Morning all, fingers crossed for those of you getting to the exciting/scary stages! I hope you all get the results you're hoping for!
Just to warn you that this will be a long post as I've had some bad news and need to get a few things off my chest and hoefully draw some positives from those of you that may have been in a similar position...
Our ICSI cycle was cancelled yesterday due to my lack of response to the Menopur. On my right ovary I only had one follicle at 16mm, the rest were 10mm or less. Yet again, my left ovary went into hiding so I have no idea how many follicles there could have been, but they said that even if they went for EC, it would be too risky to try and poke about to find it.
They also found 'something' on my right ovary and they couldn't determine what 'it' is, even after asking a few other doctors. They guess that this 'something' is about 5cm big but they weren't able to see it properly.
Off I went for a couple of blood tests (one for renal function and one to check certain proteins in my blood, ie, to check if this thing is something bad) and I'm also waiting for an appointment for an abdominal MRI scan.
They also passed comment that I seemed to have slightly less eggs than I should have for someone my age (32) - why did they not mention this sooner??!!
So......to say we're gutted is an understatement. The reason we were having ICSI was due to DH's sperm results so I (selfishly, naively) assumed that I was absolutely fine and now we know that I'm not.
They have said that this is not the end of the road and that should we decide to try again that they will have me on a higher dose of Menopur from the start. However, I was on the high dose (4 ampules) for a week on this cycle and only got one follicle so what difference will it make having the high dose for another few days on the next?
Should we be thinking about going elsewhere for treatment as we just went with where our GP referred us to, but as we are paying for it all then we have the freedom to choose where we go, right?
What if we have to go down the donor egg route? I don't know how I'd feel about that......although I'd give anything to experience being pregnant and give us the child that we want to complete our family (DH already has 3 kids)....but then would it be in the back of my head that part of the child isn't mine? Would that matter?
As you can see, I have a lot of questions but I just want to get over the hurdle of this growth they've found and take it from there.
If any of you can offer any words of wisdom they would be much appreciated as at the moment I just can't stop crying.....