12 months on and most people on my TTC thread are pregnant so I'm starting a new one! Come and join me if you've been TTC a while or are TTC after pregnancy loss... we've been through it all!

[iloveberries]

iloveberries Age 31, DH 32, DS 2 yrs. Been TTC #2 for a year, 1 m/c, 1 ectopic, 1 tube removed. Will be starting TTC again after my next AF.

Still following the ladies on my original TTC thread but most of them are now pregnant so whilst I'm delighted for them I wanted to start a new place for those who have been TTC for a while and are still awaiting a healthy, sticky bean in the right place.

All welcome..... nothing if off limits, nothing is TMI, no 'babydust' though please

[MooleyWooleyShamaLamaDingDong]

Count every day will get a little easier, but take this time to grieve for what you have lost. It is totally understandable after everything you have been through. And that goes for you as well Berries. You have both been through so much, and I think you are being unbelievably strong and brave. If I could even have half the strength you two have then I am not doing too badly That goes for you as well Munchin

Disco glad you had fun at your grandfather?s 90th. Sounds like he had fun as well and even better that it helped to take your mind of other things Sorry that your body is still not playing ball though; hope that you lay an egg very soon and that the spermies are in position to respond accordingly. DTD EOD is not ideal at the best of times, but trying to do it with a longer than normal cycle is just frustrating.

Thank you for all your support. Bleeding yesterday never really amounted to anything and I have not had any cramps, I?m still spotting but it is most definitely brown. 2 more tests today, 2 more faint lines, one on an FRER so just holding tight and hoping that whatever is going on down there is not due to another chem, but more that body is just settling down to accommodate its new lodger (crossing everything and really trying not to get excited). I am desperate to use the digi because I want to see the words rather than trying to squint at lines on sticks, but I know that it will prob show negative at this point.

Your support has been amazing and I am so glad and grateful that I have had the chance to find and meet you all. I?m not going anywhere just yet though???need to carefully monitor this situation for a little while longer.

[MooleyWooleyShamaLamaDingDong]

Ignore my last message. Latest toilet trip shows that bleeding is proper red now. On to next month and def need the drugs.

[iloveberries]

moo - don't be disheartened. june is the best month to conceive.... promise:)

[Munchin]

Ah moo so sorry. Have some extra nice treats today.

As berries says we can all hope that June will be our month!!!

[MooleyWooleyShamaLamaDingDong]

Thanks ladies. To be honest, because of the PCOS, I don't think it will ever be a sticky bean without the intervention of fertility drugs.

Onwards and upwards though. At least the sun is shining

[iloveberries]

but you are close to getting the drugs right?
what is next step?

[MooleyWooleyShamaLamaDingDong]

Hopefully get them on 19th June. I've had all the tests so it's a case of going to the Consultant and talking things through and finding out what happens from there. It has been a long drawn out process.

At least I have my cycle buddy for this month though how you doing?

[Countmyblessings]

Kiss kiss hug hug- to you Moo xx
Well I'm the sunshine today very nice!!!!!
Tmi - went for dinner and it ended with us dtd nice time!

[Countmyblessings]

Ilove - I understood what you was saying from the start and totally understand as I feel the same. Feeling it was hard to get pregnant with 2 tubes and now felt my chances has been cut in half! But have spoken to people in RL and they have gone on to success and lovely children x

[rachie12]

hi everyone, MooleyWooleyShamaLamaDingDong sorry to hear about your af :( fingers crossed for you that with help from the right drugs you will do it,

Im still waiting for my af, as my cycle can last anything beween 30 days to 39 days and im on day 35 now so fingers crossed for me too but i think its very unlikely i cant wait for my appointment at the clinic just seems like forever getting here x

[iloveberries]

we will have success too count! Then we can be inspiring stories for other poor souls who have to go through this shitty thing x

[MooleyWooleyShamaLamaDingDong]

We will all have success!!!!! Positivity is the key and we are in this together

I could not do this without you all (and obviously DH )

[Countmyblessings]

Thanks ilove and Moo - def all in this together!!!
just seems such a long time for me to wait and start trying all over again!

[rachie12]

Af came today :(

[MooleyWooleyShamaLamaDingDong]

Booooo to the witch!! So sorry that she found you rachie

Not fair.

[iloveberries]

sorry to hear that rachie - at least you have your appt to focus on and then things should improve when you get the drugs!!!

Things here are fine. I have handed in my notice at work so am over the moon about that. Money will be a lot tighter but not to a really stressful point. Also thinking the lack of stress from work might help TTC.

