CLOMID first timer....

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I can't seem to find any clomid threads that are active, so thought I would start this one.

Currently just finished taking my last tablet (50mg) on my first month of clomid, I'm very excited & nervous at the same time.

So many things going on in my head, no one to really talk to, symptoms are a bitch (but must mean something is working if I have symptoms yeah?!)

has anyone taken clomid without being monitored? My consultant isn't going to scan me to check on follicles, I just have to go back to see her in 3 weeks (not sure what for?)

Really hoping this works!

But if anyone wants to join me on a clomid ride, share info or success stories, feel free to......

golden I'm so pleased you are ok but sounds like you have had such a rough ride these past few days. Very annoying about dh smoking again. Perhaps a little while at your mums will help you both cool off a bit? Don't know what to say about smoking,I absolutely loath being around smokers and certainly couldn't stand having one for a partner, even though I am an ex smoker myself. Maybe don't nag about the health issues so much because he will have had enough of that, the financial implications on the other hand, if you think how much it could cost over, say, a year are massive.
Sorry you had such a tough time in Manchester, I live nearby so will look out for you but I never saw that documentary so the chances of spotting you are slim!

meluv I cannot believe you are not testing! If I was you I'd be peeing on sticks three times a day by now! But I'm impressed by your attitude.

nancy thanks so much for sharing your encouraging story.

coolmint welcome and fingers crossed for you! I am in a similar situation, 34 and on day 16 of my first 50mg clomid cycle. How are you getting on with it?

I'm really confused tbh, usually I get strong ovulation signs day 15 to 18 or so culminating in a temp ris at the end. I am hoping clomid will essentially lengthen my LP as it is currently just over a week. I think I may have ovulated early this month so fingers crossed, got my tem rise today but had cramps back on Wednesday after a good scan on Tuesday revealed 1 big 20mm follie. However, though we DTD on Tuesday night, since then I have had really had constipation (tmi, sorry!) and frankly haven't felt like it. I've taken medication for it though and better today so will try and DTD again soon just in case I'm not too late, though I reckon i probably am. Very frustrated because I thought I knew my cycle backwards and looks like the clomid has messed it up- for better or worse we'll see.

Anyway better tidy the house before strictly!

Oh golden I'm so glad you're ok - ish - I was starting to get really worried.
I'm sorry you've had such an utterly rotten few days. I think meluv is so right that we all look back at the past and see periods that we're very proud of and periods that we downright can't believe were us. In fact when I look back at some of the summers that have existed over the years it does make my mind absolutely boggle that they were, in fact, me.
The human power to change ourselves is one of the most precious assets we have. You have done a wonderful thing in getting better, getting healthy, starting over - don't let your past upset you - see it as the thing that has given you the strength to be who you are today.
I'm so sorry you and your DP fought - I think
I can't comment on the smoking thing as I have a weirdly un-addictive personality - I don't really get addicted to anything, even things that most people do - so I can't imagine how tough it is to give up.
The two of you do need to keep on side though - have you called him yet to apologise? Tell him what you told us - how much you value the kindness and understanding in your relationship - but that you are also so very desperate (I hope you don't mind me using that word - I bloody well know I am!) for a child and you need him to do everything he can to support that dream. Could you bear him having, say, one cigarette a day/week? Or do you know that to be impossible - does it need to be cold turkey or nothing?
Christelle has a good point on the finances - even a pack a week is £20 (?) a month, £240 a year, money that could be put towards a holiday or something for the two of you.
I'm thinking of you tonight and hoping you are finding some peace.

meluv good lord you are strong! I would have definitely cracked by now! It's got to be a BFP, it's got to!!!!

welcome to coolmint and thank you to nancy (even though I am officially clomid resistant, I am still holding out hope for the next stage!)

Christelle you may well catch the egg this cycle, but even if not, try to see it as a learning experience. I think clomid does change women's bodies/cycles in unpredictable ways so if it winds up not working out this month hopefully you'll be armed with more information for next month. Safest bet, though, is regular bed rocking...

Had a lovely day with my little foster care girl but it always makes me so broody. Wherever I take her there are (unsurprisingly) kids and happy families galore. It is tough. Then again I think of what she's been through and it makes me feel very lucky...funny old world isn't it.

R summer thank you for the lovely comment am so afraid of seeing a bfn I think that's why I don't want to test I just keep thinking to myself where there is no red paint there is loads if hope I no use girls are all waiting to no the results too but I just can't bring myself to test I say a lil prayer to my lil queen (mum) up above rub my lil tummy and ask for her help big hugs girls have a lovely weekend xxx

Thanks, girls, for your kind words, I've really missed you.

