Angels and Rainbows - The beauty of a rainbow does not negate the ravages of the storm. But it can provide colour and hope.

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“Rainbow Babies” is the understanding that the beauty of a rainbow does not negate the ravages of the storm. When a rainbow appears, it doesn’t mean the storm never happened or that the family is not still dealing with its aftermath. What it means is that something beautiful and full of light has appeared in the midst of the darkness and clouds. Storm clouds may still hover but the rainbow provides a counter balance of color, energy and hope.

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August I had a SUA too. Yes you should have been booked extra growth scans as it can cause IUGR. I had 2 extra scans in 3rd trimester at 28 weeks and 34 weeks. It didn't contribute to Erin's death though. Dp still not really mentioned pregnancy but has booked next Wednesday afternoon off to come to scan. When is your next scan? How is your dh being now? If you look in Cheese,Blue, Fan or Blizy's friend list my initials are LS and my profile pic is Erin's name in the sand

hi all! still very tired and coughy... DD1 has chicken pox and not feeling great! We've been taking it easy... lots of cuddles and watching the tellie

Angel I hope Ant will find a nicer job very soon!
DH has his last test to pass as a driving instructor on 14 Feb and he needs to pass or we'll be in a similar situation! No savings as we've used those up in the last year to get by while he was training and establishing business.

Too so sorry the hospital were rubbish!

razz how were your results?

August thanks for the add! I thought that name looked familiar

so tired... better get DD to bed and then order a take away... don't feel like cooking

August I was wondering who the friend request was from, I have accepted you.

Blue- hope your cough goes away soon and Ella is not too itchy.

poor little thing is very itchy :( we've put socks on her hands so she doesn't scratch during the night!
Off to bed now x

Blue good luck to your hubby for 14 th. Hope DD better soon. " savings"???!!! what are those? Don t have a penny!! Had about £500 earlier this year but had to pat £400 of that out when our cat , Scottie was put to sleep & £200 for our boiler to be fixed 2 weeks ago. No savings now & no chance of getting any. X

computer is under the weather and so am I - 'only'morning sickness though so I'm fine with that. I'm making a first ever post from my kindle, which isn't really designed for this but I think it's working. Will have to thank my mum once she knows I'm pregnant - it was her idea she was so worried about me being stuck in bed and out of touch with everyone when I was ill or pregnant though thats not exactly the case right now it's still brilliant.
Wish I could wave a majic wand for some of you - moneysavingsexpert is brilliant for anyone with financial hiccups. There are millions in unclaimed atate support every year,my claim was complicated and I didn'tnow the CAB could help so I had to research the legislation and was refused three times because the decision maker didn't know about it and kept refusing to check passed a routine denile -I'vecome acrosss peoplein the same situation and it's always people who work hard and have been 'doing the right thing' that fall foul of lesser known parts of the safety net designed for exceptional circumstnces butnot routine so notknown about.

Angel, so sorry to hear about Ant being made redundant. Did you get any more info from his employers? FX for a new job for him very quickly.

Trickle, hope you feel better soon. You can post from a Kindle? How? Have just got a Kindle and haven't learned everything it does yet.

Blue, hope DD1 gets better soon. Chicken pox itchiness is awful! Try coolish baths to soothe her. FX for your hubby too.

Cheese, how are you doing, my lovely?

My pelvis hurts. Not sure if this is because I mopped the kitchen floor yesterday or because I walked for 20 minutes today. Not liking this at all!

Hello everyone
too and trickle what is a kindle??
blue poor dd, spots can look hideous and itch like mad!!! Both my children have scars from scratching them. It is certainly no fun looking after children when you feel rotton yourself so you have huge sympathies from me.

My GTT results were perfect.......maybe its time to lay off the sugary drinks!! Still have quite high bp though, 149/95, which is strange for me as my usual is 120/60......nothing is ever simple!!
Well, I wish you all a very nice weekend, pouring of rain here so not sure what we will get up to.

