Anyone up to help me with a am I/aren't I quandry?

[Moomin]

REALLY thought I was pg this month. We bd'd at exactly the right time (3 times - you GO, dh!!) and I'd been having all sorts of funny twingey and shooting-type pains in my boobs and across womb-area for the last 10 days. Even had a huge emotional ab-dab the other day and cried my heart out about a really silly row (a real rivers-of-snot, 30 min session!)

Bought 2 pg tests in readiness; AF is due tomorrow (Sat). I usually get a yukky brown smudge the day before, along with period pains and then the red blood starts dead on the 28th day. Last night (26th day) went to the loo and found a very feint brownish smudge which came to nothing. All day today it has come and gone, but is a pale pinky colour which I don't usually get. I've spent the day convincing myself AF is on its way and kicked myself for spending ANOTHER run-up to my period reading pg symptoms into everything I feel.
Part of me thinks I should just wait until tomorrow for the real AF to arrive, and then the other half thinks I should take the test whether it's a waste of money or not. I've done a search on implantation bleeds and have now put all sorts of doubts in my mind...
I hate all this fannying around, I feel like some sad old bitch (as in dog) having a phantom pregnancy every month, digging a hole under the hedge to have my pups and it never happening!!! And I hate myself for being so self-involved about the whole ttc bit. Anyone have any words for me (apart from Get A Life!)??

Sorry but I don't think the world is due another baby moomin just yet. Took the Clearblue test and it's -ive. That was about 2hrs ago. Just went for another wee and the very feint pinky blodge is back. I just can't see that this isn't my AF arriving now. Wonderful false negatives and periods that aren't periods only happen to other people.
I'm wondering if I haven't gone a bit mad the last few months and I'm actually getting phantom symptoms like I joked about in my first post. Each period is completely different these days, apart from the fact that it's every 28 days. Maybe the difference this month will be that it'll be 29 days instead! Sorry to disappoint... Thanks for all the lovely posts though.

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Oh moomin, I really am sorry.
I don't know if humans can get proper phantom pregnancies so I doubt you are getting them however I do know that wanting something so much can make your mind run away with itself.
Maybe the best thing to do is to try not to think about the symptons you're getting each month, I can hear you laughing now as I expect that's almost impossible. But chilling out about it abit might help.
I had symptons of AF coming with DS3 and spotting like a proper period but he obviously he's here now so I read those symptons all wrong.

Hoping for good news next month.....or if AF doesn't arrive properly in a few days and

Moomin, but hopefully sometime soon.

Hasn't anyone done any research into this. Are ttc periods totally mad, or is it just because we're so aware of them. I've been ttc for 4 months now, and have had things like boobs squirting milk and tearful sessions and tiredness and thirst, all of which meant something last time.

I reckon that ttc periods are just crazy. I refuse to believe that it is all in our minds!

PS when I had a pinky show while ttc last time, I went and bought unpasturised brie, pate and beer to commiserate. Turned out I was pg after all, and ds came out just fine!

Thanks fisil- yes, it's mad isn't it? For anyone not ttc or never having had problems conceiving, the rantings of us ttc-ers must seem bordering on lunatic! At least we're not alone in our madness! I've decided for my own sanity, though to just accept I'm coming on, even if I don't for another day or two. The silver lining I consoled myself with this time was that dh and I both have our xmas do's coming up next week and at least I can have a drink then. It'd just be my luck to get hammered then find out I was pg after all. I could give birth to a little sozzled Sue-Ellen just like me then...

Quick update - still no AF but still going between nothing and very pale pink. This is all very weird, as I've not had the pink thing before at all. Feels like I've got period pain though.
Dh is back from work now. We've decided to do another test tomorrow night if no AF by then. Sorry for being boring and mad.

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I'll keep checking for good news then .........been away xmas shopping all day and am absolutley knackered so relaxing here with cyber friends and very pleased things are looking promising for you moomin.

Fingers still crossed

Big fat anti-climax, I'm afraid. Have started proper red bleeding as of about an hour ago. Sorry for stringing everyone along
Thanks for meesages of support anyway. X

and the messages too!

oh sod it! thought of you first thing.

don't be silly about 'stringing us along', we all love hearing PG news and will look forward to the next announcement.......no pressure on you of course

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Sorry Moomin. Fingers crossed for next month.

I have posted on the pregnancy thread but there doesn't seem to be anyone around, but I would really appreciate some advice/reassurance. Basically I had my second miscarriage 34 days ago and I did a test out of curiosity and it is positive. But I don't know if it is old hormones still present or a new pregnancy.

I work in the hospital and gone and had a blood test taken to check my HCG levels but I suppose I will only know for sure if I have them repeated and they rise - or I have AF before then.

Can't really help, but I conceived the cycle after my miscarriage,fingers crossed for you!

Thats reassuring MerryTissmas, did you automatically assume they were new hormones then

Didn't consider anything else, as my test was negative when I started to bleed with the MC. Also, I was feeling sick as a dog!

I have just had my results back and the HCG is elevated at almost 500.

I still don't think I will believe I am pregnant until I have a repeat test on Wednesday and see an increase.

My previous (and only) two pregnancies have ended in miscarriage at 7 and 8 weeks, so you can see my reluctance to getting excited.