on here. It came from nowhere and bit me on the bum. It's a funny thing. In the beginning of ttc, say the first year, I was miserable and wobbly a lot out of fear it wouldn't work (I have no truck with people who chide people in the early days of ttc for worrying, after 3 months I felt sure something was wrong and was gutted). Now it is clear it isn't working and I will most likely need help, I've accepted it in that human adversity way. But just when I think I'm ok and I accept my lot, whatever it may be, I'm blown over by the want to have my own baby and pregnancy and not being able to have it. It is a very specific kind of empty feeling and you have my total empathy. But it will go away again. And you will inevitably get there, it's just fucking bad luck that we are in the minority for whom it isn't simple.

critter decade old pants are the bestest

nelly I will now always think of you in pyjamas and a tiara

art god I'm hoping this is it for you, it is curious there is no period with such cramps big squeeze. You are brilliant.

joycep I'm sure the bleeding will just be a one off.

buzzy I'm intrigued by the squatting!

sarlat hope you're ok. Do pop on and let us know how you're doing.

I'm pooped. Big lecture tomorrow on something I don't want to lecture on At All. Early night and a book for me methinks. Whoopee doo!

Evening lovely ladies,

So pleased that you're feeling positive Nelly. The highland 3 will persevere I'm sure - those of us north of the border are a hardy bunch .

rabbit I get really worked up about presentations. They usually go well but even by the end of the good ones I'm trying not to lift my arms because I've sweated through my very stylish and teacherly cardigan .

Sar I hope that the shock of the announcement has worn off. My dh has been briefed to make sure that he doesn't tell me anything about friends or colleagues when we are just about to leave the house because I'll need time to compose myself. There's no escaping the big gathering surprises or bloody facebook though .

Art I can't believe that you have a stick and haven't peed on it yet. I wouldn't be able to resist the temptation....but I think I get what you're saying about delaying the result.

Critter I hope that your meeting was successful and the boss was blown away by your clever plans

Buzzy I too am intrigued by squatting! My job involves lots of kneeling and crawling around on the floor. I did split my trousers once but thankfully nobody else noticed and I was able to put on my long winter coat and escape with my dignity intact

Joy January really isn't that far off is it?? Hard to believe that we're all getting to this point now after trying for so long.

Well I bit the bullet and made an appointment with the counsellor at my fertility clinic. I've never been to a counsellor before but I don't think that it can hurt and I am worried about how I'll cope if the results of my lap are different/worse than expected, to even considering how I'll manage if IVF doesn't work. I still have adoption in the back of my mind, but having watched friends go through it I realise that it takes years rather than months and it just about as stressful as all of this crap

Apologies to everyone that I've missed!

rabbit make sure you get some rest

madness counselling is good, its where you can off load to a real person without feeling judged, you can say what you really think and feel, well that is my personal experience

I too also crawl and kneel too, do you work for the NHS sometimes I just sit on the floor, I too have split my trousers luckily it was my last visit of the day and had a coat to cover it

joy Am I correct in thinking you are doing ICSI too or am I just totally confused we shall be giving it a go around the same time then

Quickly popping in to say euro I hope you're ok after tumble womb fear, I get this too. Sometimes it hits out of the blue.

rabbit I knew something was wrong fairly early on, dh didn't think we needed to see a dr after 11 months but I just knew there was a problem. I think instincts are strong. I think deep down I always knew we'd struggle but I'm not sure I ever realised how hard this would be.

Has anyone seen the latest k-mid photos on the daily fail. She has that pregnant look. Bet there is a big Xmas announcement. Bleugh.

joy I didn't realise you were doing lp. I wish I understood more about how they choose the protocols. Good luck with tonight's swi, hopefully there will be no more blood.

art I don't want to fuel your mentalling either - I can't imagine how stressful this wait must be. I am hoping with everything I've got that the pains are the embies settling in for a long ride.

nelly I am cheering on the highland three! When do you go on honeymoon, and for how long? I will be in Scotland over the holidays, and did think about you... I'd guess you're about a three hour drive away from where I will be though (in the bottom left-hand corner) Loved the crying tip, it made me

rabbit early night and a book to read in bed is my idea of heaven. Especially with a hot water bottle... lovely.

madness great that you are doing the counselling, well done you. It can't be a bad thing, and might actually be helpful.

joy I am glad the bleeding stopped. My friend told me that the hyaluronic acid test is really new and only a few clinics do it - and you have to ask for it. She said she found out about it from researching online. Here's some more info on it - euro it seems linked to the DNA fragmentation thing.

euro ah, I am so sorry. That feeling is awful.

Waves to everyone...the meeting went fine, I don't think I'm about to lose my job, but I will have a lot more crap to do, which may be a good thing as I was getting a little bored. There is always a silver lining!

Also, I love the keep believing mantra. Let's add it to the tail-feather shaking, sparkly knob waving positivity arsenal that we all need on this thread!

critter glad things went well with the boss, roll on next year and IVF :)

mrsden £1400 for that dress?!! It looks like something out of the saga magazine ads page. I think it hasn't happened as quickly as they would have liked.

I know rabbit that dress is awful. Far too old for her, and I'm not sure what I think of the fringe. But she looks pregnant. But then I think everyone but me is pregnant.

You may be right. But I've been bracing myself for that news for 18 months. I can't believe they weren't told to get to it straight away.

I think they wanted to get the big far east tour thing out the way first, so I reckon they started ttc In oct. I've clearly thought this through far too much.

I don't think she looks pregnant its just an ill fitting designed dress, but I have always felt she has dressed 'older than her years', I read that they weren't allowed to try before the Jubilee as to not steal the lime light from the Queen,

I also think Pippa looks older than what she actually is (meow) Looking at her always makes me feel good about my age

Green is a hard colour to pull off, but she is beautiful so she never looks bad. It's a strange choice, made me think she wanted something floatier. Right, sorry I've turned this thread into style and beauty.

Buzzy, agreed. She does look older than 29 or whatever she is. Too many sunny holidays. Wonder if k-mid ditched the fags before ttc?