Sorry, I am a regular lurker but post infrequently cos I find that seeing that others are going through the same things as me is really comforting, but actually writing my worries down makes them more real and worse, whereas I can just ignore them myself and give myself a proverbial slap, but this is just too much! This whole TTC thing is excrutiating at the moment. I am on CD 37 today, not as late as it sounds as I can go up from 30 to 40 but I was expecting an earlyish one this month, but my body is just being odd. Grumbling, stabbing pains intermittently on left and right sides (but more on right), since ovulation - nearly 3 weeks now, I have been feeling nauseaous for the last few days and while my boobs were reallly sore, they always are for the week before my period , but that stopped 3 days ago and they are now a different sort of sore, normally the witch always comes while they are still very painful. And my period has not come. I so want to think I might be pregnant, but can't, its so unlikely that something that wonderful would happen that I can't be. All of these symptoms could be for other reasons too, from mis-guessing when my period is due, to imagining the sickness, to the abdo pain being just one of those things that wiill go away, to endo or ovarian cysts (neither of which I have as far as I know, but I do have PCOS). It doesn't help that 2 months ago I had a week of nausea and 2 weeks of boob pain which got my hopes up, followed by AF showing up bang on time. This could of course all just be a total WTF cycle too, with no rhyme or reason and thats that. I am almost looking forward to going back to work tomorrow, two very busy 13 hour days coming up so no time to spend on mn, obsessing and worrying generally and unable to think of anything else other than TTC. I can't test, as I am too frightened of how I will feel when the inevitable BFN comes up, especially as for me I can't say I'm reliably late yet, I am even scared of going to the toilet now! Dh has just no idea of what we go through each month! And he wants me to relax a bit! Its just so hard when your body is playing tricks on you and you don't even know other than a guess when things should be happening anyway.
VV sorry for that totally self indulgent post there, whoops, that was quite long!
Congrats to all of the BFPs lately, and double congrats to knick!
Congrats to Winkle on the new job, hope you get your BFP when you finally test too!