Christelle, a temp rise today would signify you ovulated yesterday, right? May I ask why mere constipation put the kibosh on bed-rocking? I swear, even if I had pustulated boils protruding from my vagina around ovulation I would have sex. I am being tongue-in-cheek, of course, but you know what I mean. So depressing in retrospect to think we could have done more to make a baby (nothing is ever enough, though, I am beginning to feel ).

Summer, in answer to your earlier post t'other day I feel strongly that, if money is no object, you should skip the Gonal f and skip straight to IVF. I am surprising myself here - I hate to steer people like cattle towards what I consider to be a cynical industry - but I worry you may have particularly resistant ovaries. On what I am basing my suspicions I have no idea, it's a weird feeling I have. I guess I hate to think of you waiting until next March for injections which may not work. If you opt for IVF how would they retrieve your eggs, if you were not ovulating? Would you consider donor eggs? That little girl you mentor is lucky to have you in her life, I reckon. So lovely of you to give your time and love in that way. Thanks for your good advice re apologising to DP. Of course an apology is on the cards...maybe tomorrow

Coolmint, you sound such a lovely lady, I am glad you found us May I ask if you are religious/spiritual (I'm getting a vibe)?

Meluv, you are absolutely right to stay away from the tests at the moment - a false negative will bring untold misery. Just keep a level head and prepare yourself for the worst. We're here if AF turns up and to remind you that a miracle has already taken place in your body with your remarkable ovulation

Pains in tummy again girls just little ones may be af on its way x

NPG1, so sorry about AF

Rosie, you're on the 2ww, right? You think you ovulated on Tuesday? When did you rock the bed? Did you do enough? (I swear I am not a voyeur but I will confess to being a little interested in people's intercourse frequency patterns )

Annalou, great things are going to happen for you, my girl! 100mg down the hatch now, right? All finished? [licks fingers clean]. Fingers crossed for you, my love

Meluv, you were asking if I'd gone up to the higher dose of 100mg? No...this is my second round at 50mg [jealous of 100mg-ers emoticon]. When I go for my scan on Tuesday I want to see FOUR bulging follicles with a mental age of eighteen

Daisy, really wonderful to hear you ovulated What a treat.

Mumalah, very sweet of you to enquire after me. How are you, lovely?

Hopefully, please make sure, when you go to see the consultant, that you ask him to tell you what he sees when he looks at your fertility history. Ask him to explain your FSH, AMH and progesterone scores so that you are fully informed of the reality of your situation. How does he think he can help you and in what time frame? Don't leave until he has clearly answered all your questions and you are in no doubt as to what they are able to do for you and what they are not. I am sorry if I sound patronising but you sound as though you are in the dark a little. You deserve some professional TLC and some answers, my love x

Meluv, it does sound as though AF is on its way. Please be strong and remember...this was simply a dress rehearsal for the real thing xxx

Hi ladies

Christelle - Thank you for message. Good luck with clomid glad you ov keep up the bed rocking hun.

Annalou - Good luck with the double dose hope it works great for you.

Golden - Sorry you had a rough few days. Apologise to dp if u have not done it already it will make you feel better & blame the clomid i do lol ( well it is the clomid as it does mess with the brain). Good luck hope u r both speaking very soon, you will be as you both missing each other already. Your pass is the pass & now u have changed your life round & u r a lovely person now & that's what matters present & future. what does not kill us makes us stronger hun. Don't let that ex friend make you feel bad u paid the price & now you have changed your life round.

Meluv - Well done for not testing you have great self control, fingers cross for u i hope u r hun.

Coolmint - welcome

The last few days been shit for me been feeling like i'm pg i even didn't go out last night coz i thought i was i had no af pains i'm cd28 ( i have 28 day cycles or ealier) so today felt good done a test this evening bfn i am so pissed off i know i should never get my hopes up been ttc for 5 years 5th cycle of clomid wtf was i thinking stupid bitch i should of waited like meluv i normally do but my tummy felt different this time i thought i was till fucking now i have got very bad endo af pains someone shot me now! oh well hopefully i get bfp next month on my last course of clomid fingers cross & a massive miracle.

Good luck ladies Hugs, flowers & bfp
Have a good weekend xx

Gosh busy on here tonight. Nice to see you back golden. Thanks for the (thanks) little gutted but very nervous now that I am about to take ny first tablet. I am hoping it will work on the first month and so worried it wont as I know I will be so dissapointed x

message clashed thank you golden for that great advice i will write it down & ask consultant questions as i am in the dark sadly thanks hun. he said last time i went he thinks its the endo causing me problems ttc as everything else is great but i will have a baby just dont know when, he also said when he see me in dec i will be pg with twins piss taking idiot.