Thanks Trickle unfortunately we can t claim a penny nor won t be able to be if Ant stays out of work. Never been able to. Hope u feel better soon. I didn t realise you could post from your Kindle mind you last time I used it was AGES ago. I ve learnt something new today!!!
Too hope your pelvis is rested now!! No further foreward Ant's meeting at work on Monday am. Also registering at 2 specialist HR agencies on Monday. Applied for loads of jobs just awaiting to hear from them re; interviews some of the jobs are perfect. Would be ace to get 1 of them then tell his current work place to stick it!!! Even if it meant loosing some money!!
Love to all; thanks for advice xxx

trickle my dh is well jealous that you have the new kindle, he loves gadgets.

angel fx that ant gets one of those jobs, so he can tell the other place to stuff it!

cheese thinking of you, hope all is well.

They let me home yesterday after the 2nd lot of steroids and more iron, hated it all especially all the cannulas, took a few goes to get them in and failed blood tests! Least I got it done though. It was hard staying in the hospital as I was also on labour ward and that just took me back to Scarlett's birth, I don't think I could have done another night on there. Thankfully they agreed to let me home though and I'm due back on Monday for more iron and ctgs and to take things from there.

Saw consultants yesterday too and they seem to think delivery within 1-3 weeks will be happening, exactly when depends on my consultant (she's back Monday) and obviously how happy baby is inside me. She's fine at the moment, lots of movement and ctgs/scan all reassuring but the worry of my blood sugar and insulin dropping is still there.

I'm feeling quite up today though but still a little tired, I think the iron has helped quite a bit! Feel like I can breath a lot better.

How is everyone getting on? It's been hard keeping up as there wasn't a great signal at the hospital and getting much on my phone was hard too. I felt quite odd last night, think it was the steroids, but I was laid up on the sofa all night. Couldn't sit up as my back was killing me, still twinging today but a lot better so I'm assuming it was a combination of steroids and all the stress and tension my body has been through the last week. I noticed I've just been tense constantly and I ached all over last night.

It's been quite scary but exciting at the same time and I'm swinging from between being terrified of them rushing me in for an EMCS to thinking that it'll be best just to get her out safely. I don't even know if an inducement is on the cards now due to being early and I think she was breech still but, again, not sure.

Phew, long post! I've been thinking of you all still even though I've not posted, very much in my thoughts still and hoping for the best for everyone xxx

Glad to hear miniGherkin is still in situ, Cheese. Hope she carries on being happy and moving lots and can stay in for the next 3 weeks at least. It's great that you're feeling better after the iron, and I hope your consultant can calm some of your fears on Monday. Try a warm bath for the backache, maybe? It usually helps me.

Angel, FX for Ant's job applications - hope he hears soon about interviews.

Razz, a Kindle is an e-reader sold by Amazon. I got mine just after New Year and I love it - instant gratification when I want new books. It's not the kind with the keyboard, though - just the bog-standard one. Can I post from it? Yay for passing the GTT with flying colours! What did they say about your bp?

Am currently hosting PIL and just took them down to the cemetery so they could see Thea's headstone for the first time and plant some snowdrops. There are another two graves since Christmas Day. Both still covered by the funeral wreaths, so must be very recent. Thea was the last baby there for the first 6 months or so but now there are at least 7 after her, including a set of twins. It makes me so angry. I always go and read the names - I feel like I owe it to all the babies to know their names.

Too thanks. That's sad. Where we visit Georgie's special place there is a bench that is dedicated to a 8 month old boy ( from about 5 years ago) I always stop & read it , though I know exactly what it says on it.I feel I owe it to him.
Cheese great all is going well. How exciting you re nearly there. You ll be fine with a section as I said before there's nothing to it xxx
Fan thanks. We re hoping for that too. Big FX he ll get a new job very soon & tell them to f**k off (though he wouldn t !!!! I would though!!!)
Love to all; it's so windy & cold !!!

Cheese 32 weeks is really good and every day now is a bonus. It sounds like you and the consultant are working together which must help you a bit. A few weeks lovely and she'll be in your arms and all this worry will be a distant memory. Hope you are being pampered at home this weekend

Too I do the same at the cemetery where Erin is buried. She is in the children's garden I always say a little hello to the babies/children around her and also go and 'see' a little baby who was stillborn at 26 weeks - she was in the funeral home the same time as Erin and buried just 2 days before. I always straighten up her flowers, I feel her and Erin and connected somehow. Strange I know. Hope your pelvis is feeling a bit better. Do try and take it easy.