[Munchin]

Ah Rachie sorry to hear Af has returned. Sure you will be in good company ttc next month.

Well done Berries on your new life. Would love to have more time at home myself.

Moo your gas!!

Well I am happy to report that the bleeding post erpc finally stopped yest 27 days later!!!! I feel that I am one step closer to joining you all. I don't know if it was the antibiotic or it would have stopped itself. But TG!!!

[Discolite]

Rachie sorry :(

Muchin rah!

Berries the shagging isn't too bad actually. It's nicer now the weather is warmer and you don't have to unwillingly take your clothes off and get into a cold bed :o Also well done for being brave and resigning!

Moo glad you are feeling positive!

I'm STILL waiting for ovulation. If I put in a similar temperature for tomorrow to the day before yesterday then it claims I ovulated on Sunday but I'm not convinced. A big problem is I keep waking at 5am, an hour before I normally temp so I think that is throwing things off. I've tried wearing an eyemask in case it's the light that wakes me but to no avail. I'm reluctant to set the alarm at 5am as I'm midway through a cycle and the lower temperatures compared to the 6am temps might result in ovulation being missed. What advice do the charters give me?

Ok, off to talk to the parents of my pupils. I'd prefer to have a nap tbh!

[hellokittydrivesmenuts]

PANTS PANTS and more big fat PANTS to moo and rachie.
So so so glad the sun is shining today :-)
hope everyone is feeling positie this month i am now coming to the end of a very hideous AF that the gp had to prescribe anti inflamatorys to help slow bleeding down as have very low ferretin levels and the taking iron is very pointless when this happens!
GP appt tomorrow to discuss the lack of fertility in this house.
Love t you all xx

[Munchin]

How is everyone today? Weather is amazing (finally!!!!)

Sorry Disco I have feck all experience in temping. Did it for a couple of months on dc1. Tbh it drove me mad having to take temp at same time every morning as on the weekend I would go to bed and get up later.

Hellokitty that sounds like a nightmare AF, does that happen every time? Good luck at gp appointment.

So I thought bleeding had stopped but got some spotting last night and lots of ewcm today. Wonder am I o'ing? If I was ttc I wouldn't see any of it!!!!

[hellokittydrivesmenuts]

hey all perfect perfect weather!!!!!!
Munchin- yes sadly this appears very hideously normal forme or has done for past 9 months which has caused this low ferreting :-( gp appt went well i am having bloods on day 21 to check ovulating as i should and poor DP has to have seamen checked which can rule out worries there, but appears as i have a DD we will have to pay for any fertility trt even though he does not so hopefully all will be ok and just need time! mixed emotions positive we are going forward but negative as could require thousands of pounds.
On an up note DD had a fab behaviour day being 4 they can be few and far between as she is very very much ready for school :-) xx

[Countmyblessings]

Hi all - ilove - well done on the job front the freedom of not having to worry about work must be great!!!! I'm still off work and loving the time off spending it with ds!!!!!
Change of subject did anyone watch channel4 "kings A&E"
I did and it was so sad to see Jill lose her baby and how she shared she had lost so many before, I was crying buckets!!!! She was so brave!
TMI - dtd last night woke up in pain I think I'm oving, and now I'm scared that I may fall pregnant before my 2 cycles am I being stupid!!
I'm just worried months of wanting to get pregnant now scared I could be and I'm scared!!!!!

[Countmyblessings]

Sorry missed saying hi to hellokitty! I'm sorry that your news is not great that treatment will cost because u already have a dd! Let's hope it's not needed and you have success without it costing!
Dd at 4 and having a good day, that's great!!!!
Bring on the sun!!!!!! Whhhhhoooooopppp!

[hellokittydrivesmenuts]

thankyou so much countmyblessings, another wonderful day but sadly in a hot surgery at wotk but yippee i have that friday feeling and sod it am going to have a wine! xjust the one..............BOTTLE:-) xx

[iloveberries]

Hi everyone - all good here, just enjoying the lovely sunshine with DS. No news on the TTC front - apart from that we are giving it a go this month!!

count - don't worry, what's done is done. I made DH wear a condom up until recently so maybe do that next time if you're concerned about it?I'm sure you'll be fine. (Or you'll get pregnant as you "weren't trying" and it'll all go smoothly!!)

rachie, kitty - sorry your bodies aren't playing ball. How annoying for you both. Bring on the appointments and the drugs!!

mools - how's tricks?