Emmsys weebling onwards and upwards into summer.

[VJay]

Here we are a new spruced up greenhouse

louey I am mega impressed at your long and personal post. You're supermum! Sooo glad Oscar is putting on weight. And yes please get some pics up here when you have a second! How are the dt taking to big brother-dom? Hope they're being angels for you!
I was going to work on a Sat cos I work(ed) in a shop...am just doing odd Saturdays for them over the summer to cover staff leave. Quite enjoyed it on sat, literally nothing had changed so was like I'd never been away!

barbie I like the sound of twin-watch sorry you're feeling weebly (I put wobbly first but that makes it sound like you're feeling overweight )

Hm, just seen ds do his little gorilla crawl (up on his feet) to the end of the garden (I tend to leave the back sliding door open on nice days and he comes in and out!) ...better go rescue him I think before his clothes get covered in soil again!!

So sorry but this is going to be a me post, I really need to vent... Found out this afternoon that this last cycle of IUI hasn't worked. Then she tells me that I can't go straight onto my next (and final) cycle of IUI because they're upping the drugs, and so I need to get paperwork filled out and accepted by my health insurance, which normally takes about three weeks.
The lab closes over the summer, which means I won't be able to do the IUI until August, and I have my intake appt for the 1st Aug, which they will now have to change because I can't do the intake appt before they have seen that the 4th cycle of IUI has failed.
At your intake appt you register for the IVF, the first date as of now being a start date of 10th Sept. Obviously, that date is going to change as more people register, so by the time I should have registered it probably would've been mid/end sept. Goodness knows what it's going to be now. I just can't believe that one measly bit of paperwork that could have been done weeks ago is going to add more time onto this. I feel so fed up. I feel like my life is on hold waiting for something that might never happen, and I feel awful that this is the case. Today has been terrible, and I have spent most of the afternoon crying.

Sorry to just post about me, but I really feel sh*t and don't know what to do, not that I can do anything anyway of course...

Must go as dh is back xxx

Oh monkey I am so sorry, this is just so unfair . I'm sorry this last cycle of IUI hasn't worked and that you now have to wait longer for the next try. It sounds so hard at the moment, and you've been through enough already.
I've said this before, and I'll say it again, you are one of the most stongest women I know, so remember that, you will get through this. Tears are good, better than bottling it all up.
Hope you are having a big hug with your DH right now, and here's one from me {{{ monkey }}}

Hugs from me too monkey life is crap sometimes isnt it, and vjay is right, tears are better out than in. I dont know what to say really but I am thinking of you lots xxx

barbie at your dh thinking I was dtd whilst thinking of you all! Was in a lot of pain today, but its wearing off now. Gutted I had to miss my zumba class, I love it, but can hardly stand up right let alone dance. Next steps - wont know yet til end of July when have a follow up appointment with the consultant. And not sure about being strong, but its genuine, and you welling up surely means hormones awry huh

to all the girls and wonders where bqs prince is....

Hello all just a quick post from me sorry no personals but just to let you know still no sign of baby had attempted sweep today but they could not manage as cervix still too high !!
Induction booked for middle of next week if no sign keep your fingers crossed her arrives before then !!

Love to you all x x x

bq massive hugs going out to you; it is crap waiting. I remember all the attempted sweeps and being told my cervix was too high; it is so disheartening. Will keep everything crossed that he arrives with no intervention. Keep us posted, we're all thinking of you x

monkey that is so crap that a stupid piece of paper has to put your life on hold for yet more long weeks. I wish there was something more we could do :(
I know you're not looking for platitudes but I just have to say you really are one of the loveliest people I've ever 'met' and I just can't wait until we're all cooing over pics of your ds and your new baby - because that IS going to happen. And when it does, all this waiting won't seem like it was as long as it feels now. I'm so sorry this cycle hasn't worked :( Go get all those tears out and dampen your dh's shoulder. Then fly a kite with your ds. We love you x

ps moon sorry you were in pain today but glad it's worn off now. I'm of you doing zumba!

b*er, fk, st, crp, monkey I am so very, very sorry and angry on your behalf. Life is indeed a bitch, why oh why is this happening to you? My first though was guilt for having this (hopefully) tiny little life start inside me when you deserve it so very much. Is there any way that something can be done? Can somebody else sign the paperwork? Can you not just go ahead and follow up with insurance later? Is there another clinic that will take you on and start things for you now? I hate with a passion all this legal mumbo jumbo, health insurance is a bloody nightmare. Do you need my barbiemobile? The petrol tank is full.....