Trickle and Blue hope you're both feeling better. How is dd1 pox now Blue?

Yay for good GTT Razz. I worked myself up in to a state about mine last time but it was fine. Fx it will be this time to.

Fan have you seen the thread about residents of Copnor protesting against a funeral home opening a chapel of rest in Tangier Rd? The people of Portsmouth are not coming out of it well

Busy weekend here - am struggling a bit with tiredness at the moment.

Fx for Ant Angel that something comes up soon. It's a positive that suitable jobs are at least being advertised at least companies must be hiring in your area x

whatever no i didnt see that. It reminds me of when the people of paulsgrove stood up to what they thought was a peadophile and it turned out to be a peadiatrician or something equally stupid.

Poor old DH was having a very tough day yesterday, its really cuts me up when I see him so down and crying. Apparently part of the problem was what a guy had said at work, about DH not drinking coffee anymore and was that beacuse Dh was firing blanks! I cant beleive people can be so insensitive, DH said he just brushed it off and didnt say anything, but I think if that was me I would have had to say something. like what am I less of a man beacuse I want to try for another baby after our first baby died. But DH has always said Im not good at the middle ground Im either a person who is really nice or a complete bitch.

cheese so glad all is well at the moment. I hope your sugars stabilise and little gerkin gets to stay inside for a little longer.

Thanks whatever hopefully will be sorted ASAP !! We were going to book our holiday next week & I ' m still desperate to do so!! Need to pay as much of it off before I return to work in April as then my disposable income will be virtually zero after paying for childcare!!!
So desperate for some sun & to go abroad haven t been for 3 years with Georgie & Phebs and Ant went on a " boys ". 40 th trip to Benidorm last year so I had got the dates & resort lined up ready to go!!!
FX xxx otherwise I ll be mega depressed!!! Xxx

Good evening everyone, just a little update I got a BFP yesterday!!

winnie congratulations! I hope you have a very smooth pregnancy.

winnie that is fantastic news, congratulations
cheese great to have an update from you as you are in all of our thoughts. Fab that the hospital have you so heavily under their radar, hope that makes you feel a little safer. My friends baby was born at 31 weeks in July weighing 3lb and he is doing really well. Left hospital at 36 weeks. It would be great if she could remain inside for perhaps another 2 weeks but if not then she will have 1st class care given to her Im sure xx
fan how awful for dh to have that said to him, no wonder he is upset. Did the other man no of your history?? It really isnt the kind of thing anyone should feel ok about saying. Im defo with you and would have had to retaliate with a cutting reply
too thanks for the info on what a kindle is . I have a consultant appointment this week so guess my bp will be discussed then. I do feel fine though. Hope your pains have eased now.
wtw boo for feeling tired, the first 14 weeks are a killer!!! Im really suffering from achey legs during the night, they get so painful that they wake me up (along with the almost reverse parking fiasco that changing position now feels like!!) never had it in any previous pregnancy.
angel fingers crossed for good news for Ant this week that enables you to book that holiday. My dh has a few interviews coming up, really starting to worry about it all now. We have about 2 months worth of payments left from his bonus when he returned home. Scary stuff.
Hope everyone else is well. Im working this afternoon, Sunday is so slow, it really drags!!!!

Thanks Razz hope u re hubby gets sorted soon also xxx

Evening ladies

Fan your poor dh I do think sometimes people forget this has happened to our husbands and partners too and that they are hurting just as much.

Winnie huge congratulations when is your due date? How are you feeling about it?

Razz I got achy restless legs when I was pg with Erin. Not much helped except cutting out caffeine totally and I had a body shop peppermint leg spray I used to spray on in the night. Am pretty sure it was just a placebo effect but it helped me.

Been to my dads for the day with my brother and sister. Told them and they were all very excited and lovely. I don't think anyone can comprehend just how terrifying a prospect it is though. Still feeling stupidly tired am hoping I get some energy back soon.

Waves to all xx

Hello,

Thanks for all the congrats! I am feeling excited and also anxious at the same time but my thoughts are to try not to worry too much. There is nothing I can do so will just have to cross each bridge as we get to it!

We told our family today although it's so early we could do with their support.

I hope everyone else is doing ok x

Forgot to say we think due date is early October but will see what the doc says.