July 2012 flight - continued...

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How gutted to log on and find that someone had beaten me to the 1000 post and I couldn't update on the old thread.

Particularly as I got my BFP last night!!! I'd had two BFNs last week and was expecting AF to arrive while on holiday but it never came... Got more and more convinced that I was pg (feeling a bit sick too) as the weekend went on and literally tested within 10 mins of arriving home. Poor DH was still unloading the car as I greeted him at the door with my pink line!

Very excited although a bit apprehensive too. Really want to tell everyone but obviously don't want to this early so am REALLY pleased I have all you lovely ladies on MN to share with.

I was too excited to do more than skim the last few pages on the last thread but did see there had been several other BFPs so congratulations to all those too!

Thanks Berries.

I should mention that the only symptoms I get with AF are the cramps, and they usually are an indicator that it's already arrived.

I don't get lumpy boobs, queasiness, dizziness, or cramps beforehand at all.
That's what's thrown me. I was so sure something was going on.
Maybe it's another chemical.

Sod's law!

On the plus side, I totally took it out on the bedroom ceiling, and now it's all painted and lovely looking. Was putting it off in case of, you know, but now that AF is here I painted in my birthday suit as planned (it's the easiest outfit to
wash!)

In fact I'm going to treat til Friday as a 'get the bedroom done' week.
Now I can work on polyfilla-ing the walls, sanding them, putting on the base coat, and the lovely purple paint at last...
Hell, maybe even figure out what to do about a damn wardrobe and hang my bloody clothes up at last! (reminiscing about clothes that I have forgotten exist emoticon)

Oh, and strip the woodwork...

Wow Rusulka just WoW!!! You have been working like a Trojan!! Well done you! Have a and put your feet up :)

Berries I know what you mean about the pg women being EVERYWHERE!! Just found out someone else in work is expecting, lovely little bump being flaunted in my face!! Had to go to the toilet and have a little cry!!

Hi all so sorry i have been taking a step back from it all and tried not to let it become to much - i have also not had a catch up but done a speed read quickly and so -
Sending my hugs and big shoulders to all -feeling down, clueless about ov-ing and stressing about 2ww or watching symptoms or working too hard or getting ready for a big exam!
festie - Hugs xx
Ilove - Hugs xx
MooWoo- Big Hugs xx
Rusulka- Big Hugs xxx

My boss has decided to move me into a different department due to my working hours so not happy i was liking my team and how we work together helping each other now with the big move i just feel like staying home!!!!!!! the other team dont work well and dont help each other loads off back biting!
have not done much Swi so right now dont think its happening this year for me, feeling blahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh and would just want to fly out tomorrow if i could and to top it off was hit with a massive parking ticket that cant afford right now!
Please need some good news, for this thread really needs a lift!!!!!!!!!!

Oh Rusulka I'm so, so sorry. What a horrible rollercoaster. Well done on your amazing DIY work though - good to work it all off sometimes, and you'll end up with a lovely bedroom to show for it, which you can admire while you're SWI-ing! :o

Berries and Mooley, sorry that pg ladies are all over the place flaunting their pg-ness. Little gentle hug for you Moo after your little cry....

I don't know about the genetic link and depression, berries. My Mum is bi-polar and drank to cope. Now she's virtually wheelchair bound because of little strokes, probably brought on by the drinking. So, although I may have inhereted a certain propensity to depression, I have dealt with it much much better than she did, so my instinct is to be open with my kids about it, and supportive if they come to me with concerns in the future. FX they'll deal with it even better than I did if they're affected!

Ooh hello Count [waves and hugs] xxx

Moowoo- trust me big hugs, at my work place pregnant women working around like shes going to give birth now she has 3 more work weeks!!!!!!
gutted for i would of been off chilling not stressing waiting for my baby to come!!!! blahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh, shaking of my mood today feels so hard!

at Festie

Oh count - this is going to be a hard time for you whatever. I hope you are able to do some good things for yourself, even if work is being a f--ing nightmare!

Do you have nice things planned for Christmas? Hope so. xxxx

Festie-did have, also loads of bdays, but now being car-less i dont think it will be possible - you never know miracles happen everyday!!!!!!!

It's great to have your support ladies.
You keep me going through the day until DH is home to wah all over.
How did people cope before t'internet?

Moo and Festie, I'm afraid I'm not all that at the DIY, in fact, I have to sand the walls because my replastering is wonky, lol!

I've been putting off the decorating for months, but I might as well get it done. Besides which, I've decided I'm not allowed to decorate for Christmas until I do! Horror! Must put up tree! And invent gaps that require epic ornament-buying trips!

