CLOMID first timer....

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I can't seem to find any clomid threads that are active, so thought I would start this one.

Currently just finished taking my last tablet (50mg) on my first month of clomid, I'm very excited & nervous at the same time.

So many things going on in my head, no one to really talk to, symptoms are a bitch (but must mean something is working if I have symptoms yeah?!)

has anyone taken clomid without being monitored? My consultant isn't going to scan me to check on follicles, I just have to go back to see her in 3 weeks (not sure what for?)

Really hoping this works!

But if anyone wants to join me on a clomid ride, share info or success stories, feel free to......

npg1 sorry to hear about your mc poor thing & so recent. I know mc are not nice last time i was pg i mc. hugs hun. I have taken some strong painkillers & hot water bottle on my back i could not move but can still feel some pain but not as bad, same here feels like im having a mc but i know its not. Thats good news your not in pain anymore. Good luck with clomid i hope it works great for you. Don't worry about side effects hopefully it will be worth it in the end & if you are feeling moody or how ever you feel you can chat on this clomid thread to ladies in the same clomid hard journey who understand.

weird message posted twice don't know how that happened.

Morning ladies, wow there's been a lot of activity in the past 24hrs!

Welcome coolmint

golden you poor poor thing, I'm so sorry to hear of your horrible few days! I know it's easy to blame things on clomid but honestly that stuff does make you go absolutely wappy so I'm pretty sure it is the root of your outburst and I think anyone going through all that you have this week would be at least feeling a little low, clomid is just going to make thing seem even worse. I hope you and DP are back on speaking terms at least, it is sooo easy to take it all out on the ones closest to us but you need each other, and you're obviously miserable without him.
As for 2ww, yes Iam, already driving myself mad with it all! Well we bed rocked everyday so I don't think we could be much more than that!?! I do sooo hope it was enough. I too felt that there was pretty much nothing that would stop me from the bed rocking! I do hope I ovulated, everything indicates I have but I won't believe it until I get my blood tests back.

summer you're so lovely doing what you do, I bet your foster care girl loves the time you spend together, I know what you mean with all these happy families though! I was talking about babies with friends (who don't know my situation) and 1 said 'I only know people who got pregnant really quickly' and went on to list them all, I was screaming inside but just smiled politely - grrrrr!

meluv I'm sooo hopeful for you, I know what you mean about getting a bfn, I hate the little bliters! I hope af isn't on it's way.

hopefully I'm so sorry to hear about your bfn and af you've got all of us to lean on though, we all understand how difficult this journey is, we WILL all get there eventually.

I've had a chat with DH and parents & in-laws and everyone's in agreement that I leave my full time job to peruse my business I can't believe how supportive they're being, however I'm not going to do anything brash until the end of my 2ww - there I go putting my life on hold 'just in case'

Big hugs to you all, sorry if I've missed things, there was a lot to take in from all the activity yesterday and on a little phone screen it can be difficult.

NPG1 and Hopefully, I hope your pains subside. Sounds bloody awful

Rosie...I am SO excited for you!! Bed-rocking every day? I am but only for the multiple sperm deposits, not because I am a horny bitch Bravo on the career decision - don't look back, especially with the familial support you are being offered. You go, girl Oh, do tell us what DPO you are so we can all get excited!

I rang DP last night and, without my prompting him, confessed he started smoking in the immediate aftermath of the news of his mother's death. He also went on to say that he has been utterly crushed by the knowledge that his father may not be his biological one and that the reason he has not felt able to open his heart to me is because we seem to be 'existing in parallel universes' at the moment. Without placing any blame at my feet he gently suggested that his work fatigue and familial issues and my obsession (my word) with ttc and mumsnet forums is pushing us into our own separate bubbles. I had to agree. When he comes home from work I am on the computer and barely lift my head until bed time. He strongly believes stress can impact upon fertility (I don't) and looks to those whose hair falls out overnight as proof that stress affects hormone levels

His point is that I need to relax and re-establish myself a little. He pointed out that I have been going to church less and less, the gym even less frequently and haven't touched my bike in weeks (Ceri, my friend from the gym, gave me her old bike and it's fab). I have to say, without internet access, I have been hammering the gym with Ceri and have felt great. I think now that my CRB form has arrived I will be getting a call from the addiction charity to do some voluntary work. There has to be more to my life than ttc. There simply has to be.