Argh! Lots of fears and doubts about this drug resulting in a bambino for us all. Let's re-group and take a deep breath.........

Npg1, don't be nervous, love, there are lots of success stories surrounding Clomid and there is no reason why it shouldn't work for you. We will try to keep your feet on the ground during the 2ww because the excitement and expectations we have on the first round can really carry us away. Aaaand breathe.....

Hopefully, I'm sorry you feel so rotten. You really could do with some luck. Can you remind me, as I've forgotten, what your plans are if this Clomid doesn't work? What will you do next? Aaaaand breathe.......

Hopefully, we've clashed again! Yes, your consultant seems to find the humorous side of your situation and I am sure he is trying to perk you up a little but what the fuck does he intend to do, stupid man?

I really must stop fucking swearing. It's simply not on

What does 2ww mean? Thank you so much x

Recently experienced side effects of Clomid: hot flushes/sweats (only in the evening, which is weird, I think); teary, emotional and hot-tempered. Bring it on, I say....

Npg1, 2ww means the 'two week wait' after ovulation and leading up to your period, you know, when we're desperately looking for any sign that we might be pregnant and start thinking of baby names and which schools to send them to! Aaargh!!

Golden thats what i'm going to ask him wtf u going do with me & i can't have ivf so i don't know hun hopefully i get my answers from him in few weeks. Last time he also said i had serve depressions but cant give me pills as it would affect ttc so he sent me on my way with 3 months of clomid & no more testing. I'm just asking dr google what other method of ttc i can try next. yeah the clomid side effects r a bitch but hopefully it works great for you this month & u have bfp hun. I dont normally swear but im in fucking pain & shitting myself that my last cycle of clomid is not going to fucking work sorry had to let it out :)

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oh fuck my af has come & kicking me down. can't get up now :(

meluv your lil queen is definitely watching over you, I know it. I'm not a religious person at all but I often have a strong feeling that my Mum's around - well, our Mums do live on inside us.

golden it's funny, I have that feeling about my ovaries too. Think it's because the HCG failed, and I wasn't that surprised when it did. I wouldn't say that money is no object but it's manageable. We have some money that my Dad left us and I know he'd be happy with us putting it towards fertility treatment. In terms of retrieving the eggs - in theory there should have been eggs in my follicles >18mm - for IVF they put a needle right into the follicle and get the eggs out. I don't know, maybe there will never be any there, or maybe there were and my body just couldn't release them... this is something I have to ask the consultant when I see her next week. (Am making a HUGE list of questions!)

Yes, I would most definitely consider donor eggs. At first I preferred the thought of adoption - wasn't sure how I'd cope knowing that our child was fully DH's and not really mine. But the truth is, I want to carry a baby...I want to give birth...I want to be there from day one. If it's not my egg, so be it. But, then again, if it ends up being adoption...so be that, too. Beggars can't be choosers eh :)

(What you said about names - remember when we first started TTC and we both made lists of the names we liked. We were laughing at some of each other's choices...so naive!)

Hopefully sorry if I missed this earlier but have you had a laparoscopy? Because they can actually remove pockets of endo during that op - if that's what your main problem is. If you haven't had one speak to your consultant about it, ask if it's a possibility.

So sorry hopefully, sending hugs

Hi summer i had lap to remove endo a year ago it just came back quick also had my tube unblocked which is fine now & i cant keep having lap to remove endo coz of scar tissue. still now i have a big scar from one of the 3 holes. Thanks for the advice hun. yes im also making a list of questions to ask dr. I really do hope your dr can give you all the answers & treatment you deserve.

Thanks christelle got hugs. sending you hugs hun

Sorry hopefully, I felt like that yesterday. In fact the pain was so bad last night it kept me awake for an hour and I feared another mc. This is my second af since mc. I havent taken any painkillars since 4pm so hoping its passed. First clomid taken! So worried im gonna be a moodg shit, cos I am already lol

npg1 sorry to hear about your mc poor thing & so recent. I know mc are not nice last time i was pg i mc. hugs hun. I have taken some strong painkillers & hot water bottle on my back i could not move but can still feel some pain but not as bad, same here feels like im having a mc but i know its not. Thats good news your not in pain anymore. Good luck with clomid i hope it works great for you. Don't worry about side effects hopefully it will be worth it in the end & if you are feeling moody or how ever you feel you can chat on this clomid thread to ladies in the same clomid hard journey who understand.