Rusulka, seems we've both been lead astray by our bodies. I had a light bleed at 7dpo which stopped and turned into very light brown spotting until last night when AF arrived with a vengeance. I allowed myself to get very excited yesterday as AF was a day late and my temps were still up and usually plummet the day AF arrives. There was a part of me that didn't want an August baby but the part of me that wants any baby at all is gutted.

Big glass of for me tonight I reckon to drown my sorrows.

oh dee .... i don't know what to say :( Gutted for you. Sorry

This thread seriously needs some good news!!!!

Anyone testing soon?

I had a weird one today (TMI alert)... went to ladies and had loads and loads of EWCM, more than i usually get at any time of the month. and i am on CD09 and never ov till CD17..... Wonder what's going on..... Low reading on my CBFM so it must just be a one off.

I want to invent a preggo wand....

Oh ladies!! We really do need a lift!! count so sorry that you have been moved into a rubbish department!! And also for the fact that this should be your turn!!! We are here, never forget that!!

Dee so sorry the hag whore got you! She really is on a roll at the moment and we need to kick her into touch and show her who's boss!!

Got a little more upset tonight, as DH asked when we would next go back to the states (we both love the country and honeymooned there) and I absent mindedly said that the we would go next year and show little Henry (yea we've already picked out a boys name!) although pointed out that he might be seeing it from the womb!! Dont know where it came from, more wishful thinking than anything else!!

Sometimes I really wish that we all didn't live at other ends of the country (or possibly other side of the world) and imagine us having a weekly TTC coffee evening, all getting together to discuss our woes etc ah to dream hey!!!

Rusukla at vaginal misunderstanding but sorry you are having a rough time. Having all the symptoms and then af rearing her ugly head is so upsetting.
I'm like you and put on a good face - it's generally only my BF who can see through it. I think things just got so bad I couldn't maintain it any more and fell to pieces.

Berries glad you're going to go and see someone. I was from the 'pick yourself up love' camp and think thats why I ended up so bad, I just tried to smile through it. You might have to push to get someone to listen depending on what your doc is like with MH - if needs be exaggerate a little. They will prob give you a 'test' with a load of q's that you answer on a scale from never (0) to every day (3) and they add it up - I was severaly anxious and had moderately severe depression the first time and they were great at getting me help. Good luck. (if you do some googling you can find the test online and take it yourself to give you some idea of where you are, will try to find it later if I have time)

I wonder why there are so many of us that have suffered - they say something like 1/4? 1/3? maybe more, will suffer at some point so maybe we are a normal representation but are more open as we talk about mucas etc so no holds barred? Or maybe it's affecting TTC and so we have ended up here? Ohh I see a research project here! Graphs, lists of numbers ...

Moowoo hope it does go well, if you work as hard at your work as you do TTC you will have no probs.

festie hopefully your body has settled down now and beautiful charts will be the way forward (but lot for long before you get a BFP!)

blue sorry I have no clue about your chart - only advice is get SWI!

Not sure how but missed an entire page before posting!

Sorry Count wasn't ignoring you (had to outdo others - maybe I should go to the traits you try to hide as they aren't nice thread!) Sorry you have been moved to a rubbish team and are so down but impressed with the diy - no christmas decorating until done?! That is harsh :(

Dee sorry the whore got you too - she is loving people on this thread atm

Moo would love a coffee morning with all of you ... wonder where the most central point is? I'm in Devon

Obviously the decorating part was aimed at Rusukla Sorry!

Hey Lil - I'm in Cornwall! Any more SW ladies?!

I am well and truly in the 2ww now; 5dpo so too early to SS really, so trying not to obsess, but failing, obviously!

Still, my LP is usually 12 days, so I reckon I'll test on Mon/tues. So that's something to dread look forward to!

Oh festie fx'd for you!! What an excellent Xmas present that would be, plus a positive for what has been a really rough time for you lately!!

I could quite possibly be in the 2ww! Eeeeeeeeek!! Temp rose again this morning, need to see some more high temps and then i will be very happy!! Dtd day before potential ov day, so crossing everything!!

I sadly live in the NW :( i'd happily drive down though

CP lowish, soft and open and copious amounts of creamy CM (I thought it has all but disappeared!)

Berries i would welcome your preggo wand :)

I too would welcome a preggo wand!

Actually, I'd really love a home ultrasound kit. After this month, it would have been nice to have a look and see what the f**k was going on. I read something online about someone getting all the pg symptoms but getting AF anyway, and when they went to the docs, they'd had a burst ovarian cyst, so now I'm convinced I've got that.

Coffee (or tea for me) would be awesome! I'm in north Kent (but sound like I'm from NE, lol).

FX for Festie & Moo that your cycles are now behaving and you have lovely normal(ish) charts from now on.