Morning all you lovely ladies what a lovely day it looks like its going to be hear well am going to finish off putting my Xmas decs up I looked like a Xmas tree last night I was covered in glitter from head to toe my af still not arrived as of yet tummy pains gone too strange things going on I had a dream I got a BFP an my sister was with me but my eyes were all going funny and the lines on the test were jumping so I was screaming at her check this check this is it my eyes or is that a BFP then u wake up to reality dam dreams well I do hope you all have a wonderful day and I hope golden you an your DP have sorted things out big hugs to you all and I will keep use posted on my af think it will arrive as I am not that lucky x

golden we crossed posted hunny an I do t want to hurt you saying this but may be you DP has a little point luv this ttc journey can an does take over your life all because its what we want so much in life us ladies we look so deep into it an you have tons of knowledge hunny about ttc so u can imagine you looking an looking things up on the net or reading books which is great luv for more insight to it an then you share it all with us when we ask questions .. But I think by the sounds of what you do is saying you are doing this constantly and not realising in the mean time he is sitting watching you or does other stuff as he thinks to him self hear my girl goes again more computer more mumsnet more ttc am , am not saying its wrong to do all what you do as we r all guilty off it and getting caught up in the whole ttc thing I no my DP has spoke to me about going to deep into it as I was always looking things up an reading forums he said please don't let it ruin us babe an don't let it take over our lives he was so right to say that as if he didn't I wud of prob done all them things an it wud of split us up golden please don't fall out with me or take this the wrong way but just take a lil step back from it all an spend some quality time with your DP use are so good together lovely big hugs xxx

Meluv, I could never fall out with you. You are so very wise and you have absolutely hit the nail on the head. I intend to take all your advice.

Can you post a photo in the gallery of your Christmas tree and decs? I'd love to see them xx

golden I know bed rocking every day does make me sound like a sex maniac but I was terrified of 'missing the boat'. This is the first month I've had an actual cycle to follow (have noted my temp before but was a waste of time because I wasn't ovulating) so I've been pretty obsessed about it all. I do worry that it was too much and DH's sperm might have dwindled but I guess we could try well timed bed rocking every other day next month if everyday didn't work! I don't know, it's all guess work isn't it! I'm 5 dpo so still a long way to go yet still avoiding alcohol like its poison, so far so good I just spoke to my sister about the career update, she's the least positive about it but still didn't tell me to get my head tested! VERY scary but exciting!
I'm glad you've spoken to DP it sounds like it needed to be said and out in the open, I'm pretty sure we can all be guilty of paying too much attention to forums ttc articles and general research on the internet, it's just how this crazy journey works I'm afraid. Maybe you could limit the forums and research to when DP is at work or out of the house I think maybe I should take my own advice you've both been through such a lot, try and pull together through it all instead of trying to deal with everything separately, you know what they say 'a problem shared is a problem halved' I do hope you're both ok though.

meluv you poor thing, your dream shows how much you're worrying about testing, maybe you should bring test day forward a bit for your own sanity? I understand that you don't want a bfn but these pains have been coming and going without af arriving, I really do think you're in with a good chance of a BFP. Either way I hope you enjoy putting up your Christmas decorations, I bet it looks amazing how is it nearly Christmas again!?!

I am about to return to my beloved, who tells me that t'internet is still unavailable in the valley. Don't know when I'll be reconnected, so...ta-ta for now x

golden so pleased that you and dp have had a good talk. He has had such a hard time hasn't he. And not surprised he is concerned that you are mumsnetting so much - though most of us are guilty of that. I had a similar discussion with dh about that and I ended up agreeing to completely leave mumsnet for a while, which I managed to do for about 2 months (was still obsessing though). I wouldn't recommend you do that (we wouldn't get your updates!) however perhaps only mumsnetting while he's out would be a plan so that you can spend more time as a couple?

meluv lots of hugs, surely there is a good chance of happy news, admire your ability to step away from the sticks. Hope your house all christmassy now!

