erm... hello again everybody...
After a really crap month where I gave up obsessing about ttc (ha ha) and friends announced pregnancies which had me in tears for days, I've just got my bfp. Am in shock I can't really believe it.
So winkle, you were right when you said I'd come back pregnant.
I feel bad coming back to tell you guys but I wanted to update you. I've been in fits of jealousy this month hearing about the pregnancies of others. However, in being open to friends about my struggle I found out that out of my 4 closest mum friends, one took 18 months to conceive, one took 2.5 years and one 4 years. They all went through heartache and upset but it did come good in the end, I know it will for everyone here. My fingers are especially crossed for you red and winkle as I get a sense of how down you feel.
This month I drank a lot less alcohol. And it sounds a bit silly, but after two friends announced pregnancies on the same night out earlier this month, I got so upset that I broke down in the toilets and ended up going home early. I spent the next two days crying whenever I thought about it. It was horrible, but afterwards I felt like I'd released a lot of negative emotion and frustration I was carrying around, and yes it sounds silly but I think this has helped my body be open to getting pregnant.
Right, I'm going to stay here for a bit if that's ok.... who's still here and who is still in line for a Christmas bfp? Or early 2013 one? I'd start planning lots of wine, Christmas stilton etc then sod's law will hopefully mean you can't have any.......