It would have been so nice to be 2 months pg at Christmas and be able to say "Bad news everyone. Christmas is going to be a bit more expensive next year!"and then whip out a scan. That's how I plan on telling people. My other favourite is to say to my parents "Have you given any thought as to what you'd like to be called by your grandchildren? (...) Well, crack on, you've got XYZ months to think of something!"

Before I wanted to tell people straight away, but after July I'm more of the 'wait til you see a heartbeat' school.
I haven't really been able to talk to anyone about how horrible it was to have it go wrong, so when it finally does happen, we'll be keeping shtum! (sp)

Hi everyone.....

WEEEEELLL, I have decided to leave seeing the GP till the new year. I think it is all to do with the awful time i am having at work and am going to see if i can improve that first.... That doesn't mean i don't appreciate all the support etc but i'm going to see if i can get myself out of 'it' first. (I did read your post lil and i do see that maybe that won't help but i am aware of it all so i can keep an eye on myself and if i get worse i PROMISE i will do something about it.) I am going to do that online test thing aswell and may change my mind when i see the results!

festie, mooley - 2WW for you ladies :) COME ON!!

count - hey there!!!! I won't try and out do the other greetings but just giving ya a high 5!!

dee and rusulka - hope you ladies are getting thoroughly stuck into the wine! every cloud.....

if i get time later i will try and do the stats!

I am in the SouthEast so no devon meet up for me :(

Suppose i better do some work really..... snore!

Hello everyone,

Well I've got some sort-of-good news - my DP was diagnosed with a major heart artery blockage yesterday but they have already cleared it (phew) so hopefully that is hopeful for the future. To be honest I'm not letting myself think about it from any other angle. Just sitting here passing the time until I can go and pick him up from hospital now.

As for depression, I've been on antidepressants on and off for 8 years or so. I had a terrible time trying to get off them two years ago (that was a fun Christmas, hmm) but when I came off them again in April it was pretty hard but actually I'm doing ok. I forget I'm not on them most of the time! Berries I think this time of year doesn't help depression much to be honest and that combined with work and the stress of TTC can make a pretty toxic stew. But even then, don't forget there doesn't have to be a reason for depression and if it doesn't go away then there is no point being miserable when something can be done about it.

Rusulka and Dee that is rubbish news, fingers crossed for your next cycles.

Count keep your chin up and remember that we're here for you!

Hi all, so sorry to hear of so many suffering from feeling low/depression, its so hard sometimes to stay positive, I often have a little cry!

Well, I think I am officially in the 2ww, on CD22 and CBFM gave peaks on CD16 & 17 so must be 5/6 dpo, however if my long cycles are anything to go by (38 days) it will be more like a 3ww for me! or, my cycles have shortened dramatically this month and it is in fact a 2ww. The big question will be how long can I hold out til I POAS?? The sensible side of me says wait til after CD38 as it will be soooo disappointing to get a BFN, would rather find out bad news the natural way with AF to be honest.

Its a tricky time to fall pg or not to fall pg, if not this month then I know I can drink over Christmas, but if I do get a BFP this month then can't drink and also can't tell anyone as its too early. Everyone would know, theres only so much 'I'm driving' I could get away with!! Although having 18mth DS does help to create some excuses!

I think I'll wait til after CD38 unless I get any really really really obvious pg symptoms, this will be a test of willpower!

maisie i'll be so impressed if you can refrain till CD38. You know that's 3 weeks away right???? My AF is due in 3 weeks... POAS buddy ;)

disco god how awful, but good that your DP has been sorted so quickly.

xx

Wow disco, scary things hearts, aren't they? As some of you know, my DH had a heart attack in May, followed very quickly by a quintuple bypass in May! So I know how terrifying it can all be. Really glad he got it sorted straight away!

maisie, if you can hold out that long you're a better woman than I am! I'm already planning on POAS on mon/tues (yeah, who am I kidding? Monday, I mean) and I'm only 5dpo! :o

Really hoping (and praying, though I'm not remotely religious) that you are indeed in the 2ww, moo!

Hope everyone's OK this evening. My mouth is still hurting... :( Poor Mr festie isn't getting to be anywhere near me at the mo. It's lucky I'm not in my fertile bit! :o

disco so pleased everything is ok and that it has been sorted!!!

festie I'm not holding out much hope if I'm honest!! Am thinking that a combination of PCOS and high stress levels will mean either late ov or none at all! But can't get upset as I have my assessment to get through on Friday so all attention has been diverted to that for now (watch this space though, will be back with a vengeance on Friday afternoon!)

Maisie I am always considering POAS and I'm not even properly ov'ing!!! Fair play to you if you hold out that long!!!