rosie am so jealous and impressed re. your career move. Go girl. I have a conundrum in that I am thoroughly fed up at work yet my employer is actually very good at flexible working for mums, furthermore I know I could do my job part time/working from home if I needed to, so am holding out for now but for how much longer I don't know! Think I'm going to look into options of a different job at my employer, at least for something else to focus on at work. I'm just very aware that if I move employer I may not get mat leave if i get pg and of course they would likely not be as good for returning mums as my employer is, especially as obviously they would not know me so well. I have been same place for 5 years now.

npg hope AF hurries out of the way quickly. you taking your first pill today? I didn't really get side effects at the time but have heard that taking them last thing helps minimise because you are asleep!

So managed to dtd last night and another temp rise this am so suffice to say ship has definitely sailed though I don't know for sure when. Blinking constipation put me off sex (stopped my CM too?!!!) which am annoyed about because chances are I ov thurs or friday (maybe wed if I'm lucky) yet didn't dtd between tuesday and saturday. i have low sex drive anyway (just what you need when TTC!) and the constipation just sent it out the window. At least I am seeing this cycle as a learning one for clomid as I appear to be ovulating earlier than normal - fingers crossed this makes a longer LP which is what I think I really need. So that next cycle I can be more prepared. i think lots more women conceive on their 2nd cycle of clomid than their first anyway, definitely read that somewhere.

Other good news is that i got my thyroid results back and my tsh is back down to just over 2 (from 8) after a few weeks' levothyroxin. Although both consultant and GP are convinced that even 8 shouldn't affect fertility, a quick google search and I'm convinced that it does, I was aiming for TSH between 1 and 2 and I'm almost there after the tiniest possible dose of drugs so very chuffed about that.

Have been on the laptop working all afternoon (!!!!!) but logging off now to watch telly. Ran 10 miles this morning and am pretty exhausted!

Can't wait for my next homeland installment later.

R golden u will be missed lovely I wud luv to put pics up but not a clue on how to do it my trees look stunning am a glitter ball again lol still no af arrived no news is good news I say

Quick question when do you lady's start your ovulation tests after your last tablet?

Ahhh thanks christelle I haven't handed my notice in yet, not going to rush into yet, might wait until January, my sister pointed out that nobody will buy anything in January so it'll be a tough month, might as well work and get a wage then start February, very daunting but exciting too. You've got a tough conundrum, but what I would say is if you're sick of work now it'll only get worse and you'll only dislike it more when you're a working mum. It is difficult knowing your hopes and plans because not all employers are as accommodating when it comes to maternity leave etc. I do worry that I'm throwing away maternity leave doing this but if you don't take risks in life it can get pretty boring and i don't want to look back and say what if! One of my friends works 3 days for her employer 2 in the office and 1 from home, she can pretty much come and go as she pleases which is great cos she has a 3 year old and another on the way, but she's soooo bored of her job, no job satisfaction, career progression or thanks but its convenient for her circumstances. It gets to a point when you need to weigh things up.

Btw, how much do you run? I used to run everyday but stopped in case that was the reason for me not ovulating/having periods. I only ever did a maximum of 6 miles at a time so not as good as you, well done!

annalou I didn't start ovulation tests until after I had my scan for follies so for me cd15 but I think they say on the packaging to start from cd10, hope that helps a bit.

I have been such a miserable cow, I just cant snap out of it. Im depressed about going to work tomorrow. I never knew ttc would be so difficult x

npg1 keep your chin up. This ttc journey is so so tough, but you will get there, we all will! I TOTALLY know how you feel though I've just heard the 6th friend pregnancy announcement now how many times can we be kicked whilst we're down!?! I think sometimes we just have be miserable to make ourselves feel better, but you've got us all and we'll do all that we can to get through this. Have some they smell really pretty xx

Aww thank you rosie. 6th announcement, thats tough, im sorry. just finding life a bit dull at mo, we only got married 6 weeks ago but there is nothing to look forward to! X

Npg1 I got mailed 2 months ago and I feel exactly the same I've been so down even tho in happy with my marriage etc I feel there's nothing to look forward to as I was planning my wedding for a year and half and now nothing!!!!! I hate my job since this new girl has started I just don't talk to anyone at work anymore I've really isolated myself.