Right if there is nothing that they can do, lets try to focus on the positives...a long, hot summer sipping magners in the garden, with no worries about getting a hangover, you can take painkillers to fight off the nasty hangover the next day.....you wont have to worry about being in the sun, you will run faster when flying the kite with your gorgeous ds, you get to enjoy Charlie all by himself for one last, indulgent summer, because IVF is going to work come september and next summer you will be all occupied with your new born. Did that help any?

bq not long now love, the last few weeks are a pita, but the end in nigh!

moon ouch, i hope the pain is completely gone and you are back zumba-ring very soon. I did that a few weeks ago, i had no idea what the heck it was....OH MY GOD

Oh monkey that's just rubbish, both about the IUI and having to wait to do the next one I'm so cross on your behalf. I hope DH gave you lots of hugs last night xxx

moon hope the pain has gone. I really want to try Zumba but in the comfort of my living room so I don't have an audience to watch my uncoordinated attempts.....

bq hang in there....

barbie poor Dolly (again) and I'm sorry you have had such a rough night. Hope you get some answers soon x

Oh and waves to cupcake and vjay - have a very fuzzy brain this morning.

louey did your hcg levels triple with the dt's????

Hi barbie, when is your twin scan?

I didn't have bloods done with the DTs barbie so I don't know. My ms was worse with them than it was with Oscar and I had a sixth sense before the scan that it would be twins, even stopped looking at single buggies and started looking at twin ones In hindsight, i should have taken out twin insurance. It would be soooo exciting if it were twins

26th June, they will try to attempt a scan...i think more to see that the pregnancy is viable and its in the right place. I think Doc was only joking about seeing two but bloods tripling can be a sign of multiple babies or molar

My stomach is bloated so much, i cant do up my shorts i think a combination of not being able to take ibs meds and everything else is making me look about 4 months...eek!

barbie I was defiantly bigger earlier on in my pg second time round, so add that into the mix too

Move your bum up a bit please Barbie?!?!

4ever - does that mean what I think it means?????

yes, at least i think so 5 tests yesterday and today, but all very very faint lines, despite being due on today...

Weebling hugely already, previous tests were always dark even when early testing? Also, we need more immunotherapy treatment by 6wks to stop me miscarrying again, but called the portland (only place that does it) and spoke to the scatty one of his 2 secretarys, the other good one is off for 8wks typically, and the scatty one said the lab dont have any dates I explained the other secretary had already told me the lab were hard to deal with but she would plead my cause when I fell pregnant again, so the scatty one said shed speak to the consultant and the lab and get back to me in a couple of days... Why is nothing simple? Incidentally Monkey totally empathise with your situation, why is it the bureaucracy can have such disregard for the way it affects our lives, and future lives, makes me so angry.. Here is a huge belated hug to you..

Im sorry for the me post, and like Barbie I feel a bit guilty that its happened for us before the very deserving Moon Monkey and not forgetting Jools too...
Sorry to be rambling on! Still dont truly believe its definate cos of dodgy test lines.. Need to go dig out my cyclogest and aspirin, and buy some folic acid!

4ever

You and barbie are really not helpng with my broodiness you know, , just think of my poor dh

Eeeeeekkkk!!!!! How fantastic!!

Right, deep breath - don't worry about how dark the lines are, tests vary and you may have implanted later than you thought.

Hope the lab will give you a slot - I'm not sure exactly what the immunotherapy treatment is but have you tried other clinics? I'm thinking particularly of ARGC, cos my sister has had some sort of immune treatment with them. She's on holiday at the moment so I can't ask her what it was. Might be worth going on fertilityfriends.co.uk and asking on there if there is anywhere else in London who does it.

Isn't it weird that me and BQ are vacating the big pants bench and we have 2 new bfps to replace us

Hi louey

bq how are you, are you pushing yet?????

4ever!!!!!!!!!!
That is so mega exciting. I'm going to text you now with lots more exclamation marks. Really hope scatty lady can get you in...have image of her with flyaway hair and wonky glasses

louey I think we've always had one or more on the medium/big pants bench since this thread began...and hopefully it shall remain that way. Told you we'd be getting more bfps...right, who's number 3???

Me????? , only joking!

Love you ladies soooo much! Feel bit guilty that told you all before my mum! Told DH by handing him a happy fathers day gift bag and saying I had an early fathers day gift for him with 4 tests inside! He looked like this then like this

Cant wait for tomorrow to do a first wee test!

Louey thank you for that hon, i just googled Lymphocyte immunotherapy treatment and ARGC and seems everyone used my consultant at the portland, im thinking there must be more than 1 lab able to do the blood seperating though? Its cos i have 2wk timeframe thats freaking me out

Vjay go on you know you wanna!

Cupcake you too my pregnant buddy! Your text was so sweet, you always say the right thing, as much as i do feel a bit bad on Summer, my very pfb, you are right it is a gift to her, although I just hope she feels that at the time, she is such my little buddy, I cant get enough of her and we are together 24 7, only left her about 10 times! God i tell you my brain is just on overdrive, so many things to think about.. Think id better try and sleep!

4ever for some reason I am not at all surprised at your news, but i am very, very happy for you Stop worrying, my lines were faint, the doc told me that usually after pregnancy it takes a while longer for implantation due to the womb being different or somefink this is normally the reason on 2nd pregnancies that the dates are always out...At least that is what i think she was chatting on about either way a line is a line, so come sit and wobble with me and my twin/ molar pregnancy...

Is it the 26th yet??? Time is going so so so slowly...

vjay i'm guessing hubby would be more than pleased if you start jumping on him in bed