Sorry I meant married

Aww anna, I thought i was the only one! I work part time in a nursery and finding it tiring and I am a childminder 2 days a week for a 1yr old which I love doing. I cant stand all the pregnant people at work and all the tiny babies! What date did u get married? I got married 22nd sept, did u go on honeymoon? X

I'm counting all my chickens that this is going to be my month as if it is the baby would be due around my hubby's birthday and the date that I could test is on my dads birthday so hopefully he will be looking down and grant us this wish I'm slightly superstitious so that's what's keeping me going t the mo. If this doesn't work nice holiday will be booked for feb and new job hunting in jan!!!!!

golden glad you have sorted it out with hubby, I think the woman's part in this ttc journey is so much more we look into the smallest of details get carried away while the men seam more in control I just don't know how they do it lol. Your honesty about your past is very humbling everything that you did good or bad has made you who you are and you should never be ashamed or let it get you down past is past we have all made mistakes but I believe we should never regret (unless a serious crime committed lol) I think you will make a fantastic mum spesh with your life experiences and how much you want this to work. Regarding the smoking I'm not a fan and I can see why you was angry but in context I guess he felt he needed something to release some of the stress with his family issues, but hopefully you will both get there :).

meluv the suspense is killing me lol how any days till you are testing? I just don't know how u are so set I would have had to get it over with so I know what's what and not getting hopes up in case clomid made my cycle longer. I admire your strength!!!!!!

Thanks rosie I've worked out that based on my cycle I should start testing on Thursday and possibly ovulating between the 22-27th all been well.

I got married on the 1st sep best day of my life :)

No we haven't had a honeymoon yet if we don't get any joy with this cycle we will book to go away in feb as a treat and something to look forward to.

Did you go on honeymoon???

Have you got any children or is the your first? It must be hard working with kids when all you want is one of your own. As mentioned before my friend announced she was preg the night before my wedding I felt ok about cause I had so much going on but last week she had her 20 week scan and announced she was having a little girl I cried lol I felt so sorry for myself. It's really strange I just don't see me with children of my own I try and picture it but it feels strange I just hope that's not the case and it will happen. I've never wanted children at all until I met my husband and I think it's bloody typical now I want them I can't :(

annalou big hugs lovely I like the way you are thinking about test dates an hubby b/day I think on them lines myself Hun I am catholic but don't go to church but I still say my lil prayer every every night I talk to my lil queen (mum) in my prayers as I no she will always do her very best to answer them About testing Hun am so afraid of bfn that y I won't do it wud just rather let time tell but if my af don't arrive by Friday this week I will test Sat morning ... I realy hope an pray that clomid works for you this month hunny hugs xxx ... Npg big hugs to to u too an I hope an pray it works for you too just as I hope it works for all is lovely ladies we so deserve it to happy Monday morning all xxxx

Hello lovelies!

Npg1 and Annalou, are you experiencing the dreadful post-wedding anti-climax I keep hearing about? You must have high expectations of babies now you are married and that kind of thinking won't help you at all. Please, please don't let yourselves get down in the dumps. Once your bodies start releasing those young, fresh eggs you'll be laughing. Npg1, you sound as though you need to seriously consider finding activities/hobbies to enjoy whilst you wait for your babies to arrive. The wedding is over - let the rest of your life begin. Get out and about, exercise, laugh...and I will try to take my own advice

Meluv, what cycle day are you on? 38?

I'm off for my scan tomorrow...I'm DYING to see three juicy follicles (I'm too greedy but I need more of my eggs to pop out each month in case they are poor quality. I am 41 remember! )

Christelle, wonderful news about your thyroid result. What a treat

[waves over at Rosie]

Hi everyone. Well thankfully my monday is nearly over! I am on cd 4 and have my first scan wednesday morning. Not sure what they will be looking for? Yes I do need to busy myself.

I already have 2 childreb aged 10 and 6 and didnt have problems like im having now.

Honeymoon was in maldives!!!! X